(07-10-2018, 10:30 AM)Antaeus Wrote: So Had everything gone normally on this stage, my last day of stage 2 would have been Sunday, July 8. But due to some confusion about how I was running the sub, I almost restarted AM6 and listened to Stage 1 for one night. Thus, I missed one night of stage 2 and had to add 1.5 days to my listening time. After July 8, I of course listened to my full 8 hours last night and am trying to get through four hours today.

Recap of stage 2: Stage 2 was still largely uneventful for me in terms of what I can consciously see. I notice some of my thought patterns are still the same. For example: I was at the gym last night and was wrapping up my workout with some cardio on the treadmill. There was this really cute girl on the elliptical in front of me who then jumped on a treadmill two spaces from me. I don’t think she even gave me much thought but I was thinking to myself, “don’t even think about it, she’s out of your league” So I still have some faulty ways of thinking that are crippling me. This is not me saying that this sub doesn’t work, because I know it does. I just think I’m still having trouble getting past some limiting beliefs that I have about myself. I know that the real issue is that I need to push past these barriers and just try to overcome my fear/lack of motivation in trying to connect with new people.

I will begin stage 3 tonight. I hear it’s a rough one.

Edit: Beginning Stage 3 now

(07-13-2018, 11:25 AM)Antaeus Wrote: OK so I’m starting to have some thoughts here. Essentially I could really consider myself lucky because I don’t have family and friends that pressure me to do certain things by a certain time, let me explain what I mean by this. So I’m in a circumstance where my 20s Have basically passed me by. It is often said the by 30 one should be married and have kids, be established and the like. Now I agree with the being Established part but not necessarily being married and having kids Or basically just stop living your life. This is probably part of the reason I’ve been feeling so depressed the last few days.

I think I understand what it is that I need to do. I need to stop letting other people write my story. I need to stop believing all the ***** about how I’m supposed to be married already or have already done this or that by this age. I Turn 30 years old tomorrow and unfortunately I’m already having many regrets about my life and having regrets about basically wasting my 20s. I know it’s my mistake. But I feel like this is the time to start catching up and truly living life before I would ever think about settling down.

Don’t get me wrong I’m not against marriage or anything but I just think there’s so much in life I need to experience before I make such a permanent decision to where I won’t be able to experience anything anymore. Truthfully I even have other people telling me this. That I’m really not that old, that I still have time. So the way I see it I set my own deadlines.

(07-14-2018, 10:59 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Well reading articles like that isn't helpful for you obviously.. I didn't even click on it because I know it'll just pollute my mind with negativity.