SM stage 2 Days 7
Never had sex dreams before on SM. Now they are happening. In the dream a girl begs to give me to give me a blow job the bizzare thing is its happening in a swimming pool. A second dream involves a girl wanting to have casual sex with me but I start playing hard to get. There was part of me that wanted intimacy with her yet there was part of me that refused to show my real self to the woman for fear of being hurt.
(08-26-2018, 05:21 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Wow what an idiot, i'd just have deleted her number after that. Whether you could say it's 'testing' or something like that it's way past any behaviour I want to put up with, and seems like a taste of how she might act in the future.
Both you and JackofHearts were spot on. As you have rightly said I don't need that kind of shit in the future from girls like that.
SM stage 2 Day 6
Been getting further dreams on this stage. One I had last night was me sat down a midnight in a bar taking to two girls about something I do not recall the subject. Was feeling alittle angry this morning at how I had been treated by women in the past.
I got bored with my current FB and decided to ignore all her calls and just make excuses that I am busy. Hopefully she will get the message.
I had some horrible calls from my mother shaming me again and again for my chosen lifestyle.
Why the f**k would I want to get married and settle down ?. In the UK I read somewhere that 45% of marriages end up in f**king divorce if you have kids they are taken away from you and you have to pay out settlement fees to your ex. I believe the only purpose of marriage is if you want to have children.
There is an age old myth that you must have a soul mate or you will be lonely for the rest of your life. I have never seen so many lonely men and women in this day and age in relationships. In fact the only reason I believe women settle into a relationship is they know they will start loosing their looks at around 27 years old and can no longer f**k around.
What happens when they reach 27 years old ? they go find a nice predictable guy who she believes will have no chance in leaving her for another woman.
Women DO NOT understand men full stop. You cannot be friends with women who are hot and you cannot be friends with women full stop because they will never understand us men and why we do the things we do.
OK enough of me ranting apologies if I have offended anyone but its what I believe.
(08-28-2018, 06:21 AM)Frosted Wrote: [ -> ]If I were you I would just hang up on her. Ofc I don't know the circumstances so it may not be possible. But if you can just say "If you keep talking to me like this I'm hanging up" and then hang up if she continues or just plain hang up. My motto is to just walk away from that shit. Life gives me enough stress I don't need it from people who should be my friends and family.
You are correct and I should know better at my age. Its bizzare how mothers and fathers can have this emotional hold over you by using shaming tactics and crying to make you feel bad about what you do. I hate this shit I feel like crap when I deal with them.
I feel your pain thor. I've been semi-estranged from my entire family for most of my life. It's not fun, but I tell mhyself that I have to focus on getting what I want in life, regardless of the "cost".
My family want me to be a good little beta and place myself into society's machine, but I have better plans. Plans like building a dynasty of my own built on positive values and success principles which I have researched for the last few years. Much of what I see is that most people are so f*cked up they don't even know how badly.
The more I learn and implement, the better my life gets. I hope to have children one day and pass this along to them, where my wishes for them are positive and successful living are synonymous.
(08-28-2018, 08:08 AM)Infinite Wrote: [ -> ]They want the safety of the traditional family and grandkids.. A lot of women hate their inlaws, and they don't think about you possibly marrying a girl who will isolate you from them. Are they successful at shaming you because deep inside you think that they are right? If that's the case than you may want to evaluate how you're spending you're time.
Long story all my life I played the good son to my mother and father did what they wanted. It was to satisfy their happiness not mine. Get good grades at school, go to university, get a job now you have to be married. After one unsuccessful marriage things never worked out. They did give me some breathing space but now they are at it again. Father shames me and frames me as the failure of the family for not being married and not having kids.
Cut a long story short I created some distance by moving away from them to another country. However my mother calls me now and again and attempts to shame me into believing i am doing the wrong thing. I hate it when she cries on the phone and tells me I deserted her.
(08-28-2018, 08:52 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I feel your pain thor. I've been semi-estranged from my entire family for most of my life. It's not fun, but I tell mhyself that I have to focus on getting what I want in life, regardless of the "cost".
My family want me to be a good little beta and place myself into society's machine, but I have better plans. Plans like building a dynasty of my own built on positive values and success principles which I have researched for the last few years. Much of what I see is that most people are so f*cked up they don't even know how badly.
The more I learn and implement, the better my life gets. I hope to have children one day and pass this along to them, where my wishes for them are positive and successful living are synonymous.
I couldnt have put it in better words mate "societies machine"
. Well good on you for taking such a bold step.
SM stage 2 Days 8
Noticed a lot of guys getting success from Tinder whilst using DMSI\SM. I have never been a fan of Tinder as it never ever worked for me in the UK even though I paid a professional photographer and fashion stylist to create some really good shots.
I decided to give Tinder a bash again. Initially it came up with zero girls in this city. Then I tweaked the settings and it began giving me list of women in their 30s and 40s. My experience from the past of dating women in their 30s upwards are. They are stuck in their ways, carry a lot of emotional and hurt from previous relationships or want to settle down.
Finally after a 20 or so swipes I matched with a 19 year old girl who I messaged. We arranged to meet for a coffee on Friday in town.
Whilst at the gym I saw a hot girl working out with her boyfriend I immediately got horny and when I got back to my appartment I just could not stop thinking about how nice it would be to have animal sex with her. Whilst in the shower I masturbated to her and felt good about it.
SM stage 2 Days 8
That girl who I met on Tinder the 19 year old has gone all flakey on me. Not liking Tinder
. I am impressed with Sarge he seems to get good results with this dating app maybe I am not cut out for Tinder.
Will just stick to meeting girls in real life
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My dreams are turning into themes like I am in a bathroom flooded with water very bizzare.
Yeah online is much different than real life. I used to hate online so much because I tried to game girls online like I did in real life and it didn't work as well as in RL. It's only once I changed my game specifically for online that things began to work. I'm nowhere near where I want to be, tho I no longer blame online for that, because I know that's all on me to improve my game.
SM stage 2 Day 9
Sarge\Frosted thanks for your constructive input. Today I am feeling under the weather its like some insecurities have come to the surface which are troubling me. I feel sad, insecure empty. All the memories from my dark past seem to have reared their ugly heads. I thought DMSI A had cleared that out but I can feel the weight of these emotions in my head. Part of me says go back to DMSI I dont what the hell is going on. Maybe I should go back to AMS not sure I am all confused. Its like the all the confidence, charm, charisma and masculinity i radiate has been broken.
I didnt go out today and stayed in watching youtube videos ignored all the calls I was getting.
If you're going through hell, keep going.
(08-30-2018, 09:46 AM)thor2014 Wrote: [ -> ]SM stage 2 Day 9
Sarge\Frosted thanks for your constructive input. Today I am feeling under the weather its like some insecurities have come to the surface which are troubling me. I feel sad, insecure empty. All the memories from my dark past seem to have reared their ugly heads. I thought DMSI A had cleared that out but I can feel the weight of these emotions in my head. Part of me says go back to DMSI I dont what the hell is going on. Maybe I should go back to AMS not sure I am all confused. Its like the all the confidence, charm, charisma and masculinity i radiate has been broken.
I didnt go out today and stayed in watching youtube videos ignored all the calls I was getting.
I feel you man. Been the same the past few days but not nearly as bad as in earlier versions of DMSI. Or SM for that matter.
Sometimes it's good to just take a day for yourself.