Subliminal Talk

Firstly happy 2018 to you all and hope that you all have a peaceful and pleasant year ahead

now my update.

Day 64 Update - 3rd January 2018 (30+31+3 = 64 days) (-14)

So ive Missed listening on 25th dec, 27th dec, 29th dec and 2nd January and I think 3rd January.

Total missed 5 extra days so added to the total above.

Thoughts and experiences:

I realised its best to reach 30days as per the instructions and then add the extra listening to this for the missed days before beginning the 2nd repeat/cycle of the listening.

I realise that MLS is doing something but not enough at all yet thus not what it promised I feel.

I do feel that there is a little bit more inner push to study and that the fear around studying has reduced however I am still avoiding and procrastinating to study even though I consciously know it wont hurt me etc.

I was hoping MLS would work on this but I also know due to missed days im no where near enough to give it a real feedback.

I think my ego, gets in my way as does perfectionism towards studying and thus this is fear and an excuse to not study.

I hope MLS helps me soon.

thanks for reading

Day 72 Update - 11th January 2018 (30+31+11 = 64 days) (-17)

Missed days: 7th, 8th and 9th of January - updated above

So 72 days in and 18 days left to reach 90 days.

Nothing major to declare.

I came back to uni/europe 2 days ago and listened to the sub yesterday (10th January).

I also spoke to a study coach from the USA. I hope she can help me as I will be paying her alot of money over the next 6months.

I also hope that MLS will clear things and continue to even though at the moment im at a loss as to its power.

thanks

Feeling like giving up

Day 81 Update 19th January 2018 (30+31+19) (-24)

Missed, 12, 14-19th January

Feeling like giving up.

From my journal you'll have read that I returned back to Uni on 9th January.

I was optimistic.

Everytime I go back to the UK my sleep is totally messed up. I have realised that any form of caffeine drink at night (cola, sometimes tea) and having people at home around me that are awake until 3am, that want my time, want to chill with me, or who do not leave my bed space (have no bedroom, live in the living room where the TV is) results in me returning back to uni with a messed up sleep cycle.

I cannot wake until 4pm or 5pm and I dont sleep until 6am - UNI time zone (europe).

You that have read my journal will know all this already.

The problem since returning was the above. I had an exam on 16th january.

I passed that exam, it was easy and it took me a couple of days to study for it.

I realised atleast I felt the best thing for me to do is try to get my sleep fixed asap so I stopped listening to MLS, since the masked tracks were affecting my ability to relax.

This today has created stress in me because I have put so much effort into trying to listen to these subs as long and consistently as I can.

I know that after day 90 I will need to make up all the days that I have missed before I can restart a new 90day count.

I just feel sad.

I realised also today that I am suffering from major fear!

This causes tension in the back of my neck and back of my head.

The fear is stopping me from wanting to study or try to learn.

Its as if I rather fail, ive accepted its easier to fail than to have face the content I must learn and understand.

I know MLS may not work on these factors and I feel MLS also doesnt seem to work on the push to study, the effort needed to get started and stay consistent.

I lack the will at times to sit and study, I fear it and I hate that I do and I have no idea why.

I wish now that there was a sub that could help me and that I was able to help myself in being able to listen consistently.

When I came to uni in 2015, I committed myself to buying $280/£200 speakers that I have here only at uni around my bed so that I could really commit to using these subs.

Sad part is that every 5-8 weeks I will go back to the UK, which is home, which is where I can relax and run away from the stress of uni and the place where I can only use my S4 phone and where I have no speakers able to play 23khz.

The sad part is that whenever I return my sleep will be affected and then im playing catch up all over again.

The sad part is that when my sleep is affected and I leave during a semester then the pressure is on to keep up with uni, get back into it and also get into fixing my sleep asap.

Nothing is helping me, nothing is changing my mental thoughts or my fears and nothing is helping me.

If I didnt have to listen to MLS for 4 consecutive loops at night then life would be so much easier because I could listen a little here and there ideally but im kidding myself I guess because I know that in the day when I have no time to listen during uni, I resort to playing at night and I guess im just feeling sad today because not only am I missing playing MLS because it will disrupt my sleep but im fearing studying.

I do not fear exams.

I do not fear tests.

I do not fear presentations.

I fear work, I fear effort, I fear struggle = fear of doing what isnt easy.

I need help

You know Jake i think Anxiety Relief Aid may be right up your alley. Now granted, I haven't used it, but the reports I've been reading from it makes it sound very promising. Also, did you ever purchase DMSI? If so, then perhaps consider running that since it's supposed to have ARA in it and would save you some coins assuming you've already paid for an earlier version.

I do not fear exams.

I do not fear tests.

I do not fear presentations.

I fear work, I fear effort, I fear struggle = fear of doing what isnt easy.


This exactly what I felt few days ago and still do..

I dint fear anything but I hate or fear taking action.. Even if I do there is this voice yelling that says run run..

But Idk it get frustrating and it affects my ability to focus as their are voice in my head yelling.

I think you identifying ur fears and weakness is the first step towards healing. I do feel frustration and anxiety also but I know its only gonna get better in the end.

Sometimes I feel angry towards myself for being such a mess.

Also, I can confirm that MLS-5.5G kind mess up my sleep.

(01-19-2018, 07:42 AM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ]You know Jake i think Anxiety Relief Aid may be right up your alley. Now granted, I haven't used it, but the reports I've been reading from it makes it sound very promising. Also, did you ever purchase DMSI? If so, then perhaps consider running that since it's supposed to have ARA in it and would save you some coins assuming you've already paid for an earlier version.

Hey K-Train, thank you for taking the time to help me out buddy.

I know nothing about Anxiety Relief Aid tbh. Ive literally been out of the loop with things here, only to long on update my journal and try to read shannons journal if time permits otherwise no idea about this sub. Can I ask why you thought it would be right for me as im open to try anything tbh.

I never purchased DMSI, if you meant erm 2.1 I think was the one out when MLS came out. I had used E2 to zero effect and then I think Shannon said DMSI will work better than E2 as its updated tech but then he said MLS will be 5.5G and the most advanced tech so I waited for MLS since my issues were uni related I felt, as in procrastination and fear of learning/cramming etc.

So no idea what to do, and I cant ask Shannon as hes probably gnna think im messing around or something since ive struggled to find a sub that would work on me.

what shall i do please?

(01-19-2018, 12:18 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I do not fear exams.

I do not fear tests.

I do not fear presentations.

I fear work, I fear effort, I fear struggle = fear of doing what isnt easy.


This exactly what I felt few days ago and still do..

I dint fear anything but I hate or fear taking action.. Even if I do there is this voice yelling that says run run..

But Idk it get frustrating and it affects my ability to focus as their are voice in my head yelling.

I think you identifying ur fears and weakness is the first step towards healing. I do feel frustration and anxiety also but I know its only gonna get better in the end.

Sometimes I feel angry towards myself for being such a mess.

Also, I can confirm that MLS-5.5G kind mess up my sleep.

Hey Zane thanks for replying man really appreciate it.

so what shall i do? K-train suggested Anxiety relief or Dmsi, no idea what to do bro.

(01-19-2018, 03:23 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-19-2018, 12:18 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I do not fear exams.

I do not fear tests.

I do not fear presentations.

I fear work, I fear effort, I fear struggle = fear of doing what isnt easy.


This exactly what I felt few days ago and still do..

I dint fear anything but I hate or fear taking action.. Even if I do there is this voice yelling that says run run..

But Idk it get frustrating and it affects my ability to focus as their are voice in my head yelling.

I think you identifying ur fears and weakness is the first step towards healing. I do feel frustration and anxiety also but I know its only gonna get better in the end.

Sometimes I feel angry towards myself for being such a mess.

Also, I can confirm that MLS-5.5G kind mess up my sleep.

Hey Zane thanks for replying man really appreciate it.

so what shall i do? K-train suggested Anxiety relief or Dmsi, no idea what to do bro.

Tbh, I myself is planning to give ARA-5.5G a shot. Cause frustrated and anxiety is what's causing me problem. So I guess we should give it a shot. 30 days of ARA-5.5G will be more than enough. I read journal of people who used ARA-5.5G for a month and it helped them alot. You should give it a try. No DMSI but ARA-5.5G.

I wish MLS-5.5G has ARA-5.5G in it. lol.

Don't worry bro that's what subs do. They tell u ur problem and u fix them on its way.

(01-19-2018, 04:30 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-19-2018, 03:23 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-19-2018, 12:18 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I do not fear exams.

I do not fear tests.

I do not fear presentations.

I fear work, I fear effort, I fear struggle = fear of doing what isnt easy.


This exactly what I felt few days ago and still do..

I dint fear anything but I hate or fear taking action.. Even if I do there is this voice yelling that says run run..

But Idk it get frustrating and it affects my ability to focus as their are voice in my head yelling.

I think you identifying ur fears and weakness is the first step towards healing. I do feel frustration and anxiety also but I know its only gonna get better in the end.

Sometimes I feel angry towards myself for being such a mess.

Also, I can confirm that MLS-5.5G kind mess up my sleep.

Hey Zane thanks for replying man really appreciate it.

so what shall i do? K-train suggested Anxiety relief or Dmsi, no idea what to do bro.

Tbh, I myself is planning to give ARA-5.5G a shot. Cause frustrated and anxiety is what's causing me problem. So I guess we should give it a shot. 30 days of ARA-5.5G will be more than enough. I read journal of people who used ARA-5.5G for a month and it helped them alot. You should give it a try. No DMSI but ARA-5.5G.

I wish MLS-5.5G has ARA-5.5G in it. lol.

Don't worry bro that's what subs do. They tell u ur problem and u fix them on its way.

Thanks bro, I had a look at ARA, either you can run it for the moment you need it (like when im not studying due to fear/procrastination) or you can run it long term to overcome anxiety fully. You're saying just a 30days run is enough why?

Is this do you think a good app because of my issues?

we could run it at the same time and see how we both get along

Random Update

Loss of action.

Fear leading to apathy.

Motivated to act, to change my life around and to do what is necessary only to not do it (in this case study) when the option presents itself.

Its as if the act of acting and stressing for the first exam has depleted me for this next exam.

Is this stress?

What is fear and is it the same as anxiety?

open to all to comment and answer


edit: some extra thoughts that I forgot to share.

Ive seen students that are motivated to take action because of fear. They act because they fear the consequences.

For me I either DO NOT act because the fear of taking action is dread, or the fear to not take action (ie the fear of the consequences, as seen by the students ive just examplified above) is not real to me or of great impact as yet.

I take action when the shit hits the fan, when the rubber hits the road or when the deadline is looming so near that I must take action, this means that then the fear of the consequence is more than the fear to take action, or put another way, the fear of the future consequence has become more present to me, more in the now moment rather than an illusionary future.

I believe that this is perhaps the root of my procrastination and therefore I implore Shannon to work on this if he hasnt, because MLS hasnt helped me in this way it seems.


So now to the next point, how do I become a student that takes action now and acts on what he must do with the help of these subs?

Which is the best and most powerful sub to help me with this please people, because E2, MLS 5.5 havent worked on me or made me notice anything to keep at them.

Any help please? - thank you

TBH, I had this problem of not taking action. Even when I listened to MLS-5.5G for like 40 days. I didn't feel like.

Lack of motivation and depression. So I used DRA-5.5G for like 21 days and believe me. I have never felt so motivated in my life. I only used it for 21 days.

After using DRA-5.5G I gave MLS-5.5G another try and somehow I was taking action and I still am.

I do get Panic attacks but doing some breathing helps. I think MLS-5.5G is capable to teaching u to control anxiety also.

I would say that If u wanna work on ur anxiety Issues then get ARA-5.5G.. It will help as DRA-5.5G helped me..

You know u r having anxiety. So I urge u to give it a try.. After ARA-5.5G come back to MLS-5.5G again.

You can post this question on Shannon Discussion journal also so that u may get response from Shannon.

(01-21-2018, 12:15 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]TBH, I had this problem of not taking action. Even when I listened to MLS-5.5G for like 40 days. I didn't feel like.

Lack of motivation and depression. So I used DRA-5.5G for like 21 days and believe me. I have never felt so motivated in my life. I only used it for 21 days.

After using DRA-5.5G I gave MLS-5.5G another try and somehow I was taking action and I still am.

I do get Panic attacks but doing some breathing helps. I think MLS-5.5G is capable to teaching u to control anxiety also.

I would say that If u wanna work on ur anxiety Issues then get ARA-5.5G.. It will help as DRA-5.5G helped me..

You know u r having anxiety. So I urge u to give it a try.. After ARA-5.5G come back to MLS-5.5G again.

You can post this question on Shannon Discussion journal also so that u may get response from Shannon.

Hey bro, the thing is I dont know if its anxiety or not so what is anxiety and what is fear?

and isnt DRA more for depression?

Ive posted on shannon's thread to get his input, so if you can or want to add to it too please do so it helps me (you and others too) thanks

and 1 more thing, which are you telling me to try then, DRA or ARA or both? before getting back onto MLS?

definately go to shannons thread where I wrote and add to it please with your suggestions incase shannon forgets about DRA or ARA etc

Do you think DRA or ARA are more stronger than DMSI2.1 or E2 in knocking whatever is inside us because clearly something inside me is messing me up causing me to becomes a procrastinator.

I just checked our ARA and DRA and PTPA and SE and tbh unsure which out of these new ones are best for me.

I dont know what my issue is except what ive shared above.

(01-21-2018, 12:27 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-21-2018, 12:15 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]TBH, I had this problem of not taking action. Even when I listened to MLS-5.5G for like 40 days. I didn't feel like.

Lack of motivation and depression. So I used DRA-5.5G for like 21 days and believe me. I have never felt so motivated in my life. I only used it for 21 days.

After using DRA-5.5G I gave MLS-5.5G another try and somehow I was taking action and I still am.

I do get Panic attacks but doing some breathing helps. I think MLS-5.5G is capable to teaching u to control anxiety also.

I would say that If u wanna work on ur anxiety Issues then get ARA-5.5G.. It will help as DRA-5.5G helped me..

You know u r having anxiety. So I urge u to give it a try.. After ARA-5.5G come back to MLS-5.5G again.

You can post this question on Shannon Discussion journal also so that u may get response from Shannon.

Hey bro, the thing is I dont know if its anxiety or not so what is anxiety and what is fear?

and isnt DRA more for depression?

Ive posted on shannon's thread to get his input, so if you can or want to add to it too please do so it helps me (you and others too) thanks

and 1 more thing, which are you telling me to try then, DRA or ARA or both? before getting back onto MLS?

definately go to shannons thread where I wrote and add to it please with your suggestions incase shannon forgets about DRA or ARA etc

Do you think DRA or ARA are more stronger than DMSI2.1 or E2 in knocking whatever is inside us because clearly something inside me is messing me up causing me to becomes a procrastinator.

I am suggesting that u try ARA-5.5G. Its more focused on fixing anxiety which stems from fear.

My problem was lack of motivation which was caused by depression. But ur case is more of a anxiety and fear type... When u r calm and free of anxiety only then will u be able to focus on what u really want to. Beings stress will only drain u and when u r drained then u won't feel like doing anything...

Being stress and anxiety free is really imp step in learning anything