So far on Stage 3 I feel like a piece of shit. It's hard to experience this again.
In Stage 2 I felt attractive and sexual. Now it feels like those things have slipped away. In Stage 2 I had my hangups about size and stamina, but I was determined and hopeful. Now they feel like anchors.
Maybe it's just the stage. I do still get attention. Hell I'm pretty sure I got a but presentation today. Why am I not 100%? Because the weights she needed were in fact in front of me—she then proceeded to remain in front of me, bend over, and use them as I was doing my set. This actually annoyed me because I was using the mirror. Hitting low body fat really does maximize your image. I also noticed that as I moved to different spots in the gym, she kept ending up a few feet away from me.
Anyway my friend was telling me that he usually lasts a long time. He's good with women, experienced, and comfortable with his body. I'll admit that I often live vicariously through his stories. Well this particular story he told made me feel like garbage because it reminded me that I'm small, bust quick, and inexperienced. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach.
I've never been consistent with penile development. I don't know if it's a mental block or what. I generally dislike the work that is involved and really struggle to make it a habit, therefore I've seen very little growth. I sound like a broken record but PE is what really gets me down. It seems like something I'm cursed with that will not change. I feel helpless about it and I hate that feeling.
So it's a double whammy and that's what I hate the most. Why can't I at least have a big dick and PE, or a small dick and insane stamina. When I see nubile women, especially now being on their radar, I feel chained by these things. It's a real mind fuck because I'm more aware than ever of all the pussy I could be getting.
In Stage 2 I felt attractive and sexual. Now it feels like those things have slipped away. In Stage 2 I had my hangups about size and stamina, but I was determined and hopeful. Now they feel like anchors.
Maybe it's just the stage. I do still get attention. Hell I'm pretty sure I got a but presentation today. Why am I not 100%? Because the weights she needed were in fact in front of me—she then proceeded to remain in front of me, bend over, and use them as I was doing my set. This actually annoyed me because I was using the mirror. Hitting low body fat really does maximize your image. I also noticed that as I moved to different spots in the gym, she kept ending up a few feet away from me.
Anyway my friend was telling me that he usually lasts a long time. He's good with women, experienced, and comfortable with his body. I'll admit that I often live vicariously through his stories. Well this particular story he told made me feel like garbage because it reminded me that I'm small, bust quick, and inexperienced. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach.
I've never been consistent with penile development. I don't know if it's a mental block or what. I generally dislike the work that is involved and really struggle to make it a habit, therefore I've seen very little growth. I sound like a broken record but PE is what really gets me down. It seems like something I'm cursed with that will not change. I feel helpless about it and I hate that feeling.
So it's a double whammy and that's what I hate the most. Why can't I at least have a big dick and PE, or a small dick and insane stamina. When I see nubile women, especially now being on their radar, I feel chained by these things. It's a real mind fuck because I'm more aware than ever of all the pussy I could be getting.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
