day 78 ( 18 days remain )
Thoughts of manhandling seem to increase, its getting more dominant and alpha. responses to bullshit are pretty much met with an harsh shift inside. It feels great. Its lan further dissolving of the nice guy stndrome. The batman archetype and image resonates strongly aswell.
the domination thing is almost like being an handler in some way. the girl being submissive and what not. I know it might pass aswell, and these are changes along the process and sub running.
Im having some sort of glow over me, my eyes are very bright and have something extra to it now. The green in it seem to come out more aswell, or atleast, its all more clear. I did freak me out a bit. The sub is ruthless in that, merciless in its breaking through. I felt very confused and had pass out feelings because of that.
At work there was an new woman, older woman, my eyes directly locked with hers and the IOIs where instantly there from her side. I dismissed her eventually without giving it any thought. suprised me a bit. Hips turn me on and lock me directly into sexual state. Its like an trance, hypnosis almost, an shift, moment. placing herself next to me, showing hip, playing with her hair, dangling feet, the drill. Yet i experienced aswell as how strong attraction can be, an absolute certain and pull, not thinking just go. An otherworldly moment almost. yesterday this pull was at its strongest I have experienced up to date, which startled me a bit, its like eyes lock and cannot let go. Being stuck in the moment lol. Before i would be somehow suprised by attraction, head turns and the such, but now my mind directly goes along with it, accepting this new reality.
Im feeling incredibly confident, its off the charts, its brutal, all is focussed on overcoming new obstacles and almost an sort of excitement, but feeling so natural and free. unsure if it has to do with the couple of seconds running AM 6.0 on accident with setting it over to my Phone, but I feel amazing in every damn way. Im of the charts and all I do is met with confidence and this awesome electrifying sense. My thoughts are rolling, my mind is on fire.
Social media and forums are that, social media and forums. Nothing more then that. using them for your advantage instead of letting it use you and chip away time. Hold time valuable. Deeper pull towards masculinity and an shedding of feminist toxity. Embracy masculinity. Be self governing.
Did read more material from Christian Mcqueen and it is very inspirational.
Things like failure dont exist in an abundant mindset. they plays an non existent role in my life and mind. I still have moment fears and avoidance come up tho, which is an old habit coming from GSF. Im getting more and more aware how this doesnt match up with confidence and how this even will not benefit at all and only stems from lack of confidence. Its pretty much an beta trait. Its dishonest and self sabotaging.
feeling insanely driven, fears are dealt with, hesitation is dealt with. will join an gym as i feel like doing so as an way of self-development ( having around 6 year history in bodybuilding and strength training ) It all rolling and smooth. feel the need to process.
Its no longer an matter of "its outside my reality "its more of an "when will it click" and pull towards that. To already have it here in an way. to manifest it later, which makes me realize that the sub has some manifestation like qualities while I am the centre so to say. Not truly manifestation, maybe pseudo manifestation, but more of an allignment.
Im processing right now and feel automatic. Also somewhat aware about 5G and how it running one sub at a time is maximum to run.
Thoughts of manhandling seem to increase, its getting more dominant and alpha. responses to bullshit are pretty much met with an harsh shift inside. It feels great. Its lan further dissolving of the nice guy stndrome. The batman archetype and image resonates strongly aswell.
the domination thing is almost like being an handler in some way. the girl being submissive and what not. I know it might pass aswell, and these are changes along the process and sub running.
Im having some sort of glow over me, my eyes are very bright and have something extra to it now. The green in it seem to come out more aswell, or atleast, its all more clear. I did freak me out a bit. The sub is ruthless in that, merciless in its breaking through. I felt very confused and had pass out feelings because of that.
At work there was an new woman, older woman, my eyes directly locked with hers and the IOIs where instantly there from her side. I dismissed her eventually without giving it any thought. suprised me a bit. Hips turn me on and lock me directly into sexual state. Its like an trance, hypnosis almost, an shift, moment. placing herself next to me, showing hip, playing with her hair, dangling feet, the drill. Yet i experienced aswell as how strong attraction can be, an absolute certain and pull, not thinking just go. An otherworldly moment almost. yesterday this pull was at its strongest I have experienced up to date, which startled me a bit, its like eyes lock and cannot let go. Being stuck in the moment lol. Before i would be somehow suprised by attraction, head turns and the such, but now my mind directly goes along with it, accepting this new reality.
Im feeling incredibly confident, its off the charts, its brutal, all is focussed on overcoming new obstacles and almost an sort of excitement, but feeling so natural and free. unsure if it has to do with the couple of seconds running AM 6.0 on accident with setting it over to my Phone, but I feel amazing in every damn way. Im of the charts and all I do is met with confidence and this awesome electrifying sense. My thoughts are rolling, my mind is on fire.
Social media and forums are that, social media and forums. Nothing more then that. using them for your advantage instead of letting it use you and chip away time. Hold time valuable. Deeper pull towards masculinity and an shedding of feminist toxity. Embracy masculinity. Be self governing.
Did read more material from Christian Mcqueen and it is very inspirational.
Things like failure dont exist in an abundant mindset. they plays an non existent role in my life and mind. I still have moment fears and avoidance come up tho, which is an old habit coming from GSF. Im getting more and more aware how this doesnt match up with confidence and how this even will not benefit at all and only stems from lack of confidence. Its pretty much an beta trait. Its dishonest and self sabotaging.
feeling insanely driven, fears are dealt with, hesitation is dealt with. will join an gym as i feel like doing so as an way of self-development ( having around 6 year history in bodybuilding and strength training ) It all rolling and smooth. feel the need to process.
Its no longer an matter of "its outside my reality "its more of an "when will it click" and pull towards that. To already have it here in an way. to manifest it later, which makes me realize that the sub has some manifestation like qualities while I am the centre so to say. Not truly manifestation, maybe pseudo manifestation, but more of an allignment.
Im processing right now and feel automatic. Also somewhat aware about 5G and how it running one sub at a time is maximum to run.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
