Day 33
Was planning on doing once a week updates but some stuff has been going on since the past few days that I want to mention.
So I mentioned the increased negative thoughts/anxiety I was getting in my last update. Well after that post all of a sudden I thought enough is enough. I need to change some things/habits in my life that arent leading me on the path i want to go towards and star DOING things that will take me towards where I want to go.
So the following day(yesterday) I felt like i was in a much better place emotionally. I was the most productive ive been in a long time and feeling hopeful for the future. That lasted all day right up until I crawled into bed. Then the negative thoughts/anxiety started rushing back. Thoguths like "what if the negative thoughts/anxiety comes back?" "What if i keep having these thoughts/anxiety and it brings negative things into my life?"
So i struggled with those types of thoughts and anxious feeling last night and this morning. I just did my best to ignore them and moved on to my tasks for the day. Kind of had/have this anxious feeling in my chest but it hasnt stopped me from making today another productive day
I kind of feel this inner drive to take responsibility and change into the ma I know I should be, aka the best version of myself. At the same time I find im having these large fears/anxiety. Like my subconscious is fighting to hold me back. Im gonna do my best to ride this wave out and contuse doing what I need to do to progress
Side note:Going back to what I said a few days ago about not having success on the dating apps front, I actually number closed a cute blonde right after that post lol. We will see how that plays out
When I used to get worries, I learned to make fun of them.
Fear: What if I start having fearful thoughts?"
Conscious Me: "What if the moon fall on me? Ohnoes! Seriously, what kind of ridiculous crap is that?"
Listened to 42 days of DMSI 3.01 A and will now be ceasing listening until the next version is out.
I feel like there is still much clearing to be done and that is what the program is focusing on as I havent noticed much of anything in terms of developing a sexually irresistible aura. Havent been around many woman lately to test but im mostly going on this from an internal point of view. Been feeling extra introverted/ self conscious. Increased levels of self consciousness/ self judgement compared to the norm. I feel like things need to cleared away to the point that I enter a completely different paradigm to start feeling/ seeing serious results.
On the positive side my increased productivity is still there. Ive also stopped a few bad habits. Ive went the past few weekends without consuming any alcohol. Ive decided that even at the frequency of once a week binge drinking just doesnt fit in the kind of lifestyle I want to develop for myself. Sure, it can increase the level of fun/excitement for the night but the negatives far outweigh the positives. It is going to definitely be a big adjustment but I think a worthwhile one. I dont want to have to depend on alcohol to have a good time any longer.
I also havent fapped in 18 days which is the longest ive gone in a while now. I plan to continue on with the streak and from now on get my sexual needs met through woman only as nature intended
Since I havent seen much in terms of effects I thought Id be one of the people who stopped listening on the 15th. Since then I really cant say I have noticed any difference from being off of it. No aura or internal shifts. No increased attention from woman. Im really not sure if any sort of clearing has actually even taken place.I feel like all my insecurities and beliefs are pretty much the same as before I started this program. Feeling a bit discouraged but will continue on with the program when the next version comes out
Been a LONG ass time so I figured id throw up an update. Havent put anything up as its just been more of the same and nothing much to note
So I am officially 2 weeks in with DMSI 3.1 A now and things are going great in a way for me as well as not so great.
The great part is I am currently in the best shape of my life. Ever since the new year I completely stopped drinking and have been kicking ass and taking names in the nutrition and training department. My passion for lifting and becoming a better athlete has come back in full force. I am the leanest and strongest I have ever been and am very happy with how this part of my life is going right now
Now as far as things more specifically related to DMSI....things are not going so hot. No noticeable increased attention or attraction from woman. No celebrity effect. No new manifested woman in my life. No increased social confidence or any major internal shifts concerning feeling more sexy or confident.
If anything I have actually been MORE self conscious and stuck in my head as of late. Ive been often finding myself stumbling over words or going blank mid sentence. Like its hard to express myself verbally. Its pretty frustrating at times
Thats about all ive got for now
One thing I forgot to mention yesterday....Been having a lot of dreams where I am fighting with my family members. Last night was one with my brother which literally turned into a boxing match(In which I utilized my big brother card and superior knowledge of hand to hand combat and handily beat his punk ass). The dreams have mostly been big arguments with my parents and have happened on multiple occasions with each of them individually. Weird thing is in real life at the moment everything is completely fine with everyone
I would give yourself some more time. The insecurity you are feeling is probably related to the healing. In another week or two, you'll probably have a very different perspective on yourself.
Hang through it a little longer. You're probably closer to a breakthrough than you realize.
(03-16-2017, 04:53 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]I would give yourself some more time. The insecurity you are feeling is probably related to the healing. In another week or two, you'll probably have a very different perspective on yourself.
Hang through it a little longer. You're probably closer to a breakthrough than you realize.
I appreciate the words of encouragment man. Despite how I may feel I am planning on sticking with this for the long haul
Indeed... Something to keep in mind with the resistance in 3.1 is that there's a whole new direction/module added for healing and clearing that's never been used before. Even those of you who were on E2 are getting hit with the new module since it's never been used by Shannon before.
To think that at the moment DMSI 3.1 is in a way more effective at clearing and healing you.
I had a TON of dreams with family members, and in a lot of them, I had big fights with various versions of them. I don't remember much of my dreams this version, but this happened a lot on V3.0.1.
(03-16-2017, 05:14 PM)Jaeger Wrote: [ -> ]Indeed... Something to keep in mind with the resistance in 3.1 is that there's a whole new direction/module added for healing and clearing that's never been used before. Even those of you who were on E2 are getting hit with the new module since it's never been used by Shannon before.
To think that at the moment DMSI 3.1 is in a way more effective at clearing and healing you.
Yeah I was very happy to hear about the new added healing module. I feel the more emphasis on healing the better as that may be the key in getting these subs to actually work for me
(03-16-2017, 07:26 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I had a TON of dreams with family members, and in a lot of them, I had big fights with various versions of them. I don't remember much of my dreams this version, but this happened a lot on V3.0.1.
Did you feel that some sort of healing took place for you following these dreams? Like once they stopped did you notice any internal or external changes?
(03-16-2017, 07:26 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I had a TON of dreams with family members, and in a lot of them, I had big fights with various versions of them. I don't remember much of my dreams this version, but this happened a lot on V3.0.1.
Did you feel that some sort of healing took place for you following these dreams? Like once they stopped did you notice any internal or external changes?
I've noticed that when i've had dreams like that something shifted the next day. Like I had 2 dreams one night where I was full on screaming and crazily angry at my mum and the next day I was getting along with her better. It seems like having a dream like that means it's releasing that through the dream.