04-13-2011, 01:47 PM
Quote:Growing annoyance with others attitude. Sounds funny I'm annoyed by you being irritated. I'm recognizing this and working to catch myself from throwing attitude back at them.
Quoted from AYD's journal. I'm seeing this very prominently in myself right now. To say there's a difference between 2011 and 2009 would be an understatement, because what's happening now in Stage 3 is very, very powerful. It's become almost beyond my conscious control to hold back some of my behavior. I got the 'jerk' syndrome in the 2009 set (in the earlier stages, actually) but now in stage 3 of 2011 the no bullshit attitude has come on very, very strong. I'm happy old me 95% of the time but if something irritates me, if someone asks more of me than they should have, I will tell them, usually with them becoming submissive and using apologetic words with a mouse like voice. Don't get me wrong I'm not shouting, barely raising my voice, but raising it just enough and bluntly to stake my intentions. I wouldn't say I'm being anything like a Jerk like, but people absolutely definitely know not to mess with me now. If they doubted my Alphaness before, they certainly aren't now. It's hard for me to convey what I mean really. People don't end up thinking less of me, on the contrary, they think more of me. Having said that, I've got less than 2 weeks left on Stage 3 now, and honestly I can't wait to leave this stage and get the effects tempered. Very, very powerful.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
