01-22-2018, 11:00 PM
01-23-2018, 07:54 PM
This journal is getting too infamous. It could be the most infamous journal on the entire website. I don't even care about the other threads at this point. We are out of category on this one...
I really should stop such reckless sex practices. Like wtf, did I just bareback a stripper? WTF! Even if she was a sweetheart still in somewhat decent shape and promised she changed her ways and I was the first guy in 2 years or some shit that's still some crazy shit man I don't even go for tattooed women but that was... Whew. I mean, yeah it was alright, but this is *sort of* a problem and I should just STOP searching around for those types because at the end of the day it is so lacking compared to a real relationship. I almost fell into the trap (among other traps) of another ex-stripper but wised up and gtfo of that state.
Strange symptoms while on the road today. I had tingling lips and my vision was blurry. I could barely read the road signs from afar. So either I picked up a sudden onset deadly STD from my reckless drunken encounter, or this is some type of detox effect, or a minor allergic reaction, OR a bad combination of AOSI and UD possibly overloading my system. I really should just leave AOSI alone, like Shannon would say. I'm not scared of STDs, though, I know how to cure them even the 'uncurable' ones I'm quite sure.
Just got a 4 hand massage, that was pretty fun. The asian girls were like little gremlins and it was a very fun mischievous session. I'll be going back there for sure. Then again I was paying for female company, seems I have to do that a lot. I'm back in familiar territory but still can't really connect with strangers, everyday women seem snobbish, whatever. I'm only becoming more confident and positive on UD (hopefully not HIV positive).
I really should stop such reckless sex practices. Like wtf, did I just bareback a stripper? WTF! Even if she was a sweetheart still in somewhat decent shape and promised she changed her ways and I was the first guy in 2 years or some shit that's still some crazy shit man I don't even go for tattooed women but that was... Whew. I mean, yeah it was alright, but this is *sort of* a problem and I should just STOP searching around for those types because at the end of the day it is so lacking compared to a real relationship. I almost fell into the trap (among other traps) of another ex-stripper but wised up and gtfo of that state.
Strange symptoms while on the road today. I had tingling lips and my vision was blurry. I could barely read the road signs from afar. So either I picked up a sudden onset deadly STD from my reckless drunken encounter, or this is some type of detox effect, or a minor allergic reaction, OR a bad combination of AOSI and UD possibly overloading my system. I really should just leave AOSI alone, like Shannon would say. I'm not scared of STDs, though, I know how to cure them even the 'uncurable' ones I'm quite sure.
Just got a 4 hand massage, that was pretty fun. The asian girls were like little gremlins and it was a very fun mischievous session. I'll be going back there for sure. Then again I was paying for female company, seems I have to do that a lot. I'm back in familiar territory but still can't really connect with strangers, everyday women seem snobbish, whatever. I'm only becoming more confident and positive on UD (hopefully not HIV positive).
01-24-2018, 09:41 AM
Going to jot down some thoughts while I'm sitting here.
I'm totally over any disease scare because I'm always at ease, baby. Haha. And I don't really think my recklessness should be toned down or anything. I need recklessness, gotta make moves and do things. I got what I wanted out of that encounter: a buddy to party and finish my wine with, a massage, and some spontaneous sex. When a woman tells me I'm better than her sex toys and to come to the bar with her sometime, that's a great boost to confidence. Other than that, the situation is mostly sad and incompatible plus I had to move on. You likely wouldn't find me in a bar or strip club, but I am willing to interact with those girls on my own terms. And I did just that, brought her into my game.
Plus my stamina is insane.
I'm totally over any disease scare because I'm always at ease, baby. Haha. And I don't really think my recklessness should be toned down or anything. I need recklessness, gotta make moves and do things. I got what I wanted out of that encounter: a buddy to party and finish my wine with, a massage, and some spontaneous sex. When a woman tells me I'm better than her sex toys and to come to the bar with her sometime, that's a great boost to confidence. Other than that, the situation is mostly sad and incompatible plus I had to move on. You likely wouldn't find me in a bar or strip club, but I am willing to interact with those girls on my own terms. And I did just that, brought her into my game.
Plus my stamina is insane.
01-24-2018, 08:26 PM
I don't even know if I should continue my tales of debauchery, because... LOL! (Who can even relate?)
I'm becoming a sort of sensation at the new place I found to go get massages. Possibly the best place I've found with the hottest, most youthful and cordial workers. These little asian women are so fucking hilarious and fun to be around I almost don't want to leave. Damn... I probably can't describe what happened there without it bordering on being... Pretty much I don't know who orgasmed more, me on the table or them with their clothes still on, probably me. Yep, another 4 hand massage. Since I've been sexually continent increasingly more and more, nobody can top my stamina and power. It's very impressive, the word got out and a new duo tried to unnerve me with their sensual massage. They failed. It's like my pulsating body is just emitting orgasm signals and being massaged magnifies it. I had so much energy at the end of the massage, I took a shower, then got dressed, then pretty much grabbed one of the girls and pinned her up against the wall and... She loved it. Last time I literally picked one up and almost walked out with her. It's great flirting. Really hard to top, I don't know if I could attain that kind of playfulness with a normal chick. I feel so strong, maybe I really am going to become immortal.
Yes! It's possible to orgasm without sex, people. This is a very peculiar case so I cannot offer this same advice to anyone else.
I'm becoming a sort of sensation at the new place I found to go get massages. Possibly the best place I've found with the hottest, most youthful and cordial workers. These little asian women are so fucking hilarious and fun to be around I almost don't want to leave. Damn... I probably can't describe what happened there without it bordering on being... Pretty much I don't know who orgasmed more, me on the table or them with their clothes still on, probably me. Yep, another 4 hand massage. Since I've been sexually continent increasingly more and more, nobody can top my stamina and power. It's very impressive, the word got out and a new duo tried to unnerve me with their sensual massage. They failed. It's like my pulsating body is just emitting orgasm signals and being massaged magnifies it. I had so much energy at the end of the massage, I took a shower, then got dressed, then pretty much grabbed one of the girls and pinned her up against the wall and... She loved it. Last time I literally picked one up and almost walked out with her. It's great flirting. Really hard to top, I don't know if I could attain that kind of playfulness with a normal chick. I feel so strong, maybe I really am going to become immortal.
Yes! It's possible to orgasm without sex, people. This is a very peculiar case so I cannot offer this same advice to anyone else.
01-25-2018, 04:56 PM
As much as I enjoy dry humping little asian girls, I decided back to the countryside for me. Oh yeah, some R&R after my travels to the big city. Of course I want to go back and carry off those girls for real because that was fun as hell, but it's not like SE Asia where I can just pay the bar fine and have her for the night... or is it? Enough of that. Need to build up my protective aura and clean house. I am feeling like a king, though, but even that's not enough for me... Where is my inspiration? Maybe I should get around to reading that Leadership Secrets of Attila The Hun book... Anyone ever watch Mongol? That's a great movie, but there is no wall in it.
Edit: I don't think this post would be complete without some Mongolian throat singing rap.
Edit: I don't think this post would be complete without some Mongolian throat singing rap.
01-25-2018, 06:39 PM
It's almost a new page of my journal so I need a new theme!
01-25-2018, 06:40 PM
I was watching this music video and saw the inspiration. In the start of this video you will see a stone circle... Then you will see some butterfly symbolism...
WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT MEANS?
If you are a nerd and can connect the dots, you will realize that I just gave a very powerful research topic... When you watch and read the description of this video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pLaenb-Y64
Hmmmm... This is some high level ancient technology and some amazing things clicked when I found this guy's book a couple days ago. If anyone looked into it, it could be a pretty potent source of power.
WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT MEANS?
If you are a nerd and can connect the dots, you will realize that I just gave a very powerful research topic... When you watch and read the description of this video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pLaenb-Y64
Hmmmm... This is some high level ancient technology and some amazing things clicked when I found this guy's book a couple days ago. If anyone looked into it, it could be a pretty potent source of power.
01-26-2018, 08:55 AM
Woke up with that Thousand Suns at Perineum energetic itching sensation. This isn't necessarily sub related, well, I do remember this sensation from AOSI the first time, but I also do a lot of stuff like yoga and sleeping on a magnetic mattress pad. I need to direct this energy upwards towards my brain or make the journey back to my favorite asian girls to have this itch scratched. Only this time to penetrate their Jade Gate and conquer the Purple Flower as White Snow pours from the Twin Peaks.
http://members.efn.org/~finnpo/rgp/Ancie...antra.html
I just learned that the Mongols wiped out most of the Taoist texts. WTF I hate Mongols now!
“While some fall because of the earth, others, intelligent people, raise with the help of the earth.”
KULARNAVA TANTRA
http://www.sivasakti.com/tantra/sexualit...ve-part-1/
http://members.efn.org/~finnpo/rgp/Ancie...antra.html
I just learned that the Mongols wiped out most of the Taoist texts. WTF I hate Mongols now!
“While some fall because of the earth, others, intelligent people, raise with the help of the earth.”
KULARNAVA TANTRA
http://www.sivasakti.com/tantra/sexualit...ve-part-1/
01-26-2018, 10:54 AM
If anyone wants to go off the beaten track with me, here's a 3 hour presentation I'm watching. So far so good at 30 minutes in.
01-27-2018, 10:57 AM
Now this is a real Alpha Male tune. A new culture is erupting worldwide. Can you see it yet?
01-27-2018, 04:26 PM
Since I've awakened my shakti, I just want to dance all the time. I mostly dance instead of getting stuff done. LOL! Then I'll go on the computer to research stuff. I've been bumping that tune all day long... Should probably give my eardrums a rest... If Shannon took my recommendation and put the 'balance/align the body axis' scripting in, I am infinitely grateful because something is making me very light and nimble on my feet. That guy in the music video could use some balancing/restructuring because he has terrible posture. That's one of my major endeavors, to have a perfect body, even restore my body's original blueprint. We all have that perfect etheric blueprint our body is formed out of, without any deformities or illness and I want mine back.
Besides that not really much is going on with UD. Except I look amazingly youthful and vibrant in the mirror, like WOW. No wonder I was talking more to female clerks and flirting when I went into town today. The country vibe is pretty low energy, though, it's like my city party vibe is still dominating. On a dirt road I passed two cuties riding horses with their father, to give a sense of how rural I am... Oh yeah and I was getting a lot of good eye contact today, could be the shakti thing, I am definitely in the flow of things.
Right when I got back from my trip, my neighbors decided to sell their property and then came and moved all their stuff at night. 'Normal' folks would say they were "nice people" or some other trite garbage, but they were toxic and not that great. So I'm glad that negativity is hence removed from my reality. I also previously set up some devices to ward off negativity and secure this part of the forest. Looks like they worked.
Besides that not really much is going on with UD. Except I look amazingly youthful and vibrant in the mirror, like WOW. No wonder I was talking more to female clerks and flirting when I went into town today. The country vibe is pretty low energy, though, it's like my city party vibe is still dominating. On a dirt road I passed two cuties riding horses with their father, to give a sense of how rural I am... Oh yeah and I was getting a lot of good eye contact today, could be the shakti thing, I am definitely in the flow of things.
Right when I got back from my trip, my neighbors decided to sell their property and then came and moved all their stuff at night. 'Normal' folks would say they were "nice people" or some other trite garbage, but they were toxic and not that great. So I'm glad that negativity is hence removed from my reality. I also previously set up some devices to ward off negativity and secure this part of the forest. Looks like they worked.
01-28-2018, 04:41 PM
Ah... I can't watch this video without crying right now. Hahaha... It's that beautiful of a song... There is a reference to diamonds in it and that's how much information I've been processing, but it feels like that pressure is finally being relieved. I'm having one of those existential crisis again, nothing unusual. I'm aware that my consciousness is so powerful it sends huge ripples.
UD is vital in that it is making me more of a 'pure vessel' so that I can tap into even greater energies. I still feel like I'm on a high plateau, but crashed and had to sleep earlier due to too much tobacco and sugar. Woops. Back to my normal clean diet with plenty of high quality fats and raw foods from now on.
Those past few journal posts had an amazing amount of synchronicities and symbolism, so let's see where we go from here.
01-29-2018, 11:55 AM
Hmmmm... Should I keep contributing to this journal or do I seem absolutely nuts by now? How many of you got my latest diamond reference? Diamonds are now being used in quantum computing information processing because they are a highly efficient intelligence.
EDIT: Benjamin here is killing my vibe and now secrets of the universe which could help power Shannon's subs are lost and I'll likely have to take a break from this forum and you mental midgets so I don't get so angry I flip out and in a fit of rage cause this entire forum to implode.
EDIT: Benjamin here is killing my vibe and now secrets of the universe which could help power Shannon's subs are lost and I'll likely have to take a break from this forum and you mental midgets so I don't get so angry I flip out and in a fit of rage cause this entire forum to implode.
01-29-2018, 02:56 PM
I'm gonna have to get you to edit out the article unfortunately, as there's definately rule 4 references in there.