02-25-2012, 05:35 AM
stuff that I would have considered lucky or crazy for me is happening more and more on a regular basis with woman. 2 times lately I've talked to a girl for like a minute or under and they have asked for my number and to hang out-one said I was really cute-the other said that I was really sexy. Tonight I told the girl my phone was dead and to take my number and she was like "your not going to respond..promise you'll remember me".
Yesterday I was talking to my friend completely oblivious and I turn around and this super sexy and adorable girl is 2 inches from my face and starts grinding on me. My friend said she had been dancing up to me slowly for the last 20 seconds. She had left her group to do so and it was a pretty empty room. After we danced she was said "that was so sexy, super hot, we can't be doing this I have a boyfriend" and pranced away. I'm really looking to be very attracted AND connected, strong sense of energetic connection, to woman I hook up with these days and she fit the bill. We danced again later and split up and at the end of the night when we said our goodbyes I just completely directly asked if she was single and that we should go out. She wasn't single but she was all over me and I really felt our connection...to bad.
Tonight got even crazier-I had two beers in my coat, the bouncers I'm buddies with had given me, and I was waiting on the bench in the subway, this woman next to me turns and smiles at me-and makes a joke about me having a fun night (referring to the beers). I get into a talk with her and it turns out she is in training to be a paramedic firefighter, she currently is a practicing but still learning medicine man/ woman..as in shaman-she does Ayahuasca ceremonies once a week and takes it herself once a week, and she is also a stripper..what a strange mix of things to be. She is a vegan and doesn't drink alcohol or do any drugs and we were holding hands within 1 minute of meeting and plan to do coffee soon.
Anyway this set is getting more fun-at least in terms of external results. Still alot of resistance-I wan't to cry almost daily and my mindset can get very negative at times or there can just be a fuzzy background depression like nothing is good enough..in my experience this is more mental exhaustion from the set and my sleeping habits than actual resistance to the specifics of the script.
So the fact that I am meeting woman everywhere I go-even in places I was most scared to before-subway etc..and actually exchanging information with woman who want to see me again and the fact that I am getting approached at least every other night now seems the set is finally coming to blossom.
Before I joked about how I felt like the guy from the movie Shame, well know I act like a non-porn and hooker addicted version of him lol, sometimes I feel almost silly on this set for feeling so sexual all the time but unless I'm at work it really can't be helped.
Yesterday I was talking to my friend completely oblivious and I turn around and this super sexy and adorable girl is 2 inches from my face and starts grinding on me. My friend said she had been dancing up to me slowly for the last 20 seconds. She had left her group to do so and it was a pretty empty room. After we danced she was said "that was so sexy, super hot, we can't be doing this I have a boyfriend" and pranced away. I'm really looking to be very attracted AND connected, strong sense of energetic connection, to woman I hook up with these days and she fit the bill. We danced again later and split up and at the end of the night when we said our goodbyes I just completely directly asked if she was single and that we should go out. She wasn't single but she was all over me and I really felt our connection...to bad.
Tonight got even crazier-I had two beers in my coat, the bouncers I'm buddies with had given me, and I was waiting on the bench in the subway, this woman next to me turns and smiles at me-and makes a joke about me having a fun night (referring to the beers). I get into a talk with her and it turns out she is in training to be a paramedic firefighter, she currently is a practicing but still learning medicine man/ woman..as in shaman-she does Ayahuasca ceremonies once a week and takes it herself once a week, and she is also a stripper..what a strange mix of things to be. She is a vegan and doesn't drink alcohol or do any drugs and we were holding hands within 1 minute of meeting and plan to do coffee soon.
Anyway this set is getting more fun-at least in terms of external results. Still alot of resistance-I wan't to cry almost daily and my mindset can get very negative at times or there can just be a fuzzy background depression like nothing is good enough..in my experience this is more mental exhaustion from the set and my sleeping habits than actual resistance to the specifics of the script.
So the fact that I am meeting woman everywhere I go-even in places I was most scared to before-subway etc..and actually exchanging information with woman who want to see me again and the fact that I am getting approached at least every other night now seems the set is finally coming to blossom.
Before I joked about how I felt like the guy from the movie Shame, well know I act like a non-porn and hooker addicted version of him lol, sometimes I feel almost silly on this set for feeling so sexual all the time but unless I'm at work it really can't be helped.
