User_000 OF 3 thread

[User_000]

How could I forgot something as important as this, it's a proof that OF is working, since my childhood I had suffered from OCD and perfectionism derived from it, for example don't touching certain things because fear tells me it's bad, even now I still do it at times, didn't realize until now but there was a large list of things that trigger OCD and now it's been reduced to a few (like 2 or 3) and I don't even care if I touch them at times, in perfectionist case I usually got angry playing videogames because it doesn't go as I wish but today I was playing and realize I didn't care about that anymore, now the matter with tinnitus is something like this: I hear the sound and fear tells me "you're getting deaf or you will be deaf in the future" so I keep paying attention if something happen but until now nothing has happened, and even if I hear less how can I be sure it's not placebo for thinking that's the case.

Now that I think about it, there is something else I don't know if it's fear or some mind programing thing when I was a child, let's say I take personally everything bad (usually diseases) that happen to other people, as if I'm the one living it, for example a heart attack, my mind goes like: who's having a heart attack? me? it is me? f*ck I'm gonna die, actually that's the reason behind my anxiety attacks, I think it's probably due to my parents telling me if I don't do this or that I will experience the same (diseases or conditions) the other person have and my subconscious turned it worse.

I'm still progressing but maybe it will take more time.

[User_000]

Today my head and jaw had been strained and tinnitus on the right was stronger, then suddenly felt something like tension on my right ear and realize it has more earwax than usual, but it also feels more relaxed and tinnitus disappeared for the moment I think it's coming back but it hears like the one on the left, almost nothing, so maybe it's possible that tinnitus is just another symptom triggered by resistance but unlike type 20 it's function is not stopping me from using OF.

[User_000]

What if tinnitus is a way from the subconscious to reduce the parasympathetic activity and balance both sympathetic and parasympathetic (in the case parasympathetic was the higier one, it's been half a year and don't remind it quite well) maybe it's possible my breathing issues were a mean to increase sympathetic activity (breathing hard).

Now that I think about it, when I experience anxiety and stress usually I don't get hyperactive in fact it's the opposite my body slows down, unable to react the proper way, trying to suppress it, surely I will be dead by now if this wasn't the modern age, so maybe I should assume the one who said illness-is-made-to-heal-the-body was right in this case.

[MegaMan]

What if tinnitus is a way from the subconscious to reduce the parasympathetic activity and balance both sympathetic and parasympathetic (in the case parasympathetic was the higier one, it's been half a year and don't remind it quite well) maybe it's possible my breathing issues were a mean to increase sympathetic activity (breathing hard).

Hey User_000, I also struggled with tinnitus. In my experience, it is due to an imbalance in your mental state. It can be triggered by physical stimuli and resolved by mental effort. E.g. when my headphones were broken on one side I developed tinnitus.

This is the way I go about removing it. If you can assure that you are not disturbed while you do this, e.g. phone on silent and music off.
Close your eyes and go inside like you would start a meditation session. But instead of going into meditation just stay deeply relaxed and feel your inner balance. Now focus your attention on your head. Where is the balance? You can notice that the balance is misaligned due to tinnitus. Now slowly start moving the balance back to the center. Stay relaxed. If it won't move when you push it, then try to pull it. Play around and enjoy the feeling of balancing yourself.
After a few minutes of this exercise, your tinnitus is gone. 

Hope this helps
MM

[User_000]

What if tinnitus is a way from the subconscious to reduce the parasympathetic activity and balance both sympathetic and parasympathetic (in the case parasympathetic was the higier one, it's been half a year and don't remind it quite well) maybe it's possible my breathing issues were a mean to increase sympathetic activity (breathing hard).

Hey User_000, I also struggled with tinnitus. In my experience, it is due to an imbalance in your mental state. It can be triggered by physical stimuli and resolved by mental effort. E.g. when my headphones were broken on one side I developed tinnitus.

This is the way I go about removing it. If you can assure that you are not disturbed while you do this, e.g. phone on silent and music off.
Close your eyes and go inside like you would start a meditation session. But instead of going into meditation just stay deeply relaxed and feel your inner balance. Now focus your attention on your head. Where is the balance? You can notice that the balance is misaligned due to tinnitus. Now slowly start moving the balance back to the center. Stay relaxed. If it won't move when you push it, then try to pull it. Play around and enjoy the feeling of balancing yourself.
After a few minutes of this exercise, your tinnitus is gone. 

Hope this helps
MM

That's interesting, I'll check it out.

[User_000]

Yesterday was hell, I couldn't stop thinking I was going deaf because my right ear felt like it couldn't hear with the same intensity as before (right now it appears it's back to normal) and my jaw was completely stressed, for making it worse couldn't sleep for 6 hours but rarely enough I was feeling free and nice for some reason, also tinnitus wasn't as bad as before, but the sound sort of change to something more plain as if I'm listening to a device working and it was more quiet even though it's louder at night, and I can't hear it at day, maybe I'm getting into the final stage or something? 

Also tinnitus on the left wore off a few days ago, but at times I feel my ears tensing up.

I have a weird feeling as I'm living in other reality, it feels different somehow or maybe it's just my lack of sleep.

[User_000]

Fear is kicking in again, today my right ear is pretty tensed up, it even shrinks when snaping the fingers, and the feeling it gives me is the worst, it's not like when I feel anxiety, it makes me feel psysically bad as if I'm sick and it hurts in my ear when that happen, I trust everything is coming to an end, I'll just have to suffer in the meantime.

[User_000]

My right ear is tense as hell today again, and for some reason it makes me feel I don't hear quite well (only the feeling, I hear pretty well), just what kind of traumatic experiences I went through for this to happen, well it's true I didn't want to hear many things before (like my parents getting angry at me over stupid things), it wouldn't surprise me if my right ear shrinks enough to don't let me hear.

[User_000]

Well I have improve in these days, I no longer care about fear trying to trigger more fear consciously and yesterday it tried to trigger anger which I noticed and stopped reacting but now I'm dizzy again (the type that moves the enviroment) and don't recall so well if that means fear is having a rough time but hell, can't stand up for long periods of time without feeling the outside world moving on it's own.

[User_000]

Fear is kicking in again, since this morning is trying to trigger guess what MORE FEAR, my heart rate gets high, the part of the heart (chest) hurts once in a while, my breathing is unstable at times, feel I'm going to die, but I stopped caring since the first 2 hours and it's been reduced, now I'm just dizzy as usual, I'm wishing for fear to finally dissapear near the next days, also tried that mental exercise for tinnitus but I'm not the feel kind person and don't understand well that thing about balance (besides I don't know what the exact cause of tinnitus is, it first began with the right but then appeared on the left occasionally, and for some reason it gets louder at night), recently I can ignore it to the point it's not perceivable anymore, guess it's something like focus, didn't expect to suffer like this when I bought OFv3 or didn't expect my fear would be that much a pain in the ass and my behavior as well but if someone ask me if I would buy OF knowing everything so far I would say yes, also the timing is perfect, don't need to focus on other things for the moment, if I needed to go out and do things surely I will end up in the hospital.

[RTBoss]

Are you still using hybrid format?

[User_000]

Are you still using hybrid format?

Yeah, it's my favorite, never actually used any other.

[User_000]

I'm actually feeling kind of bad right now and that reminds me when I went to practice tai chi and guess what for some reason fear was triggered (the one that make me pass out) and at the moment I withstood it (the people must have thought I was feeling bad because of tai chi as some other guy was having problems to breathe and had to sit down), then when I returned home started to feel bad, seriously bad, my head was hurting, I was feeling like throwing up, tired, the kind of sensation when your body feels pain from stress and that's kind of how my head feels right now besides being dizzy and tired because fear tried to trigger itself again and it was way worse than a few days ago, I tried to let it go then when it calmed my heart felt relaxed and my body for some reason started to tremble, I hope this is getting to an end soon.

[User_000]

This is new to myself, my heart just feel so relaxed, before I could even feel how hard it pounds, fear is still there but the heart is so calmed (unlike my mind).