SantaRich's Journal

[Spiral]

I do that alot too Rich. But I'm beginning to think life's too short to think like that man. If you like someone go for it. Of course I can't say I do this myself because I still have some approach anxiety and "pulling the trigger" is a challenge because when it comes to women I'm so indecisive. It's like.. I lose my focus entirely on the matter at hand. I hope SM2 really gets you to where you are trying to go.

[Benjamin]

I know that feeling Rich.. it's amazing.

I've only had it like a couple of times in my life but it feels great when it happens. Hmm only 1 time really comes to mind and it was such a surprise I didn't do anything about it at the time.

-Ben

[smash]

You are a limitless alpha male now. You do what you want, when you want. You get to make, change, and break the rules (I'd be a little more careful about the laws though lol). Here is my suggestion: get a piece of paper, a pen, and play some great music. List out every thing you want out of life, why you want it, and what are the reasons you don't have it. I will list a couple of mine:
More hobbies, fill-up my time and make new friends, I haven't taken the time out to find them.

As for the take whatever you can get, you could get several decent FWB while you find that perfect girl. If that is what you are looking for. That way when Ms. Right comes along you can say goodbye to the Ms. Right Nows'.

Good job on being yourself, and not trying to put up a fake guise around people

yeah, that´s the shit! Living a similar way. And it is a great feeling of knowing, that I can do whatever I want & whenever I want. I am free as a bird (as an affair once said to me).

And the day "Mrs. Right rings at your door", you are in full control, what you will do next.

[Shannon]

Life is too short for fear and excuses. And it doesn't have to be scary if you're just being social. It's not that bog a deal to just talk to a woman, especially when you have no motives or agenda. Just relax and banter with her a little. Have some fun.

[smash]

Life is too short for fear and excuses. And it doesn't have to be scary if you're just being social. It's not that bog a deal to just talk to a woman, especially when you have no motives or agenda. Just relax and banter with her a little. Have some fun.

That´s the key. When you did your homework (affirmations, subliminal) and made the best out of yourself, there will be plenty of women, that are attracted to you.

I was in a supermarket, just buying some cigarettes today and a pretty hot brunette girl, who was standing two persons behind me, stared at me... chances are everywhere, just enjoy the moment and be with the girl. Nature will do its thing.

[Spiral]

Nature will do it's thing if you let it.

[Shannon]

Nature will do it's thing if you let it.

Thats how we keep expanding the population so fast. lol

[SantaRich]

Ya know, I seem to fight or atleast not go with nature and or what I want, I feel, or I know I should do, I hold myself back, in many things in life.

I have been thinking alot and I mean alot about women and sex lately, I unfortunately have been watching more porn also, but I am going to try to stop that. But that is what I have done all my life, start to think about the opposite sex and watch adult material and then I stop wanting the real thing, sad but true.

I also have been wanting to get out and just feel so bored sitting at home lately. I usually fight the urge as I really don't like going out alone, especially to the bars, but again maybe this is something I will have to work on. I do have a buddy who I think goes out alot, but I feel bad as I know he has a wife and works ALOT. But he is a really good guy and just a real kind of people person, or seems to get along with everyone, then again nobody really messes with him as he has a reputation not to be screwed with. But I will have to see if I can hang with him more, as I know he does love going out.

I was also wondering, if Shannon happens to read this, or anyone who wants to chime in, if there was a way to kind of psychically seduce somebody. Like the other day, I was at work and was working near this incredibly hot chick, and was just kind of trying to implant certain reactions that happen when a woman is.....revved up, so to speak. Now nothing happened, but I do happen to think it is not in the realm of impossibility. Also she has a boyfriend and a child with him, so I would not try anything with her anyway.

Besides the increased want of sex, I don't really know if there is anything else I have noticed, actually I do feel more relaxed around people. More likely to speak and not just think about speaking, feel like I can express myself better, which is actually a nice thing as I know what I usually want to say in my head but most of the time people either don't listen or it does not come out right, atleast how I kind of heard it in my head.

And not that I am around alot of people, I am still kind of a shut in. But I have had the urge to just go out and do something, anything, I usually don't, but I am hoping that will change.

I just saw Dark Knight Rises, and it was AWESOME. And while I don't know anybody in Aurora, my deepest sympathies and prayers go out to all the victims and their families. What is going on with people now a days?

I have been trying to keep up on my qi gong practice, but with the watching of porn and the usual event that follows, my energy has not been what it should be, which is another reason I really have to stop with the adult entertainment.

Thats about it for now.