ASC 5g journal

[Kol]

I have an claer sense in mind right now. Its very alpha and just straight to the point, direct and raw. Im im all directions currently, all scattered internal wise. Something is holding back, or atleast, thats what I belief currently. Its this sense that keeps itching but doesnt pull through, Yes I am confident in many ways, but its not fully there yet. |It feels somehow restricted. I can almost touch it right now, its clear in my head. This sexual masculine leader stuff. Im specualating if there is some SGF involved in it, and there is atleast some shitty programming involved in all of this. Its as if being stuck on an leash and Im questioning if ASC will eventually pull this through or that something else is needed to undo this. Breach the walls that hold me back. let ASC fully immerse and wash over. So much insights currently following eachother up now the masked wave track is playing. Its the almost yet keeps busting the wall down.

I want to do the fuck I want to do. Not being hold. Its as if my unchained state is still freaking chained and it pisses me off. Im right on the verge off an breakthrough aswell. I just want to step up on an girl and pull her take her with me and thats that. I find myself to much in my fucking head for my taste.