day 20
woke up angry bout yelling at my brother. sometimes I hyper focus on bits of a conversation and react solely on words or phrases...this gets me into trouble...a lot. Its tiring maintaining a relationship with me, according to some friends. It must be hard being my family member. I realized that I have quite a bit of work to do and I constantly remind myself that it's going to get better.
I keep comparing what I would've done in the past to what I am doing now and what a difference.
I am in barrier city, meaning I'm so close to getting to that next level in my life. Everything I want is within arms reach and I'm trying to grab them but its like oops not yet. Come on already universe!
-There are 3 girls at my local bar I like but I keep getting mixed signals and one of them stopped responding completely(idk why?)
-My customers (I'm commission only) have made me do all this work and then either used another agent or stopped talking to me completely(this includes my brother, yeah that's why I'm angry, he used another agent and that agent got the commission. I have been working since last October and haven't made a single dollar at the agency. I listened to asc, base 2.0, luck magnifier, winners mindset, gratitude and appreciation and stress relief while working at the agency. I paid 2000 usd for training. I was at the top of the class. so its been 6 months working spending all my savings living off credit. Everyone in the training class has made money except me. I listen to audiobooks on everything I can, from sales to self improvement. I am going into debt and my brother, who thinks he knows it all, made a technical mistake and gave the other see you next Tuesday agent the commission. This agent, I found out from some of the seasoned agents in my place, is nasty, cold, and evil. I mean I told her my situation and she said its not her problem my brother made a mistake. Then she got loud, like ghetto black out loud then hung up on me before I could get in another word, and I was trying to be nice because I knew we made the mistake. She pissed me off so much. My skin isn't as thick as it used to be.)
-I know that ltu is helping because I keep thinking about how I know something good will happen after the smoke clears
I can feel it is close, the job, the love, then I can finally get my own place and maybe a car that runs...soooooooooo close.
Upgrade my life! Life Tune Up!
I'm serious here. If anyone can tell help me figure out why I can't make money, please help. I want to succeed dammit!
I gotta go do something productive to keep my mind occupied.
woke up angry bout yelling at my brother. sometimes I hyper focus on bits of a conversation and react solely on words or phrases...this gets me into trouble...a lot. Its tiring maintaining a relationship with me, according to some friends. It must be hard being my family member. I realized that I have quite a bit of work to do and I constantly remind myself that it's going to get better.
I keep comparing what I would've done in the past to what I am doing now and what a difference.
I am in barrier city, meaning I'm so close to getting to that next level in my life. Everything I want is within arms reach and I'm trying to grab them but its like oops not yet. Come on already universe!
-There are 3 girls at my local bar I like but I keep getting mixed signals and one of them stopped responding completely(idk why?)
-My customers (I'm commission only) have made me do all this work and then either used another agent or stopped talking to me completely(this includes my brother, yeah that's why I'm angry, he used another agent and that agent got the commission. I have been working since last October and haven't made a single dollar at the agency. I listened to asc, base 2.0, luck magnifier, winners mindset, gratitude and appreciation and stress relief while working at the agency. I paid 2000 usd for training. I was at the top of the class. so its been 6 months working spending all my savings living off credit. Everyone in the training class has made money except me. I listen to audiobooks on everything I can, from sales to self improvement. I am going into debt and my brother, who thinks he knows it all, made a technical mistake and gave the other see you next Tuesday agent the commission. This agent, I found out from some of the seasoned agents in my place, is nasty, cold, and evil. I mean I told her my situation and she said its not her problem my brother made a mistake. Then she got loud, like ghetto black out loud then hung up on me before I could get in another word, and I was trying to be nice because I knew we made the mistake. She pissed me off so much. My skin isn't as thick as it used to be.)
-I know that ltu is helping because I keep thinking about how I know something good will happen after the smoke clears
I can feel it is close, the job, the love, then I can finally get my own place and maybe a car that runs...soooooooooo close.
Upgrade my life! Life Tune Up!
I'm serious here. If anyone can tell help me figure out why I can't make money, please help. I want to succeed dammit!
I gotta go do something productive to keep my mind occupied.
