03-17-2016, 01:36 PM
I'm probably just gonna let off some steam here about something that's been on my mind.
I'm not assertive enough. I don't know what it is, but being assertive with people feels like overstepping my boundaries. Which is funny because if I need to be assertive with someone 9/10 they really crossed the line because I'm a pretty easygoing person.
I've got a job interview tomorrow for a sales associate position. I'll see how that goes. My main concern is what management is like. That can really make or break a job for me. Managers that are on constant power trips are the worst. I'm trying to really get rid of that fear of being fired. I find that's one of the fears that keeps you anchored to a crappy job.
As far as anxiety goes. I'm a lot more calm than I thought I would be. Normally by now my thoughts are racing about not being good enough for the job, the mistakes I might make, how to make a good impression, etc. But now it's kind of like here's my skills, here's me, hire me or don't it's up to you. Sounds kind of arrogant but a lot of that other stuff is just approval seeking. I feel like approval seeking was instilled in me at a young age under the false pretense of being "nice". And if I wasn't "nice" I was shamed for it. Stretch that over a few years and bam, you've got a recipe for an individual who derives their sense of self worth from what others think of him . Along with that comes the inability to assert himself because being "nice" is more important. No more of that.
I'm not assertive enough. I don't know what it is, but being assertive with people feels like overstepping my boundaries. Which is funny because if I need to be assertive with someone 9/10 they really crossed the line because I'm a pretty easygoing person.
I've got a job interview tomorrow for a sales associate position. I'll see how that goes. My main concern is what management is like. That can really make or break a job for me. Managers that are on constant power trips are the worst. I'm trying to really get rid of that fear of being fired. I find that's one of the fears that keeps you anchored to a crappy job.
As far as anxiety goes. I'm a lot more calm than I thought I would be. Normally by now my thoughts are racing about not being good enough for the job, the mistakes I might make, how to make a good impression, etc. But now it's kind of like here's my skills, here's me, hire me or don't it's up to you. Sounds kind of arrogant but a lot of that other stuff is just approval seeking. I feel like approval seeking was instilled in me at a young age under the false pretense of being "nice". And if I wasn't "nice" I was shamed for it. Stretch that over a few years and bam, you've got a recipe for an individual who derives their sense of self worth from what others think of him . Along with that comes the inability to assert himself because being "nice" is more important. No more of that.
