My sweet spot seem to be around 14-16 hours listening to this sub. More is not slways better and yesterday evening consisted of waves of breakthroughs. My head gets all hot when this happens.
Im becoming aware and opposed to more patterns and embrace the more traditional leader image, consisiting of boldness, disregard of being liked ( or even disliked?) , abundance, militant and high status rank kind of. Yet I dont care. Appealing to the female mind.
Im in no competition whatsoever, the masks are falling off, which makes sense when one wants to improve and have succes. Its another ballgame.
Carrying myself from an deeper sense and choocing words reflecting value and status. I am confident in many ways and lots of ways.
I experience myself as larger, taking up more space in the litteral sense, as if I have grown. makes perfect sense. The room looked smaller.
I might visit my parents at some time, while before i was hesitant towards it, clearly influence of the sub.
Im on an total different level, my vision is open, wide open, broaden and expanded. Its an sense of arriving at some mass event but in an highly important fashion and manner. All is embraced, I dont care, Transcending. An deeper sense of deservedness. My approach to "joining"such events is met with an slight thrill. Not much as it is all so natural now.
Its like this but smoother, more sophisticated playboy like but oozing status:
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I noticed my head going slightly numb, blood pumping around, mind exploding with possibilities. Not an follower. I seem to lose interest on this pattern when it is there, to be reminded I am no follower. Im edgy risky and take huge leaps right now, yet it is no big deal. Imagine being carefree and burn all, sacrifice all, yet being unaffected by it. Total freedom.
Lesser caring about eye contact now, less stuck up with it.
Attraction beyond the physical. I am absolutely attractive. As I am 26 I had many self image issues around it. This has shifted.. Im bold, masculine. escalation fills my mind. The hard moments I experienced in the last weeks could be the result of over exposure to the sub and not enough processing time. Im in allignment almost. Paradise. All is so smooth.
to day is day 70 ( 26 days remain + whatever desired )
All I worried about is replaced with sheer confidence, the responses in my head from people are directly adjusted, the outcome is directly faced by the sub and confidence, correcting. Im totally ecstatic currently. An shift in reality has taken place, approach is even more smooth at this point, I cant really put it into words, other then being alligned with reality and all will be succes. Its even going deeper from this point.
I woke up only to have the sub kick back in in full force. i havent listened last night, Im getting around 14-16 hours.
Im feeling totally open.
I experience anger again, lots of it. being all lashy, actual swearing out loud and what not. My thoughts are all over the place yet i sense its an further growth. Im literally pissed ioff currently.
Im becoming aware and opposed to more patterns and embrace the more traditional leader image, consisiting of boldness, disregard of being liked ( or even disliked?) , abundance, militant and high status rank kind of. Yet I dont care. Appealing to the female mind.
Im in no competition whatsoever, the masks are falling off, which makes sense when one wants to improve and have succes. Its another ballgame.
Carrying myself from an deeper sense and choocing words reflecting value and status. I am confident in many ways and lots of ways.
I experience myself as larger, taking up more space in the litteral sense, as if I have grown. makes perfect sense. The room looked smaller.
I might visit my parents at some time, while before i was hesitant towards it, clearly influence of the sub.
Im on an total different level, my vision is open, wide open, broaden and expanded. Its an sense of arriving at some mass event but in an highly important fashion and manner. All is embraced, I dont care, Transcending. An deeper sense of deservedness. My approach to "joining"such events is met with an slight thrill. Not much as it is all so natural now.
Its like this but smoother, more sophisticated playboy like but oozing status:
I noticed my head going slightly numb, blood pumping around, mind exploding with possibilities. Not an follower. I seem to lose interest on this pattern when it is there, to be reminded I am no follower. Im edgy risky and take huge leaps right now, yet it is no big deal. Imagine being carefree and burn all, sacrifice all, yet being unaffected by it. Total freedom.
Lesser caring about eye contact now, less stuck up with it.
Attraction beyond the physical. I am absolutely attractive. As I am 26 I had many self image issues around it. This has shifted.. Im bold, masculine. escalation fills my mind. The hard moments I experienced in the last weeks could be the result of over exposure to the sub and not enough processing time. Im in allignment almost. Paradise. All is so smooth.
to day is day 70 ( 26 days remain + whatever desired )
All I worried about is replaced with sheer confidence, the responses in my head from people are directly adjusted, the outcome is directly faced by the sub and confidence, correcting. Im totally ecstatic currently. An shift in reality has taken place, approach is even more smooth at this point, I cant really put it into words, other then being alligned with reality and all will be succes. Its even going deeper from this point.
I woke up only to have the sub kick back in in full force. i havent listened last night, Im getting around 14-16 hours.
Im feeling totally open.
I experience anger again, lots of it. being all lashy, actual swearing out loud and what not. My thoughts are all over the place yet i sense its an further growth. Im literally pissed ioff currently.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
