03-18-2012, 02:02 AM
Sounds like a better solution than sitting on your ass and waiting for manifestation is to hunt alone, and stop letting others kill your manifestations.
(03-24-2012, 03:09 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]The strike of stage 5
I was on my way into Manhattan when my brother invited me to a bar apparently
very near where I am staying in Brooklyn. I figured I'd stop by-the place was amazing-full
of gorgeous woman and amazing looking food-two stories with bands playing ect. ect.
I couldn't believe it was like two blocks from my house and I had never been. My brother was hanging out with some of the teachers we used to work with..including of course the large breasted sexy teacher I always had a 'crush' on when I used to work at that school. In any case longer story short..we hooked up all night and then after declining for me to go home with her..several times..she basically just dragged me home..we get back at 5 in the morning but were both exhausted and tipsy.. we have as much fun as you can have when the idiot your with on the sex magnet set forgot condoms-and then she passes out. I can't fall asleep..I'm really horny and know if I can get condoms somehow my mind might rest easier concerning breakfast-and perhaps I can ignore the blue balls and get some shut eye. I try to wake the lady up to tell her I am stepping out but she is clocked out. I leave my coat, my two books and check to make sure the door is unlocked. It is... but when I leave and it shuts I check to see if I can get back in-and it had an automatic lock! Damit-I'm know locked out, Then begins my 1 hour trek home from god knows where deep Brooklyn and now I am writing this and passing out. I'm going back tomorrow come hell and high water-with condoms and taking 'game of thrones' back when I leave.
(03-12-2012, 12:31 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]I believe tonight is my last night of stage four
When I check in mentally to try to trace what this stage has done
I feel like I am dealing with spider-webs layered in different directions on
spiderwebs.
I have had some cool stuff happen along the way-that I wrote about
a few more direct approaches-a lot of indirect one's, a lot of hovering-that crazy direct approach
by the hot Asian woman who thought/pretended she knew me and then tried to make out with me in the street, and last night when I was walking through this bar-club another hot Asian woman just grabs me while I am walking by and pulls me in.
My motivation to approach has been very low. My anger and jealousy issues seem completely gone.
Its weird cause I don't particularly think anything of myself these days-I seem to really have no sense of self image-positive or negative. Maybe that's what humbleness mixed with delusions of grandeur comes out as-or confidence with humility.
I really have no idea what changes occurred during this stage-so I will list what I know about myself during it.
Negative
1. Anxiety is crazy up at times-as a result of sexual tension-not social anxiety
2. No motivation to approach
3. lack of sense of potency/capacity to do what needs/I want to get done in my own life
4. Very little motivation for anything
5. Self-discipline way down
6. A lot of internal anger,boredom and frustration at times
7. Self consciousness-sense of being watched and uncomfortable with it-through the roof at times-there were periods where it got frustrating to leave the house-the thing is it feels more physical-like I can feel when people are looking.
8.I feel a lot of 'why bother' (with woman or with anything) on this set
9. Ending up with my 'seven's' or 'eights' at best-rather than what I would consider my
'9's' and '10's'-so I'm a snob...
10. periods of intense resistance and bleak depression.
Positive
1. Get approached by woman fairly consistently
2. Playing the eye game fairly consistently-stage 3 was actually the best for eye game-but its coming back around,
3. I am more honest and clear on how I feel about things and where I stand.
4. Extremely indifferent
5. Was propositioned for sex several times-and..drum..roll..I turned sex down from a woman
I even thought was attractive.
6. Really strong sexual polarity with woman.
7. 'Pulling the trigger' is way up.
(03-24-2012, 08:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ](03-24-2012, 03:09 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]The strike of stage 5
I was on my way into Manhattan when my brother invited me to a bar apparently
very near where I am staying in Brooklyn. I figured I'd stop by-the place was amazing-full
of gorgeous woman and amazing looking food-two stories with bands playing ect. ect.
I couldn't believe it was like two blocks from my house and I had never been. My brother was hanging out with some of the teachers we used to work with..including of course the large breasted sexy teacher I always had a 'crush' on when I used to work at that school. In any case longer story short..we hooked up all night and then after declining for me to go home with her..several times..she basically just dragged me home..we get back at 5 in the morning but were both exhausted and tipsy.. we have as much fun as you can have when the idiot your with on the sex magnet set forgot condoms-and then she passes out. I can't fall asleep..I'm really horny and know if I can get condoms somehow my mind might rest easier concerning breakfast-and perhaps I can ignore the blue balls and get some shut eye. I try to wake the lady up to tell her I am stepping out but she is clocked out. I leave my coat, my two books and check to make sure the door is unlocked. It is... but when I leave and it shuts I check to see if I can get back in-and it had an automatic lock! Damit-I'm know locked out, Then begins my 1 hour trek home from god knows where deep Brooklyn and now I am writing this and passing out. I'm going back tomorrow come hell and high water-with condoms and taking 'game of thrones' back when I leave.
Rule #1: Always take responsibility for the birth control, even if she says she's done it already.
Rule #2: Birth control is always the responsibility of the man who is intending to use it, not his friends. You wrap your own rascal.
Rule #3: Never be caught dead unprepared for the unexpected opportunity to enjoy the intimate embrace of a willing woman who you are willing to embrace intimately in return.
Have condoms in your bedroom, wallet and car. And replace the ones in your wallet every 6 months if they haven't been used. Wallets are hard on condoms.
Other than being a condom bonehead, congrats on the pull.
(03-24-2012, 03:47 PM)spiritman Wrote: [ -> ](03-12-2012, 12:31 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]I believe tonight is my last night of stage four
When I check in mentally to try to trace what this stage has done
I feel like I am dealing with spider-webs layered in different directions on
spiderwebs.
I have had some cool stuff happen along the way-that I wrote about
a few more direct approaches-a lot of indirect one's, a lot of hovering-that crazy direct approach
by the hot Asian woman who thought/pretended she knew me and then tried to make out with me in the street, and last night when I was walking through this bar-club another hot Asian woman just grabs me while I am walking by and pulls me in.
My motivation to approach has been very low. My anger and jealousy issues seem completely gone.
Its weird cause I don't particularly think anything of myself these days-I seem to really have no sense of self image-positive or negative. Maybe that's what humbleness mixed with delusions of grandeur comes out as-or confidence with humility.
I really have no idea what changes occurred during this stage-so I will list what I know about myself during it.
Negative
1. Anxiety is crazy up at times-as a result of sexual tension-not social anxiety
2. No motivation to approach
3. lack of sense of potency/capacity to do what needs/I want to get done in my own life
4. Very little motivation for anything
5. Self-discipline way down
6. A lot of internal anger,boredom and frustration at times
7. Self consciousness-sense of being watched and uncomfortable with it-through the roof at times-there were periods where it got frustrating to leave the house-the thing is it feels more physical-like I can feel when people are looking.
8.I feel a lot of 'why bother' (with woman or with anything) on this set
9. Ending up with my 'seven's' or 'eights' at best-rather than what I would consider my
'9's' and '10's'-so I'm a snob...
10. periods of intense resistance and bleak depression.
Positive
1. Get approached by woman fairly consistently
2. Playing the eye game fairly consistently-stage 3 was actually the best for eye game-but its coming back around,
3. I am more honest and clear on how I feel about things and where I stand.
4. Extremely indifferent
5. Was propositioned for sex several times-and..drum..roll..I turned sex down from a woman
I even thought was attractive.
6. Really strong sexual polarity with woman.
7. 'Pulling the trigger' is way up.
Hey Rainbow, how did the woman take it by you turning her down for sex? Plus, how did it feel turning a woman down in general who was asking for sex?
(03-24-2012, 04:03 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ](03-24-2012, 03:47 PM)spiritman Wrote: [ -> ](03-12-2012, 12:31 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]I believe tonight is my last night of stage four
When I check in mentally to try to trace what this stage has done
I feel like I am dealing with spider-webs layered in different directions on
spiderwebs.
I have had some cool stuff happen along the way-that I wrote about
a few more direct approaches-a lot of indirect one's, a lot of hovering-that crazy direct approach
by the hot Asian woman who thought/pretended she knew me and then tried to make out with me in the street, and last night when I was walking through this bar-club another hot Asian woman just grabs me while I am walking by and pulls me in.
My motivation to approach has been very low. My anger and jealousy issues seem completely gone.
Its weird cause I don't particularly think anything of myself these days-I seem to really have no sense of self image-positive or negative. Maybe that's what humbleness mixed with delusions of grandeur comes out as-or confidence with humility.
I really have no idea what changes occurred during this stage-so I will list what I know about myself during it.
Negative
1. Anxiety is crazy up at times-as a result of sexual tension-not social anxiety
2. No motivation to approach
3. lack of sense of potency/capacity to do what needs/I want to get done in my own life
4. Very little motivation for anything
5. Self-discipline way down
6. A lot of internal anger,boredom and frustration at times
7. Self consciousness-sense of being watched and uncomfortable with it-through the roof at times-there were periods where it got frustrating to leave the house-the thing is it feels more physical-like I can feel when people are looking.
8.I feel a lot of 'why bother' (with woman or with anything) on this set
9. Ending up with my 'seven's' or 'eights' at best-rather than what I would consider my
'9's' and '10's'-so I'm a snob...
10. periods of intense resistance and bleak depression.
Positive
1. Get approached by woman fairly consistently
2. Playing the eye game fairly consistently-stage 3 was actually the best for eye game-but its coming back around,
3. I am more honest and clear on how I feel about things and where I stand.
4. Extremely indifferent
5. Was propositioned for sex several times-and..drum..roll..I turned sex down from a woman
I even thought was attractive.
6. Really strong sexual polarity with woman.
7. 'Pulling the trigger' is way up.
Hey Rainbow, how did the woman take it by you turning her down for sex? Plus, how did it feel turning a woman down in general who was asking for sex?
It felt easy for my mind and difficult for my dick..
honestly, for me there is always the sense that making sex happen is a good thing..and if logistically it can't and I won't be able to see the girl again ..its annoying but forgotten quickly..but in this case I was sure it would happen again..so no biggie. In terms of turning down woman I don't find very attractive..that's very easy these days.