(06-22-2016, 02:54 PM)WIP68 Wrote: [ -> ] (06-22-2016, 09:58 AM)Minititan Wrote: [ -> ]I don't think I'd count that as cock blocking myself. Something was really off, I had no kind of desire to sleep with her and the sub is about having sex with women you find sexually attractive. She wasn't bad looking she was fairly attractive but not my type. She was acting like a lot of the older women I've been in the presence of but this one had alcohol.
I respect your answer, but I'd like to dig a little deeper if I may.
The sub is designed to sexually attract people you find attractive. You say she was attractive and then propositioned you for sex. In my books the sub worked its magic.
But you say you disqualified her as not being your type. I'd like to ask you a few questions, and I do not mean to be offensive. At the moment you made the decision not to go to exchange orgasms with her, did fear enter into your mind at any point? For example, she was older than you, and has probably has significantly more sexual experience than you. Did a fear of performance anxiety enter your mind? or any other fears that influenced you to disqualify her?
The reason I ask is that if this was the case, I'd like Shannon to (better) address these types of sexual fears in V2.
Thanks for your response.
No I would say I was pretty calm during the interaction, I was nervous briefly when the waitress first came to the table, I was sat by a guy and she came from behind me so I was expecting a male waiter and turned to see her and was partially off guard for a second. It's not a fear factor when it comes to older women, I find the age gap too much, it's almost repulsive, she is more than double my age, an age difference of 28 years and I'm 24. My personal rule is 5 years younger than my mum who is 41, so my personal upper age limit is 36, there is such a thing as too old and maybe it's the way I was brought up but to me the idea of having sex with someone more than double your age and has more than a decade on your parents makes my stomach churn. I have rejected older women multiple times in the past whilst on and off other subs, and I will continue to even with the E2 and OGSF in V2 because it's just something I'm personally not into. My issue that I had with the sub was that initially it only appeared to be affecting much much older woman in my opinion, so I didn't consider the night as a successful endeavor as again I was in a situation with a woman I wouldn't want to sleep with who seemed to be reacting strongly. However I had no idea what was about to unfold at the time. I did say she was attractive, the kind that I would maybe even do a double take for, but as pretty as she may have been there was no sexual attraction, it was actually hard to focus on her talking with the step daughter in the background constantly traveling back and forth.
Performance anxiety never entered my mind, even during the makeout it never cropped up, I have had it many times in the past, even when I was I getting success on SM3 I was getting performance anxiety quite frequently, however I can't speak for certain as I didn't have sex last night but it felt very in the moment, nothing else mattered at the time, a similar feeling to the lovesick feeling I experienced previously with this sub but with more fire, it was intense, the moment was right and it was like we needed to have sex but then the phone rang and it was like she had been caught with her hand in the cookie jar.
The reason I'm counting this as the first success isn't because the makeout, or the fact I could have had sex, but the fact a girl in my age range who I found sexually attractive was clearly being affected by the subliminal, it's fine to say the sub was working and affecting older women that I had no interest in pursuing an orgasm exchange with, but to see results that were blatant that affirmed that the sub is working on a level I'd like it too, it would be the same if it was the other way around, if the sub was making just 13 year old girls act strange around me then it would be obvious that the sub is doing something but I wouldn't count is a success. So the success I'm on about is more of a personal success rather than the success of the sub having an effect on anyone.
I can't say I didn't have fear, because on some level I probably did, I did not feel comfortable around this woman, I had a gut wrenching feeling of flight or fight when she was talking, this woman was also under the influence of alcohol and on her 4th or 5th glass her whole presence changed, it wasn't seduction it almost felt like a dodgy backstreet transaction.
I know I sound really defensive but for the first occasion I've witnessed the sub was turning someone in who was not granny material.
