at first, i used ultrasonic... and the gears turning sensation took hold all in a matter of about a few seconds and remained noticeably novel for about 5 minutes, Shannon! I was worried about it being placebo effect.... but I came home and turned on the trickling stream, and lo and behold the gears are turning again. 
loaded cannon aimed straight at eternitys_child's subconscious.... ready. steady.. fire!
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i found out that my room mate told my other room mate he thought i had a 'holier than thou' attitude... that really hurt me that the 1st room mate had the audacity to hold judgements, especially behind my back. it hurt a lot more than i thought it would. i had to call the lady friend to process it, and she helped me through it. It became pretty apparent that it's an issue on him, not on me. there's a saying that goes like "when you point your finger at someone, there's 3 fingers pointing right back at you"... which implies that the judgement someone may make about me is really a reflection of what they see about themselves. which COMPLETELY makes sense, since the dude who thinks i'm "holier than thou" always has someone else's name in his mouth, and is always in judgement about others... so it was only a matter of time my name appeared in his mouth, and i'm sure it has been mentioned more than this once; i was only informed of it this once.
so, long story short: gossip hurts. and it affects my self esteem and confidence and my ego/pride as a man. although as a man, i like to pretend that kinda stuff doesn't affect me, but the truth is it really does.
also, i had a coffee date with this beautiful girl earlier. i really dig her presence, our conversation didn't have a single dull moment in it, although i kept feeling like i was getting awkward during our conversation, so i would re-kindle it by slightly changing the topic... but she was digging it
[side note: as i was writing this and thinking about her, she texted me..... maybe a coincidence? maybe not....] we discussed manifestation, and perhaps starting a weekly group intention/manifestation meditation session. if it doesn't become a manifestation session, it would certainly be intention. we were talking about law of attraction and stuff and how manifestation is heavily blocked by subconscious beliefs based on guilt shame and fear, and how manifesting something using the conscious mind will be very difficult if the subconscious doesn't vibe with it. i.e, consciously wanting to manifest abundance, but the subconscious feeling like it doesn't deserve abundance.... thereby creating a block to the manifestation
whoooooo. lot happened today!
loaded cannon aimed straight at eternitys_child's subconscious.... ready. steady.. fire!
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i found out that my room mate told my other room mate he thought i had a 'holier than thou' attitude... that really hurt me that the 1st room mate had the audacity to hold judgements, especially behind my back. it hurt a lot more than i thought it would. i had to call the lady friend to process it, and she helped me through it. It became pretty apparent that it's an issue on him, not on me. there's a saying that goes like "when you point your finger at someone, there's 3 fingers pointing right back at you"... which implies that the judgement someone may make about me is really a reflection of what they see about themselves. which COMPLETELY makes sense, since the dude who thinks i'm "holier than thou" always has someone else's name in his mouth, and is always in judgement about others... so it was only a matter of time my name appeared in his mouth, and i'm sure it has been mentioned more than this once; i was only informed of it this once.
so, long story short: gossip hurts. and it affects my self esteem and confidence and my ego/pride as a man. although as a man, i like to pretend that kinda stuff doesn't affect me, but the truth is it really does.
also, i had a coffee date with this beautiful girl earlier. i really dig her presence, our conversation didn't have a single dull moment in it, although i kept feeling like i was getting awkward during our conversation, so i would re-kindle it by slightly changing the topic... but she was digging it
[side note: as i was writing this and thinking about her, she texted me..... maybe a coincidence? maybe not....] we discussed manifestation, and perhaps starting a weekly group intention/manifestation meditation session. if it doesn't become a manifestation session, it would certainly be intention. we were talking about law of attraction and stuff and how manifestation is heavily blocked by subconscious beliefs based on guilt shame and fear, and how manifesting something using the conscious mind will be very difficult if the subconscious doesn't vibe with it. i.e, consciously wanting to manifest abundance, but the subconscious feeling like it doesn't deserve abundance.... thereby creating a block to the manifestationwhoooooo. lot happened today!
