03-07-2016, 11:08 AM
SM3 Stage 1 Day 14
I had resistance to SM3 today, or maybe it was not.
I was out with my friends, I was on fire and having fun, bantering, and really having good time, and out of blue, I stopped talking, and I can feel something that I can't explain in words but the feeling was on my face.
Though I had similar experiences in stage 6, but dint think it as resistance but now I can see that the same earlier experience was resistance, and the thing about that earlier resistance in stage 6 was occured due to little fight I had with my friend, and I just stopped talking to anyone, and I had felt extremely lonely in that moment.
Looking back today, there was no reason to feel this way and I could not explain any reason behind it but the resistance.
I sometimes feel something not good without any reason in social situation, and there does not seem similar experience in Stage 1 of SM3.
Another thing to report though it seems repeatative.
1. IOIs from girls and my ex texting me
2. I feel that I have social confidence more than ever
3. Though I don't feel swagger in my walk as I had experience in AM6 and in stage 1 of SM3 in my first run.
4. My neediness has increased and the thing about is that it is not shown in my interaction, but very often, I feel something void in my life, and want some girl or someone else's approval
5. I also fight a lot with other people without any reason
6. I don't understand why but I stutter a lot sometimes and specifically in some situations.
7. My posture has not been good as was in AM6 and in later stages of SM3.
8. I had many daydreams but not a single lucid dream at night as I had with my first run
9. My masterbastation habit came back with this stage 1.
10. Though I can sense that something else is changing but can't see it though and can't seem to notice it sometimes.
I had resistance to SM3 today, or maybe it was not.
I was out with my friends, I was on fire and having fun, bantering, and really having good time, and out of blue, I stopped talking, and I can feel something that I can't explain in words but the feeling was on my face.
Though I had similar experiences in stage 6, but dint think it as resistance but now I can see that the same earlier experience was resistance, and the thing about that earlier resistance in stage 6 was occured due to little fight I had with my friend, and I just stopped talking to anyone, and I had felt extremely lonely in that moment.
Looking back today, there was no reason to feel this way and I could not explain any reason behind it but the resistance.
I sometimes feel something not good without any reason in social situation, and there does not seem similar experience in Stage 1 of SM3.
Another thing to report though it seems repeatative.
1. IOIs from girls and my ex texting me
2. I feel that I have social confidence more than ever
3. Though I don't feel swagger in my walk as I had experience in AM6 and in stage 1 of SM3 in my first run.
4. My neediness has increased and the thing about is that it is not shown in my interaction, but very often, I feel something void in my life, and want some girl or someone else's approval
5. I also fight a lot with other people without any reason
6. I don't understand why but I stutter a lot sometimes and specifically in some situations.
7. My posture has not been good as was in AM6 and in later stages of SM3.
8. I had many daydreams but not a single lucid dream at night as I had with my first run
9. My masterbastation habit came back with this stage 1.
10. Though I can sense that something else is changing but can't see it though and can't seem to notice it sometimes.
