Subliminal Talk

Last night I was conflicted. When I was going to bed I had this really strong urge to put A on and I wondered "Is it me running away from something in B?".

But it's the same script, I realize that now that i've said this haha. So I decided to give it one more night on B. I guess i'll go back to A tonight.

The pushback thing makes sense, and i've experienced it in the past.. it fucking sucks though.

I'm gonna hang on to B for longer. Already on two weeks. Let's see what happens.

(05-06-2017, 05:18 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]I didn't have it as bad as it sounds you did. But i've been going out by myself for the last 3 or so weeks and it's been good, i've met new people, talked to girls and had an awesome time.

This week all of a sudden, I went out and had all this weird anxiety. Enough that I walked into the venue, went to the toilet and then walked straight back out and got in my car.

That isn't normal, so I know I need to go back to A. But the motivation for business stuff is kicking in again with B.

And the worst thing, I put on weight from A and started losing it again on B. I don't know what it is, maybe the stress from healing. It was getting intense and the reason I moved to B was basically "I can't ***** deal with this any more, I need to stop it for a while".

I kinda wonder if our subconscious doesn't want to heal and clear (b/c it knows it'll work), and hatches a strategy to make us gain weight, so we'll QUIT! SNEAKY SNEAKY SUBCONSCIOUS!

Hmm makes some sense. But in my mind where's the limit and not knowing when it will pass. I'm looking worse than I have in a while because of it, I think on E2 I got a little decontitioned because I lost alot of drive for the gym and was mainly just going through the motions. On DMSI it's awakened more again.

It's not like i'm out of shape or weak from it, still doing stuff like burpees and box jumps just as well. But even the few kilos of extra fat doesn't look good.

I'm not sure of Shannon's current thoughts but I do remember when he release 2.4 I think without healing he mentioned some people may need a break from the healing and that was one of the reasons he did it. And doing B for a bit opened things up a little and I seen enough proof before the date I set where I was going to move onto something else if I didn't see much that there is some promise to it. So for now i'm continuing DMSI.

(05-06-2017, 09:04 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Hmm makes some sense. But in my mind where's the limit and not knowing when it will pass. I'm looking worse than I have in a while because of it, I think on E2 I got a little decontitioned because I lost alot of drive for the gym and was mainly just going through the motions. On DMSI it's awakened more again.

It's not like i'm out of shape or weak from it, still doing stuff like burpees and box jumps just as well. But even the few kilos of extra fat doesn't look good.

I'm not sure of Shannon's current thoughts but I do remember when he release 2.4 I think without healing he mentioned some people may need a break from the healing and that was one of the reasons he did it. And doing B for a bit opened things up a little and I seen enough proof before the date I set where I was going to move onto something else if I didn't see much that there is some promise to it. So for now i'm continuing DMSI.

Well, I feel like I have a little more motivation for some things and eating well this 2nd time on A. I can only think it's because some of the healing/clearing phase is passing. I hope it keeps getting better.

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Travis are you still on A?!

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Hahaha.. remember for extra effect you've gotta do a gun show and kiss your biceps!

(05-19-2017, 06:22 PM)Travis Wrote: [ -> ]Today I stood in front of the mirror amazed at how sexy I am for like 10 minutes haha. What a douche

LOL...

(05-19-2017, 09:53 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Hahaha.. remember for extra effect you've gotta do a gun show and kiss your biceps!

Better get some pet insurance in that case!