05-19-2016, 06:44 PM
Day 60 - light clears a path
I originally planned on running ltu till xmas. I will re-evaluate my decision at month 6 which I will be listening till, at minimum.
I broke through two weeks worth of resistance. I notice that subs hit better when you listen both ultrasonic and masked with headphones, alternatively. The majority of my listening is speakers ultrasonic. The resistance was just a constant flow of bad memories, bad de ja vu, and just the opposite of good. I consciously did what I could to raise my vibration. pray rain, afformations, affirmations, in the moment meditation, favorite movies and past times. Well it seems my efforts have helped survive and break through.
I went to the grocery store and only got veggies, meat, hummus, and almond butter. In the past I would buy cookies, chips, and little extras but now its easier to choose healthy items.
Finally got back to the gym since running the half marathon. I noticed people watched when I went heavy. I also think a few girls were checking me out.
I won 240 gambling against a better player...I wasn't playing better, he just kept scratching or missing the 9 ball by a little.
I won 50 bucks from a slot machine. I received a 20 dollar slot free play voucher in the mail and played it when I gave my friend a ride to fix his car.
I'm pretty sure I overdid it in the gym...gonna be so sore tmr...but the funny thing is, I like it cuz I know I'm getting stronger.
I haven't had an anxiety attack in a while.
People are friendlier around me.
and I love my 3 month old nephew soo much...brings back memories of when my little brother was a baby. looks like him too.
Life is good to enjoy because everything is a miracle...everything.
there's like 5 quotes mashed in there...lol
I originally planned on running ltu till xmas. I will re-evaluate my decision at month 6 which I will be listening till, at minimum.
I broke through two weeks worth of resistance. I notice that subs hit better when you listen both ultrasonic and masked with headphones, alternatively. The majority of my listening is speakers ultrasonic. The resistance was just a constant flow of bad memories, bad de ja vu, and just the opposite of good. I consciously did what I could to raise my vibration. pray rain, afformations, affirmations, in the moment meditation, favorite movies and past times. Well it seems my efforts have helped survive and break through.
I went to the grocery store and only got veggies, meat, hummus, and almond butter. In the past I would buy cookies, chips, and little extras but now its easier to choose healthy items.
Finally got back to the gym since running the half marathon. I noticed people watched when I went heavy. I also think a few girls were checking me out.
I won 240 gambling against a better player...I wasn't playing better, he just kept scratching or missing the 9 ball by a little.
I won 50 bucks from a slot machine. I received a 20 dollar slot free play voucher in the mail and played it when I gave my friend a ride to fix his car.
I'm pretty sure I overdid it in the gym...gonna be so sore tmr...but the funny thing is, I like it cuz I know I'm getting stronger.
I haven't had an anxiety attack in a while.
People are friendlier around me.
and I love my 3 month old nephew soo much...brings back memories of when my little brother was a baby. looks like him too.
Life is good to enjoy because everything is a miracle...everything.
there's like 5 quotes mashed in there...lol
