OGSF v2 non-binding journalings and musings

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It's time.
Start date - September 15th. End date - February 15th.
Starting off with one loop hybrid. Running it right now, feels pretty good. Wonky sensations are beginning.
It should take off where EHPRA has left off, so now I hope it's going to focus more on GSF removal and further trauma healing.

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Yeah, this feels like a direct continuation of where EHPRA left off, I had wonky dreams which were similar in nature but slightly different in outcomes. Otherwise feeling pretty fine albeit a little sleepy. I was a little worried about OGSF because some people here report serious side-effects, I currently am not experiencing any (though it's only been one loop).

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Feelin' good. I get moments while listening when I feel wonky, but they pass soon. Something's wrong with my phone's volume settings, though - it's become way quieter than it used to, hopefully the speakers did not become damaged or anything, I'll try rectifying that.

I had a very long, very important and very interesting dream regarding myself, designee "foxy psychotherapist" (an old flame of mine, I mentioned her in my DMSI journals) and that degenerate ex of mine.

Having fun playing around with my stuffies and thingies, feels really good. But I'm gonna have to get back to serious work on Wednsday.

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On EPHRA, I'd get moments of anger and suchlike, especially when experiencing frustration IRL (f. in. in the face of failure or when singing practice did not go as well as I'd have liked), on OGSF this effect is lessened.

I get some wonky sensations but they are slighter. They're in the areas where trauma is stored on an energetic level, probably.

I do feel a little bit unmotivated to do things, even though I've got some stuff to do. I'd love to have a prolonged vacation.

I also feel like yakking less.

I feel way less lonely but that could also be related to my stuffies and thingies.

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Had a very interesting, semi-lucid dream today. It would prove to me that whatever is happening in your unconscious, you do indeed have a say in it and even a measure of control (hence the lucid aspect).

Feeling kinda lazy, though. I can't seem to find the motivation to do things.

I did get some moments of aforementioned frustration and dark thoughts after my singing practice today, which I kinda had to force myself to go to (it went fine).

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I'm feeling very sleepy on this program and need way more sleep, and a little bit down for now. Motivation to do things is lacking. I am getting wonky dreams, though, so it's working through something.

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The sleepiness and lack of motivation have just passed all of a sudden. So that's good! I wonder if it's going to fluctuate like this throughout my use of the program, we'll see.

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My phone broke beyond repair (oyyy!) so I had to play my loop today from my computer. It felt fine, I guess. Feelin' pretty good, did some translation work today, working out my stuffies and thingies, considering writing a little handbook on what I'm doing and then publishing it but first I need to test some theories.

Gonna have to buy a new phone tomorrow as I kinda need it beyond listening to subs and morphic fields. Thankfully I have the money.

The sleepiness has passed, as did feeling down. I did get a rage outburst when practicing my singing today, though, but funnily enough it was not accompanied by any strong emotion I could feel consciously which is highly interesting.

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So I got a new phone, a pretty swanky one. It did set me back a pretty penny, but I guess the investement should pay off because it has way better sound quality than the previous one (and records voice better which is going to be great for my singing practice). It's just a Samsung S23 FE, got it on the cheap too (they were selling the last display copy so I got it for 2/3rds the price, neat! The only thing I don't like is the color but ultimately who cares about that ).

So now I'm playing my OGSF loop from the new phone and it feels good. My previous phone indeed appears to have had something go bad with its playback because this one seems much louder at the same settings. So all's well that ends well, I guess.

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OMG, what a dream I just had. It was very long, very vivid, very 1984/Minority Report style. I'm totally gonna tell my analyst about it. I'm not writing it down, I'll see what I remember (that's important too).

First dream like that on this program.

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Had another very vivid and long, interesting dream, this one was about romancing a lady. I enjoyed it.

I have to get a job done by tomorrow but I'd rather play around with my stuffies and thingies, oy.

I'm liking this program, the work done on EHPRA is paying dividends in that this experience is pretty smooth apart from the fact I'm a little bit sleepy and sometimes irritable. I don't feel any need to increase the number of loops or anything as of yet.

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Did the job, got some more (gonna get started on them tonight), finished developing my personal system for stuffies and thingies and am gonna start with it tonight. I have this feeling of "now we're playing with power!" permeating.

OGSFing is progressing. I do still get sleepy every now and again, though.

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Huh, just got a pesky resistance headach. Haven't had one of those in quite some time. It should pass after I get some shuteye.

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Well, no wonder I had a resistance headache. I went to sleep and had dreams regarding some pretty disturbing subject matter, no wonder I wans't all that happy to touch that, lololo. But I slept it through and now I'm feelin' just fine.