Dmsi 3.1 A Day 16(St Pattys Day Edition)
Just got home from going out for a little St Patties day festivities and have to say....Quite surprised with how the night turned out considering how Ive been feeling internally lately.
So first off when I roll up to my friends house to start off the night one of my other friends and his gf and a few of her friends pull up at the same time. His gf jumps out of the car and immediately runs over to me and greets me by hugging tightly around my waist and pulling my hips into hers. As she starts to let go she then proceeds to grab my bicep and goes"oooo" Im like damn *****, your bf is literally right over there. She then leans in and seductively says he doesnt have to know. Now she is always kind of flirtatious with me but this was a bit over the top even for her. So definitely an interesting way to start the night
Once we get inside and start chilling I started talking with one of her friends she brought over. Pretty quickly i could tell she was interested in me as she was very giggly and playing with her hair as we talked. As the night progressed she started touching me multiple times as we talked and hovering very closely.She kept getting closer to the point that she was basically leaning into me and we eventually started grinding at one of the bars I was at.
Also when I went up to get a drink at the first bar we went to 3 very attractive blondes came up right beside me. I then felt a tugging on my left arm and look to see one of them pulling on a st pattys day bow one of my friends gfs gave me that I put around my bicep(yes quite douchey im aware lol). I go you gals like my bow? And 2 of them giggle and say yeah.
Once we were leaving the bars to go back to my friends gfs place she said to her friend that I was hitting it off with "you guys better not have sex on my couch" To which she quickly replied "ill do what I want!"Im just like I have no idea what youre talking about, I am but an innocent naive lad. In my mind though It was more along the lines of "yep, got this badboy in the bag."
Unfortunately on the way home she started getting sick from too much alcohol and was puking once we got home.She kept telling me not to watch her when she was puking and was all embarrassed. Once she stopped she was holding onto me and saying saying how embarrassed she was and she was very sorry and usually doesnt get this drunk. I told her her eh, its no biggie. She kept feeling my arms and saying how amazing they were(guess the extra gym time is paying off after all the attention on the guns) I could tell she was too out of it for anything to go down so I just ended up snagging her number and bounced
I may not have sealed the deal but I was definitely not expecting this tonight. She was pretty dang cute too. Definitely the most attractive girl that has come onto me in a long while. Also this was the the first time I have drank since NYE and I was able to keep it in control and only have a few drinks(Used to get hammered every time I would drink). Definitely proud of myself for that. So all in all I will chalk tonight up to a success
Dmsi 3.1 A Day 17
Went out to a friends little grill out today to enjoy the nice weather we were having. Did not notice any of the blatant increased levels of attraction I was getting on Friday. All the girls that were there had bfs though but I was still slightly dsapointed I didnt notice anything extra. Most likely still a lot of kinks to work out before this badby is working full blast all the time
Dmsi 3.1 A Day 29
Been having a lot of anxiety about different things lately. Ill obsessively worry about one thing and it will eventually go away only to be replaced by obsessively worrying about something else. Then ill worry about the obsessive worrying lol. Bitch of a cycle.
There was a streak of 2 or 3 days where I was feeling pretty good and felt like everything was coming together and it was only a matter of time before I was feeling sexy af and seeing big results. That went away yesterday though and now back to the anxious state
Ive always had difficulty sleeping but it has been even worse as of late. I feel like a zombie today even on a high amount of caffeine
No blatant dmsi effects to report as of late
I would say that you're reporting that DMSI is blatantly putting you through healing and clearing, personally.
(03-31-2017, 12:14 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I would say that you're reporting that DMSI is blatantly putting you through healing and clearing, personally.
I should have been more clear, I meant no blatant effects in terms of increased attraction like I was experiencing on St Pattys day. I definitely get the feeling stuff is going on under the surface clearing wise with all the bursts of anxiety going on. I think my subconscious is getting backed into a corner and resisting is becoming increasingly difficult for it. I also am continuing to have more dreams where I am fighting with family members. I have had at LEAST a few a week since starting 3.1
(03-31-2017, 12:44 PM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ] (03-31-2017, 12:14 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I would say that you're reporting that DMSI is blatantly putting you through healing and clearing, personally.
I should have been more clear, I meant no blatant effects in terms of increased attraction like I was experiencing on St Pattys day. I definitely get the feeling stuff is going on under the surface clearing wise with all the bursts of anxiety going on. I think my subconscious is getting backed into a corner and resisting is becoming increasingly difficult for it. I also am continuing to have more dreams where I am fighting with family members. I have had at LEAST a few a week since starting 3.1
Generally you should find that the healing and clearing goes in cycles. At some points of the cycle, there will be more noticeable "B side effects" and at some points, more "A side effects" will be noticeable. Over time, the cycles will become less and less pronounced in intensity and extremity, as you approach being clear. Then the B side effects will become more apparent more of the time.
DMSI 3.1 A Day 34
Anxiety has been almost unbearable at times as of late. Almost entire days consumed with it. Really hoping this crap goes away soon. Not exactly what Id call a good time
(04-05-2017, 10:34 PM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ]DMSI 3.1 A Day 34
Anxiety has been almost unbearable at times as of late. Almost entire days consumed with it. Really hoping this crap goes away soon. Not exactly what Id call a good time
If I ever get really bad, intolerable, anxiety I take some l-theanine. 200 mg. Natural, derived from tea. It clears it right up. No dependency. It will put you into more of an alpha brain wave state, so it could screw with the ITM-SS module. But, there's no need to suffer if it's that bad, IMO.
(04-06-2017, 06:36 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (04-05-2017, 10:34 PM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ]DMSI 3.1 A Day 34
Anxiety has been almost unbearable at times as of late. Almost entire days consumed with it. Really hoping this crap goes away soon. Not exactly what Id call a good time
If I ever get really bad, intolerable, anxiety I take some l-theanine. 200 mg. Natural, derived from tea. It clears it right up. No dependency. It will put you into more of an alpha brain wave state, so it could screw with the ITM-SS module. But, there's no need to suffer if it's that bad, IMO.
Thanks for the suggestion man. I may look into that
DMSI A Day 37
Went out last night and ran into a girl ive previously talked about in my journal(we made out before but I was never able to seal the deal) She came up and immediately hugged me when she saw me. My buddy and I sat down and talked with her and her friend for a bit. She seemed really receptive and was laughing at everything I was saying. When me and my buddy got up to leave she gave me the hug of the century(almost cracked my spine, chicks fuck strong) I then got a text from her saying "I love you man." "Seriously though, youre good people. So nice to see you" with a big smiley at the end. So felt pretty solid on that front
This anxiety type stuff though is still killin me. I feel like at a point in my life about 6 years ago where I had a lot of anxiety about a certain issue for like a 8 month stretch then it kind of went away. It seems like it has come back in full force. Hoping it all gets cleared out and dealt with soon
(04-08-2017, 11:36 AM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ]DMSI A Day 37
Went out last night and ran into a girl ive previously talked about in my journal(we made out before but I was never able to seal the deal) She came up and immediately hugged me when she saw me. My buddy and I sat down and talked with her and her friend for a bit. She seemed really receptive and was laughing at everything I was saying. When me and my buddy got up to leave she gave me the hug of the century(almost cracked my spine, chicks **** strong) I then got a text from her saying "I love you man." "Seriously though, youre good people. So nice to see you" with a big smiley at the end. So felt pretty solid on that front
This anxiety type stuff though is still killin me. I feel like at a point in my life about 6 years ago where I had a lot of anxiety about a certain issue for like a 8 month stretch then it kind of went away. It seems like it has come back in full force. Hoping it all gets cleared out and dealt with soon
You seem to be clearing out that anxiety filled event. To elaborate - you are reliving it again, in order to clear it. The subconscious is in all times - past, present, future - or rather, it doesn't have time. That event has happened, is happening right now, and will happen for the subconscious, and it is using this process to help you clear it out.
That is the most likely theory, since you said it feels similar. But there might be another reason - that the subconscious is anxious because it knows it will have to execute the script.
Of course, there is the possibility it's both
leepy:
Good going with dem chicks.
Thanks for bringing up the fact that the unconscious isn't bound by time, Nemanja.
That helped me make sense of the fact that I was having vivid daydreams about sniping girls I liked in the past.
(04-08-2017, 12:11 PM)Nemanja Wrote: [ -> ] (04-08-2017, 11:36 AM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ]DMSI A Day 37
Went out last night and ran into a girl ive previously talked about in my journal(we made out before but I was never able to seal the deal) She came up and immediately hugged me when she saw me. My buddy and I sat down and talked with her and her friend for a bit. She seemed really receptive and was laughing at everything I was saying. When me and my buddy got up to leave she gave me the hug of the century(almost cracked my spine, chicks **** strong) I then got a text from her saying "I love you man." "Seriously though, youre good people. So nice to see you" with a big smiley at the end. So felt pretty solid on that front
This anxiety type stuff though is still killin me. I feel like at a point in my life about 6 years ago where I had a lot of anxiety about a certain issue for like a 8 month stretch then it kind of went away. It seems like it has come back in full force. Hoping it all gets cleared out and dealt with soon
You seem to be clearing out that anxiety filled event. To elaborate - you are reliving it again, in order to clear it. The subconscious is in all times - past, present, future - or rather, it doesn't have time. That event has happened, is happening right now, and will happen for the subconscious, and it is using this process to help you clear it out.
That is the most likely theory, since you said it feels similar. But there might be another reason - that the subconscious is anxious because it knows it will have to execute the script.
Of course, there is the possibility it's both leepy:
Good going with dem chicks.
Im hoping its the program trying to clear the issue cause I would love for it to be nixed. Im just afraid its me myself bringing back the issue to try to sabotage any possible success and that im just going to continue having this issue
The issue itself may seem like a pretty dumb one to other people but it definitely has an effect on me. Basically when I learned about different things in psychology I became afraid of the power of the mind. Afraid that id use it against myself. Kinda like how people that think theyre sick when in reality theyre not but can actually start feeling sick. Id be afraid of that kind of stuff. Like afraid of focusing on negative feelings and bad thoughts and bringing that stuff into my life. So that would cause me anxiety, then id get anxiety about having the anxiety and think that axiety will further create negative things and more anxiety in my life. Throw some frustration into the mix as well. Its a very stupid yet vicious cycle lol. Im just hoping dmsi can help me get past it once and for all
And thanks man, im tryin. I feel like if I can get past a few of these mental hurdles holding me back the sky is the limit girls wise
(04-08-2017, 01:09 PM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ] (04-08-2017, 12:11 PM)Nemanja Wrote: [ -> ] (04-08-2017, 11:36 AM)Broski Wrote: [ -> ]DMSI A Day 37
Went out last night and ran into a girl ive previously talked about in my journal(we made out before but I was never able to seal the deal) She came up and immediately hugged me when she saw me. My buddy and I sat down and talked with her and her friend for a bit. She seemed really receptive and was laughing at everything I was saying. When me and my buddy got up to leave she gave me the hug of the century(almost cracked my spine, chicks **** strong) I then got a text from her saying "I love you man." "Seriously though, youre good people. So nice to see you" with a big smiley at the end. So felt pretty solid on that front
This anxiety type stuff though is still killin me. I feel like at a point in my life about 6 years ago where I had a lot of anxiety about a certain issue for like a 8 month stretch then it kind of went away. It seems like it has come back in full force. Hoping it all gets cleared out and dealt with soon
You seem to be clearing out that anxiety filled event. To elaborate - you are reliving it again, in order to clear it. The subconscious is in all times - past, present, future - or rather, it doesn't have time. That event has happened, is happening right now, and will happen for the subconscious, and it is using this process to help you clear it out.
That is the most likely theory, since you said it feels similar. But there might be another reason - that the subconscious is anxious because it knows it will have to execute the script.
Of course, there is the possibility it's both leepy:
Good going with dem chicks.
Im hoping its the program trying to clear the issue cause I would love for it to be nixed. Im just afraid its me myself bringing back the issue to try to sabotage any possible success and that im just going to continue having this issue
The issue itself may seem like a pretty dumb one to other people but it definitely has an effect on me. Basically when I learned about different things in psychology I became afraid of the power of the mind. Afraid that id use it against myself. Kinda like how people that think theyre sick when in reality theyre not but can actually start feeling sick. Id be afraid of that kind of stuff. Like afraid of focusing on negative feelings and bad thoughts and bringing that stuff into my life. So that would cause me anxiety, then id get anxiety about having the anxiety and think that axiety will further create negative things and more anxiety in my life. Throw some frustration into the mix as well. Its a very stupid yet vicious cycle lol. Im just hoping dmsi can help me get past it once and for all
And thanks man, im tryin. I feel like if I can get past a few of these mental hurdles holding me back the sky is the limit girls wise
There are no dumb issues. I have a few of my own.
What I can see from your issues, and what I can gather from my own knowledge, is this.
You can never really "bring" an issue up. It's always both you AND the subconscious. You, the conscious, are a part of the subconscious.. except you are subject to the normal, so to say.. physical.. laws of the universe. Subconscious isn't.
You are the same thing. Conscious and subconscious. Only one is subject to more laws.
About using it on yourself.. you won't. The subconscious always tries to keep you safe - it always tries to keep itself safe. This is a big part where resistance comes from.
A few anxious thoughts won't manifest something out of thin air. Sure, they will have a slight negative effect until you clear it out, but you won't suddenly get run over by a car.
By the way, why don't you try diving into these feelings? It's an exercise I've learned.. where you feel through each emotion. Just feel it. The reasoning behind this is simple - your emotions aren't some random thoughts.. they are valuable messengers. Even those nasty negative ones.
By feeling them through, you allow them to flow and transform. It's not the fastest of processes, because the event that needs to be cleared won't just clear out in a night, but it will help. It should help you chill out that flow of emotion, though the source will still need some DMSI.
I have some dumb issues too, that need clearing ASAP, so I understand how you feel. Furthermore, I've found that deep issues are seldom fixable by pure logic (God help INTPs), so gotta rely more on emotion and DMSI.
Try and experiment
leepy: