03-30-2016, 09:44 AM
Half-way through stage 2. It's been strange 2 weeks, and following ones are sure to be strange as well. I stopped exercising LOA, mainly because I truly don't know what I'm looking for. I still meet with that girl from before (we are friends now, although it's very complicated) and she makes me realize important things about life and love.
You see, ever since I started doing subs I've been torn. While starting my runs I was beta as fuck, virgin and hopeless loser. Things are better now, but I'm still introvert and romantic. I know most of you would say oneitis is wrong, but I am a person who enjoys comfort and stability. I mean of course it's hard to find the right person and it's easy to think wrong person is the right one and suffer afterwards, but I believe it's worth it. With her though... I'll never truly have her, there will be no oneitis. And I'm not really fine with it, but maybe I have to learn to be accept it and enjoy things as they are. Yes, I am insecure right now.
Funny thing is she believes in destiny, and there are some strange coincidences around our personas. I don't believe in destiny, but I accept she might be manifested. If so it's funny: she's not somebody I want, but she may well be somebody I need right now. Not to be happy with, but to have our moments and teach me life.
You see, ever since I started doing subs I've been torn. While starting my runs I was beta as fuck, virgin and hopeless loser. Things are better now, but I'm still introvert and romantic. I know most of you would say oneitis is wrong, but I am a person who enjoys comfort and stability. I mean of course it's hard to find the right person and it's easy to think wrong person is the right one and suffer afterwards, but I believe it's worth it. With her though... I'll never truly have her, there will be no oneitis. And I'm not really fine with it, but maybe I have to learn to be accept it and enjoy things as they are. Yes, I am insecure right now.
Funny thing is she believes in destiny, and there are some strange coincidences around our personas. I don't believe in destiny, but I accept she might be manifested. If so it's funny: she's not somebody I want, but she may well be somebody I need right now. Not to be happy with, but to have our moments and teach me life.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
