Subliminal Talk

(09-28-2016, 11:30 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]"Damn, these guys are clueless!" - Women everywhere.

"Damn, these women never learn!" - Men everywhere.

YEP I'M PRETTY sure I had this exact experience yesterday with the girl who was DTF. Didn't end up meeting her today, so that opportunity was a golden one I blew. And I knew I was f****ING up every time I made a blunder in our first interaction. Oh well, at least I know how I flubbed up and what not to do next time. Lesson learned!

5 loops last night, 2 US, 3 TS cozy phones, 11 clicks.

Woke up motivated, got the gym for cardio and ran errands at a few different stores.

At the gym, the girl I found attractive two days ago was there and chose to warm up on the treadmill next to me. There was maybe one other girl the entire 90 minutes I was there that I found mildly attractive. I didn't feel or see any evidence of an aura. No feelings of sexual arousal.

At Home Depot, I was looking for a few replacement screws for our baby gate. The guy in the aisle literally asked everyone if they needed help finding anything, except me - the guy who'd been standing there for over five minutes unable to find what he needs. I had to eventually go to him.

Between Home Deport and Walmart, I had about 3 situations where if I didn't get out of the way I would have been run over. It's like I don't physically exist. The Walmart greeter said "Hi!" to everyone except for me.

My hip started hurting during cardio, and a dull ache persisted throughout my errands and even now. Whatever used to cause it to go away is no longer in play, or I'm not executing the script properly. I think it has to do with the aura not being "always on" and the lack of that constant energy flooding has reduced the beneficial physical effects. Just a guess.

Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal. It's merely that before the desire had disappeared, now the desire is there. I also have noticed prostate activity, in the sense that it tightens up during any sexual activity - solo or otherwise - and plays a part in early release. I've also noticed it getting in the way of urination if I'm feeling randy.

I've noticed I've been getting a bit of my old oily skin from my teens & 20's back, and more issues with whiteheads. To me, that says my testosterone is up a bit - but I haven't had bloodwork to confirm or anything. TMI alert: loads have been bigger, and ejaculation has been more forceful (maybe that's part of the prostate thing?)

I also realized today that I haven't been drinking coffee - for over a week! I've been using caffeine, but just no desire for coffee specifically.

A few other things, and summary: Dreams have not been crazy or frightening, but I'm also not remembering them. Neediness for attention is down a little, I haven't been that interested in asking my wife for sex, she hasn't hinted at wanting or needing sex. It's been a little over a week, I think? I'm pretty irritable on a day-to-day basis. I get waves of emotion that well up here and there, triggered by who-knows-what. My wife said she was tired today, and for a second, I almost cried. WTF? I've been contemplating how I used to interact with women, past blown opportunities, and I feel like I'm letting a lot of junk go. My body's aches and pains are noticeable. I get "randomly" horny and have a tendency lately to take care of that tension myself. Manifestation seems non-existent. Autopilot seems non-existent. Ghosting is occurring often. Celebrity effect is diminished to non-existent.

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

At least v2.4 is working on dissolving GSF. I don't feel ashamed of porn anymore( just noticed now that you mentioned it).

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Be very careful how hard you push that button...

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 09:30 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Like some other members here, looking at porn here and there and floggin' the walrus. Unlike some members here, I have no shame or guilt about it. I think it's completely normal.

Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Lol, who knows? With DMSI, you may get to.

(09-29-2016, 02:41 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:23 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Right on man, me too.

Who's your fantasy these days? (if it's not indiscreet that is)

There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Lol, who knows? With DMSI, you may get to.

"Honey...it's your birthday...and look who I brought over, let's play!"

Think I'll need a good lucid dreaming sub before that'll happen, lol.

(09-29-2016, 02:43 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:41 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:33 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]There's a reason my wife's 8 years younger than me. Young n' smooth. Real over fake. No particular porn stars or anything, necessarily.

Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Lol, who knows? With DMSI, you may get to.

"Honey...it's your birthday...and look who I brought over, let's play!"

Think I'll need a good lucid dreaming sub before that'll happen, lol.

Lol, you never know! Blackdragon says that a woman will let her alpha cheat on her if it's discreet. The thing women care about most is their reputation I guess.

But yeah, lucid dreaming sub would be awesome. Don't know why it wouldn't be possible with all the new tech...

(09-29-2016, 02:50 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:43 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:41 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Ah, right on. Also, didn;t know the wife was 8 years your junior. Niiiiice.

I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Lol, who knows? With DMSI, you may get to.

"Honey...it's your birthday...and look who I brought over, let's play!"

Think I'll need a good lucid dreaming sub before that'll happen, lol.

Lol, you never know! Blackdragon says that a woman will let her alpha cheat on her if it's discreet. The thing women care about most is their reputation I guess.

But yeah, lucid dreaming sub would be awesome. Don't know why it wouldn't be possible with all the new tech...

Did I really just see you say "she will LET HER alpha cheat"?

If she has an alpha on her hands, she won't have the power to stop him, for one, and for two, he will own her, not the other way around.

And thirdly... it's not cheating if you're intelligent enough to make it standard rules of engagement.

(09-29-2016, 02:52 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:50 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:43 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:41 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-29-2016, 02:39 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I frequently joke that when she turns 30 in a few years that I'm going to trade her in. Now I stand back at least 5 feet, because I don't enjoy bruised ribs, haha!

Lol, who knows? With DMSI, you may get to.

"Honey...it's your birthday...and look who I brought over, let's play!"

Think I'll need a good lucid dreaming sub before that'll happen, lol.

Lol, you never know! Blackdragon says that a woman will let her alpha cheat on her if it's discreet. The thing women care about most is their reputation I guess.

But yeah, lucid dreaming sub would be awesome. Don't know why it wouldn't be possible with all the new tech...

Did I really just see you say "she will LET HER alpha cheat"?

If she has an alpha on her hands, she won't have the power to stop him, for one, and for two, he will own her, not the other way around.

And thirdly... it's not cheating if you're intelligent enough to make it standard rules of engagement.

Right, guess I'm losing out to this beta mind set. I care waaaay too much about social pressure.