Subliminal Talk

Quote:You mean this post on reddit..

Yep, best not to have that link on the forum though since it does have pictures.

The only thought that is coming to my mind is not to run DMSI-3.2 anymore.. Infact I don't even want to run any sub. Feel as if I had enough. As my subc is telling DMSI to leave him alone..Just leave me alone....

I am so exhausted right now that I don't even have the mental energy to organize my thoughts and write a proper post... This exhaustion which I feel is on physical level. I don't think it's related or being caused by DMSI.

I havnt masturbated in 2 weeks and I have only gone this long without fapping only 4 times in my entire life. Been busting since 2004. Also haven't watch nsfw images or porn in past 14 days.

I have read all the withdrawal symptoms of PMO addiction and I can confirm that I am going thru it.

I get sudden headaches and sudden physical exhaustion along with sudden mental exhaustion. I am not enjoying eating food as if they don't taste good. I am sleeping 12 hours. Focus is way way down. I can't even read few lines. It's worse than before. I am forgetting stuff in matter of seconds. Short-term memory fucked,lower back pain,back stiffness .... So yeah it's all withdrawal.

Tbh, I am really happy I am going thru all this withdrawal symptoms. I always wanted to get rid of my PMO habits as it has really fuck up my life. Nice to see that Wall is working.. I was waiting for this moment for so long... PMO physically fucked up my brain. I know that for sure.

When I first ran "B" I fapped and watched porn like crazy... Then I jumped on "A" and I was still fapping and watching porn/nsfw but mostly out of boredom. After that I jumped on "B" again but this time I havnt fapped ever since I jumped on "B"... So I would say "A" did do something amazing which cause me to not fap when I jumped on "B".... I am alternating Monthly.

Relapsed on Day 15. Longest I have gone in past 4 years. Was hardly able to crosss 2 days

Loosing interest in porn. Did have thoughts to visit websites but didn't do or stop before even doing it or forget about it.

Withdrawals not so good..

Things are boring right now.

I am experiencing throbbing type headaches and sleeping for 12 hours. I wonder if this is resistance. Feeling lazy, don't know what to do. Not finding anything interesting.

Thinking of Jumping to "A". Maybe I should. That's undecided for now.

After taking few days off from DMSI am I am jumping on "A" again. I already used "B" for 15 days. I think its best I alternate every 2 week instead of 1 month. Will see how things go.. Turns out that after using "A" for a while "B" works even better.

This sub has serious power but I need my brain to rest... and also that I feel like Shit!

Right now I am so confused between MLS-5.5G and DMSI. Have been jumping from one to another.. Fuck! Can't decide

What is your ultimate outcome from using DMSI; what do you want to use it for? I know you may have mentioned this but don't hesitate to share again.

Okay Since 7th of June. I am pretty much resisting and I jump to MLS-5.5G for 5 Days then Again on DMSI then again MLS-5.5G and then again DMSI.

I have been on DMSI for 3 months and I haven't noticed much anything externally but I have noticed that that I am much more comfortable internally...

The main thing I noticed that I don't have interest in porn anymore. I mean I hardly search for it anymore. Still not sure if I have a porn free mindset or not but pretty sure the desire to even search for it isn't there..

Second thing I noticed that I went 15 days without Fapping and that was an achievement for me. After that I went 5 days and after that I have been confused or resisting subs and jumping between MLS-5.5G and DMSI like a monkey..

Infact I did use MLS-5.5G I was on 5 days on NoFap but after fapping.. I can hardly concentrate on my study material. So Even MLS-5.5G can't do anything of fapping is what numbs my mind..

I am gonna be honest.. The Only reason I choose DMSI is because of "Wall" and Healing Modules..

But it's hard to stick to it when ur own minds starts messing with ur commitment.

So I am gonna start again.

ION.. I went to a random chatroom and 19 yo was all over me and some started sexting.. As if they could sense.

I am looking forward to start an Online Business . Right now I am just learning stuff related to marketing. I mean I am not doing it an incredible speed but kinda slow. As my brain gets really tired quickly and this stops me from focusing and processing.. All thanks to depression and shit..

I told my Homeopathic Doctor about my depression problem and fucked up cognitive function. So I am gonna start fixing my brain soon with meds and stuff soon.

He gave me advice to visualize my goals and stuff every morning. I think its working cause next day or few hours later I feel like working 9n my business stuff.

I am doing one loop of "A" as two makes me unmotivated and sleepy/tired.

I can say for sure that my emotional state is much much better after being on DMSI this long. I think emotionally I am good. But mentally.. I still need to work on it.

Fapping as usual but no porn. Infact I just accidentally come across some nude pic but it's not stimulating but still Idk why I fap after that... It's like on "A" I don't even feel like fapping yet I do.. On "B" I gain some level of willingness to not fap. But still can't go more than few days..

I just hope that things get better.

Hey Zane,

You stated early on that you wanted DMSI for the healing modules. I'd never have gone on 7 loops if suggested by another, as I remember you saying only 2 loops wiped you out. Shannon, himself, suggested 7 loops for a month to break through the resistance, which I'm doing.

Considering what you shared on my thread, give this a thought. I'd thought I'd be zombied out. I'm not. Not at all. Speaking from both knowledge and experience, I believe my past tiredness has been from resistance, not rewiring. Why? I'm not tired today, and this is my 2nd day doing 7 loops. I did hybrid the first night (harder to sleep through), but did US last night.

This, to me, is DMSI doing what I hoped it would. I'm still in the jungle of old memories surfacing.......but tears clear it like it could have done years ago. I even broke some tears writing that sentence. It's not at ALL what I'd expected.

If I could summarize, I'd put it like this.

Listening for 7 loops (asleep or not)
Next day, realizing the hell I'm creating non-stop
And while wondering how to fix it, the sub's tools work on that TOO

So, it's not nearly as emotionally demanding, where when I see problems, I HAVE to fix them. DMSI, as I'm seeing, does a LOT of the hard work for me. I'll take this option, and am.

Just my 2 cents to encourage you.

Tried 5 loops Infact 6 loop if u count total.. Woke up felt kinda stable.. After few hours felt as if my brain was fried and felt foggy.. Not grounded..

I am going thru moments which clearly shows that "Success Module" is working.

Sorry for so short posts.. I really don't feel like updating it.. I wanna keep things to myself. Been doing this in real life also..

So here is a little bit of update.

I dont remember if I told u guy this or not but I am going to my Homeopathic Doctor for my "Chronic Mental Fatigue".

He gave me some meds and they have worked well. I can now do task that doesnt require that much of mental effort and also my insomnia problem has decreased alot.

One thing I have noticed that DMSI has helped me alot for my Depression and Anxiety..I mean alot like 90%...
I think taking med also helps me execute better...I get out and socialise and I can somewhat feel myself alpha...I mean somewhat.

I think my emotional state is much much much better then it was 4 months ago. The only thing that is stopping me is my Mental fatigue.

I cant read anything for more than 10 mins ..My brain looses focus and starts to shutdown.
My Memory is really fucked.

I havnt been able to read or complete a single chapter of any book for past 2 years (Yes its that much worse).

Thanks to subs most of my issues are solved but only this remains and I am already seeing improvements.

I am trying to start my ecommerce business but my mental fatigue and exhaustion is coming in the way to learn stuff..I mean I feel somewhat motivated but I cant do anything about it .