Subliminal Talk

(01-07-2019, 11:55 AM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]The fapping is getting out of control again. Five times in two days.

Heard of China Brush?

(01-07-2019, 01:02 PM)Djinnni Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-07-2019, 11:55 AM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]The fapping is getting out of control again. Five times in two days.

Heard of China Brush?

Well I have now! The problem isn't PE though, it's just I enjoy it and it's the only sexual outlet I have most of the time. I guess it's also a bit of rebellion and excitement.

I waste far too much time on it though.

(01-08-2019, 08:15 AM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-07-2019, 01:02 PM)Djinnni Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-07-2019, 11:55 AM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]The fapping is getting out of control again. Five times in two days.

Heard of China Brush?

Well I have now! The problem isn't PE though, it's just I enjoy it and it's the only sexual outlet I have most of the time. I guess it's also a bit of rebellion and excitement.

I waste far too much time on it though.

Fair enough.

CB can be useful to prevent 'spillage.' In my experience preventing the 'spillage' is the crucial factor as this dissipates our sexual energy. So I find CB avails me more control and the ability to build up more energy reserves.

The last couple of days have been better; no fap. However, I think that is really a case of how busy I am and how much opportunity there is. As soon as I get some down time, it's my immediate goto. Today will be a test!

Nothing in terms of female attraction. I was in a room with six women for the entire day yesterday, including an attractive blond, for training. No signs of anything.

Confidence levels are still nothing special.

Sticking to the five loops for five nights, with a mix of US and Hybrid on different nights. The hybrid over sleep phones seems more noticeable and I have more vivid dreams with it.

So Swisston, what is your goal? Because if achieving the program is your goal, it doesn't make sense that fapping is your go to when you get the chance.

(01-13-2019, 08:32 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]So Swisston, what is your goal? Because if achieving the program is your goal, it doesn't make sense that fapping is your go to when you get the chance.

I want to feel sexually desirable, confident, masculine. I would settle for that for the moment!

The prospect of sex seems like an unrealistic far off goal. But ideally I'd like to have options there. It's just been so long since I've seen any movement towards this, I struggle to even see it happening.

(01-13-2019, 03:00 PM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-13-2019, 08:32 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]So Swisston, what is your goal? Because if achieving the program is your goal, it doesn't make sense that fapping is your go to when you get the chance.

I want to feel sexually desirable, confident, masculine. I would settle for that for the moment!

The prospect of sex seems like an unrealistic far off goal. But ideally I'd like to have options there. It's just been so long since I've seen any movement towards this, I struggle to even see it happening.

I'm noticing a pattern in most of you "super resistant" types. You refuse to admit that it's a possibility, so you can just shut it down. If it's not possible, you don't have to try.

But the only thing making it not possible is your decision to believe that it's not possible. If I told you what I have seen DMSI do for me and at least one other person I know, you would need proof to believe it because it's so ridiculous. I don't talk about it because it's private, but the reason I bring this up is simply...

Before I ran DMSI, I was convinced that what I have now was flat out off the table impossible. Now I not only have it, I have it for the long term, and I get to live every day what I was sure was just an unrealistic fantasy a year and a half ago. All because I opened my mind to it being a possibility.

The first step, the most important step, is to accept that your goal is possible to achieve. Until and unless you do that, you are holding the door closed. And that tells me what your real goal is.

I do believe that it's possible, at least at a conscious level. I've even seen hints of it occasionally. It's just that when you have it reinforced daily that you're just another person to them, it's hard to see how that will be different. I'll keep plugging away though!

Anyway, I've been feeling a bit angry today for no reason, so that's a good sign.

Impatiently waiting for the new DMSI release.

Nothing to report in terms of female attraction. I've kept the loops going and my use has been consistent and solid.

Right, I'm pretty sure that I got the new version last night, although I was downloading it in bed and pretty tired. Came down very slowly due to my WiFi I think.

Getting 8 loops in is going to be a problem. Over night I can usually get five, possibly six loops continuous. I don't have time for more loops in the morning; I'm usually up and out of the house 25 minutes later and then with clients or teaching a class.

So I will have to either start the loops earlier in the evening, playing US and expose my gf for a couple of loops, or break the primary ASRB and try for the remaining loops later in the day. Not sure which is the better option. I'm inclined to go for the first.

I had a rough night listening to hybrid over sleep phones last night with 3.3.1. I mistakenly downloaded the ocean surf, but I think that the TS is less disruptive.

Nothing to report today in terms of women.

Three nights on 3.3.1 D now. I have completely failed to get 8 loops in on all three nights. The combination of finishing work late and then getting up really early has just messed it up. Nor did I manage to make up the loops during the day for the last two. I got one loop US before bed, straight in to six loops overnight, and am catching up on a eighth loop now for today (US).

I just don't get nine hours straight to myself very often! This is going to be a challenge.

Feeling very tired today, but I've had three nights of too little sleep in a row.

Feeling a bit horny, but haven't fapped in a few days now, at least partly due to a lack of opportunity but nor do I feel like it much. Too early to say if the new sub is influencing that.

(01-25-2019, 03:56 AM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]Three nights on 3.3.1 D now. I have completely failed to get 8 loops in on all three nights. The combination of finishing work late and then getting up really early has just messed it up. Nor did I manage to make up the loops during the day for the last two. I got one loop US before bed, straight in to six loops overnight, and am catching up on a eighth loop now for today (US).

I just don't get nine hours straight to myself very often! This is going to be a challenge.

Feeling very tired today, but I've had three nights of too little sleep in a row.

Feeling a bit horny, but haven't fapped in a few days now, at least partly due to a lack of opportunity but nor do I feel like it much. Too early to say if the new sub is influencing that.

I know the feeling, hard to get all the loops in at one time, have gotten used to fewer loops but going to have to find a way.

One way or the other, always get all of the loops in per day. No excuses.

Working on it!