Subliminal Talk

I had an event tonight. I did receive a lot of feminine attention... 3 women did come close to me... One of them did present herself, she took my hand and she kept holding my hand for a good 30 seconds...

Right there, that was a cue... Sexual tension did grow... I started making out with her.. I still feel that the other woman was interested into me... but I made my choice. it is the other girl that was arousing me the most and this is for her that I went for... we had sex together at the end of the evening.

So from meet to sex... it took about 4 hours... it was very fast seduction

Preselection was definitely on my side!

I have been thinking about has happened yesterday... I have somehow changed in a way that makes me more attractive to women... As this truth is slowly and irreversibly sink in my mind... This is obviously boosting my confidence when interacting with women... and this is certainly affecting even more the way that I am behaving around them. This is some sort of virtuous feedback circle...

You know, if I sum up what I did. I found a woman that I find attractive. I did express my desire for her... She did react to what I was communicating to her by being aroused herself and I did get the girl.

It is the very simple formula that I did use everytime that I made conquests. Yet, in the past, when it didn't go very far with women that I did find attractive, it is simply because I did restrain myself to express my attraction due to some BS inner dialogue...

Since I'm on AM6, I feel this unstoppable feeling of self-deservingness. I find a girl attractive. I just go for it confidently and boldly and this is type of attitude that they find attractive in a man... So this is kindof a win-win for everyone...

(12-21-2018, 08:01 AM)lano1106 Wrote: [ -> ]Since I'm on AM6, I feel this unstoppable feeling of self-deservingness. I find a girl attractive. I just go for it confidently and boldly and this is type of attitude that they find attractive in a man... So this is kindof a win-win for everyone...

I find that this sense of deservedness is KEY to success in all areas of life.

I started reading a new book called Tao of The Gigolo from Vin Armani. I just have few chapters read but I already love very much the book... It is very profound from someone having a unique perspective about man/woman relations...

In fact, I did spew back few of the ideas that I just red from that book to my new girl and it seems to had an impact to this woman.. It was resonating in her...

I had few errands to do one of them was the liquor store... I just love how I did speak with a cute female worker. It seems that she did like to be talked like that. It was some sort of authoritative tone like a boss... Maybe like a dominant person... and she did react by submit to my request she even did do more to please me. She wanted to please me... This is exactly the reaction that I was expecting and this is what I got... She was really hot... I should have asked more...

Same thing for the cashier girl... I don't know how to describe it. I just felt that she was into me and wanted to flirt with me. I don't know how to describe it... I just like I was me... Like I have always been dominant.. and this is what I now project and women feel it, love it and act flirty with me...

Something profound did click within me in the last few days...

Ok, I'm done with the Tao of The Gigolo book. It is not very profound book but yet... there is 3-4 good takeaways. The guy understand something that I don't concerning women and how to interact with them... I took few ideas from the book and I did fed those ideas verbatim to some women that I met... and the guy is definitely on something as every time I did the experiment, I could see the eyes of the women open up... It is as if like the ideas from the book was a shot of crack or some other powerful addictive emotional substance to them... I think based on the reaction that I got by using the ideas... the book deserve a second reading...

Now, I have also stumbled into Alex Allman material... I must confess that he has several good novel ideas about sexuality. I'm quite glad that I decided to look into his work... I even think that I'll promote him even more from now on... (not here... in my marketing business...)

I went to a stripclub with my crossfit lesbian friend. It is a bit weird. I'm not totally used with the feeling... I feel some sexual polarity between her and me but at the same way, I feel like I am with some male buddy where we comment on strippers physical attributes while they dance and share our preferences in terms of women... 5 minutes after we came in, the doorman came at our table asking my friend for her Id because the boss saw us entering and he wasn't sure if she has the right to be here... So, in my head, I'm wondering exactly what they have imagined about us.. Granted, I'm about twice her age but she is still in her mid 20s.. What does the place's boss think that we are? that I'm a pimp teaching my new recruit how her future gig works??

It took some time before strippers came see us. I have absolutely no interest in getting involved with a stripper... I pretty much take for granted that the only reason they come see people is for selling them lap dances... Still, I have been surprised how fun it was to interact with a very sassy hot dancer. My prior self would have probably fallen on the defensive mode... but the way that I am now with AM6, I just found the attitude cute and sexy... I found a more useful interpretation. She is like that because she must be very horny.... I felt that she did put effort to qualify herself to me... and I was feeding myself from the obvious polarity... She had a very strong feminine sexy energy and found out that in order appreciate it and create attraction, you had to put an opposite masculine energy of the same strength... The stronger the energy is, the stronger the attraction is and becomes uncontrollable...

I did restrain myself though... Despite the experience was interesting... I don't want to be involved with such women... My intuition tells me that this is like calling trouble...

Something that I omitted to mention in my yesterday's update is that 2 main events did come out since last week.

1. My first sexual conquest since a while last week
2. Some conflictual tension among some family members did pop out around Christmas (sister and father). It seems that my mom passing away this fall did stir up a lot of old stuff...

Put that all together and this made me make some heavy loaded dreaming sessions for about 3 nights in a row...

I did find that meaningful, life changing events were making me dreaming a lot... I guess that maybe the subliminal programming did make me become more in touch in my subconscious mind. I'm grateful for that as dreams are the subconscious mind communicating with my conscious mind. This communication hasn't been that obvious like that in the past. I feel that this is a big thing.. a big improvement to who I am to be able to listen to what my subconscious mind has to say to me.

Not much to say since last update...

I may be slightly more assertive than in Stage 4... Stronger frame control... such as saying:

Me: Can you hold this bag for me?
Her: No
Me: Please, do it!

She end up holding my shit...

This is a very subtle change but I feel that the difference this can bring is HUGE and you have to account for all the mindset shifts behind the subtle behavior change. So far, I'm happy...

Also, I may not have discussed it much in my journal but as I run AM6, I'm currently into a 3 persons team venture effort and I kinda naturally took the lead on it and I'm glad to report that things are going very well. The project seems like it is going to be successfully completed...

Stage 6 starts in 6 days... So eager to start SM3 in about a month from now... I will be mid-program when cuties come out in sexy clothes during spring...

today,

I am feeling very tired. No excess can explain that state AFAIK.

I made some dreams last night. Details about the dream are very distant. It has to do with checking out from an hotel and packing my luggage.

Today is my last Stage 5 day. When I go to bed tonight, I will start stage 6...

In retrospect, I feel that stage 5 was a success. If you read page 6 of this journal, you'll see what I mean. Things got boring toward the end. Feeling tired and a lot of dreams... I attribute that maybe to the holidays excesses...

I'm very excited to see what Stage 6 will bring for change and since AM6 completion is within range... I'm really excited with the after AM6 (SM3...)

On my todo list for stage 6 is reread the program recommended readings...

I got a conflict with the Crosfit Kids coach that is teaching my kids.

I have subscribed my kids to the winter semester that last 14 weeks and the class is at 1PM on Sundays.

Now out of the blue, the parents did receive an email saying that the class was moved at 11AM.

I wrote back to say that I did not appreciate at all the change. They did that 3 times in 2018. I thought that we commit to attend to the class 14 weeks in a row at the agreed conditions and that it was not correct to change the conditions down the road. If at some point I would decide to not renew my kids subscriptions it would most likely be because I'm fed up with these conditions changes during sessions.

She replied back by saying that she made a mistake in the pricing and that I only paid for 7 weeks and that I had to pay an extra to keep my kids until the end of the semester.

I could have dug in because my kids love the class and I like seeing them doing all this physical activities but there is something inside me that stopped me from accepting. Something didn't felt right.

I just express my dissatisfaction about unilateral condition changes in our contract and the reply is MORE changes?? If I did accept, that would have been like a stab into my self-esteem so I politely told her that I was grateful but I was declining to continue the class...

I have just completed Mode One book chapter 1 followed @wolverine_i_am recommendation. The book premise looks very promising.

I must confess that I am not very often in Mode One communication style myself. I must confess that I feel that I am becoming much more honest in my communication because of AM6 programming but simply not concerning sexual interest.

Perhaps a lot of women want to hear it but I currently think that most don't NEED to hear it (I'm ready to reevaluate and change that belief as I read the new book...) since verbal communication only represents 10% of all communication.

My style is more to communicate my sexual interest with my non-verbal communication and my behavior with a girl (ie: being flirty with her). To be honest, if I look back to any previous sexual relation that I had in the past, they all started by me communicating my interest one way or the other... There is no other way around...

As a side note, since I am in Stage 6 and I am planning to start running SM3 as soon as I am done with AM6, I have updated my stage calendar. SM3 Stage 1 will start on February 10... 4 days before Valentine's day.... Yeah...

About Stage 6 so far... I like it... People around me seem to feel it too... Idk if it is just an impression but upon each stage transition... I feel it... Some new programming is going on... I cannot put my finger on the reason behind that impression... I just feel different. I wonder if it is only placebo or the difference feeling is real but anyhow this is a feeling that excites me and that I like very much...

I'm currently reading the Mode One book chapter describing Mode Two aka nice guy...

I do recognize myself quite a bit in it... I don't feel that I am doing it to be manipulative... ie: Having a clear intent on having sex with a woman that I find attractive and try to befriend her and plan to do things with her with the hope that this will lead to sex...

Or perhaps that I am back rationalizing it after the fact with some BS.... And this is EXACTLY what I am doing subconsciously.

When I see a woman that I find attractive, I am unattached to any outcome and I approach her with a qualification mindset... I'm not sure yet if this is a girl that I want to have sex with. Let's find out if she is a fun person... I like to start casual and see where this can go...

However, it turns out that very often, I do not "pull the trigger" (SM3 jargon) and nothing happens...

On one hand, I cannot say that I don't want anything from women or else I wouldn't go through the trouble to run DMSI and SM3... OTOH I just don't need anything from any specific woman... ie: I'm not needy or pursue any of them. In fact, I am very independent... in fact maybe too much...

One very interesting detail from the Mode Two chapter is the link between FEAR and this mode.

Correlation between a man's level of honesty and sincerity with women and his lack of fear of being criticized by women...

... Mode Two men are specifically afraid of being perceived as "shallow", "superficial", "kinky", "promiscuous" and/or too sexually "forward"

THIS totally describe my fear and this is fully congruent with I have been saying and repeating about myself in this journal, the DMSI one and everywhere else in this forum:

Strong social programming (taught mainly by my single feminist mother) practiced for several years over my adult life is stopping me to verbalize my sexual interest with a woman that I have just met... I am concerned about what is "appropriate" and what isn't.

I was even not aware that this behavior was fueled by a fear... I was not using the word fear but a wolf is a wolf... I just put a finger on a fear that is blocking me from changing my behavior with women.

I am tagging @Shannon as I think that this is a very common fear in the world that we live in. It could be useful with his FRM dev...

Did you read the Mode One book, Shannon?

I am still early in AM6 Stage 6 but since it is a polishing and varnish stage... I don't expect something major and stunning that woulnd't start to manifest itself out of the blue so I kinda started to do some sort retrospection of the result that I got from the program.

Overall, I am extremely happy of the result.

I feel like a boss
I feel female attraction when I interact with women. More than before
When I deal with others, more often than not, I get it my way
I have become naturally good at leading others. I like leading and I'm becoming a good leader.
I take no BS from others.
I defend my rights and pride with much more vigor

Something that did not materialize as much as I have thought it could be in my wildest dreams it is this point:

An improved on circle of friends manifestation sequence, so that the friends you manifest are genuine, long term friends who will help you for the long haul, instead of stabbing you in the back.

Maybe I am better surrounded by good people but I can count them on 1 hand... I did imagine like becoming some local social celebrity getting invited in private parties and crazy shit like that... This did not happen... Quite the opposite... Finding out that no friend did show up at my mother funerals is telling...

Ok, I'm the only one to blame... Maybe for the last decade (2005 to be precise)... I did set to myself to succeed professionally... I wanted to become millionaire... become a big boss in some multinational company... My ambition became crazy and all my energy and time has been focused on that goal... Work, education, business building, the few remaining free time that I had was dedicated to my kids and family.

I have no doubt that if becoming some social kingpin was a priority, I could create it by investing enough time in that goal because I'm very good socially. People love me and I am very comfortable doing public speaking and approaching and befriending new people... I'm just not making that a priority. Hence, this is what I am collecting... Idk what AM6 could have done to me if I did expose myself more socially...

Quite recently, I feel that my business is about to unblock and will finally provide the so much desired financial freedom that has fueled me all these years... When that happen, I want to put a better balance in my life. This is going to happen in 2019!

I was wrong when I said stage 6 wouldn't bring much since it is ONLY varnish and polishing...

Quite the contrary. I had 2 solid arguments with my main gf. She was upset about something that I did and she wanted me to apologize. I didn't want to because I was disagreeing that I did anything wrong.

I ended the argument by asking her to explain how what I did was wrong. She couldn't and this ended the whole thing. Something happened again and similar outcome did happen again.

Maybe some realization that this made me make is that there is no right or wrong opinion. They are only different interpretations. The way to win an argument is to make your interpreation accepted by the other.

In fact, I'll go further. I got these lengthy arguments with my biz partner on topics where we had diverging opinions. I found out that no matter how good the arguments to support each opinions were, it wasn't changing at all our respective position.

So the point isn't to win an argument (because anyway the loser will feel resentment) but to focus on solution to make everyone happy.

I did continue reading Mode One book. While I was reading it, I got a flashback. Some time ago, I met a swinger guy who was telling me that he must be having sex with, at least, a new woman every day or something outrageous like that. So, I was wondering and I did ask him, so how do you do to have a new woman accept so quick EVERY day? And he simply replied: You just ask them.. and this has puzzled me. It was such a foreign concept to me at that point with this limiting belief that you have to behave appropriatly when meeting a new person.

Definitely, in 2019, I want to become more transparent and honest in my communication. I wonder how easy or how hard it will be to achieve. There is the moment where you take the decision and the moment of execution where at first you have to undo years of habit...

I also love the concept of Wholesome Pretenders (WP). Women how are deep inside very sexual persons but wears a 'good girl' social mask to be perceived as marriage material. The chapter describing what happens when you directly express your desire and they will at first feign to be offended in an attempt to make you apologize but if you remain firm with what you just said, they will rapidly show you their true nature.

The whole concept is extremely arousing to me. That sounds like some cheesy porn video scenario... While I will be running SM3, I think that I am going to be on a mission to demask as many WP women as possible...