Stage 4 day 5:
not much happened, some stuff here and there. This stage is really tiring, I couldn't go out this Saturday night I was too tired. My mum who in stage 3 was harassing me about my hair style didn't say a word about it since I'm in stage 4, what a coincidence.
I played poker with my friends and the girlfriend of my friend was there. The girlfriend was like looking for my approval with her eyes when they were talking, or being timid when I caught her looking at me. Nothing new though.
I went to town Sunday afternoon and some girls were checking me out a lot.
I had some crazy dreams since beginning of this stage.
Since the beginning of this stage I noticed a lot of men being afraid I might steal their women.I noticed them touching their girlfriends when clearly it wasn't expected of them, it wasn't what they seem to do usually based on the girls reaction. Some guys went from another place just to clutch on their woman, this kind of behavior is really disgusting to me.
I don't know if it's tiredness or a physical change but it's seems my right eye is changing. My right iris is slightly more up than it used to be, just like the eyes of Michael Jackson, you can see the white under the iris. It gives en effect like I'm in trance. I don't know if it's not just tiredness though. but it doesn't seem to disappear. In physiognomy this is considered a very auspicious trait and very rare.
I won't do that, since doing SM3 I don't see her as attractive anyway. Just a shy girl that isn't interesting to me. I used to be attracted to this kind of girl, I was just dreaming their personality and saw them as little princess. Now I realize they are normal people, and not really attractive, not really feminine either, with her voice that is almost masculine. Voice is a big turn off for me now, when a woman doesn't have a feminine voice its unattractive.
Stage 4 day 6:
Lack of interested with the woman I was talking to online for about 3 weeks now. I don't see her as someone that important right now. 6 days ago I was really into it, but since today feel like it's boring and like I was treating her with too much respect before that. I didn't talk about it but the 1st day of listening to this stage I told her I wanted to fuck her when she gave me the chance. My interested in her dropped so much that I didn't care if she didn't talk to me after that. And today I was putting her down, even told her I would buy a rope for her to commit suicide with some emoticon but I was forcing myself to be playful. That conversation started when she told me she is hopeless with men and only attract guy she is not into. I don't know what's going to happen but I think it will end as I'm not into it anymore.
I went to see a woman in a organic shop today, she seems interested and keep asking me if I need help each time I'm there. Last time she proposed to call me when a certain product will arrive. And she did 3 weeks later. Now she remember my name and seems to be a bit flirty with me. She is very pretty, what most people would call perfect though I don't see that as perfection but she is still very pretty, and she always wear a very sexy outfit, more than that and she couldn't work there. Last time she took my number I thought she would called for a date, I smiled when she asked my number, it was in stage 2 I had my cocky attitude.
I'm still more aggressive but I don't notice it as much.
Stage 4 day 9:
Went in town today, just after coming out of my car I noticed the blond woman to my right at the sidewalk is staring at me, she stopped walking to stare at me. I was thinking maybe she was looking at someone behind me
A beautiful girl 18 distributing ads talk to me after I look at her deeply. I made convo with her for 5 minutes, she was attracted I would have said but a bit too young for me even she was very beautiful I'm tired of immature girls. I could have ask her number but I didn't want to waste my time with her. So I went to my ice cream bar after that. I noticed 2 boys around 15 keeps staring at me when I was eating. One is particularly insistent, he was just there in front of me and staring. I looked at me for 3 seconds then I ignored him as it wasn't an angry staring so I didn't care. For 5 minutes this 2 kept glancing at me every time they had the occasion. So at this point I knew they were gay. I went to take something to wipe off my mouth, so I was next to them due to that. And while taking it the insistent one looked at me and said "wow what an handsome man", I ignored him like I didn't heard him. But at this point I knew my attraction was over the top. Because he wasn't the only one doing that, at least 5 boys did that and there was a cougar doing the same thing, she was staring at me and did that a lot of time, her kids next to her was doing the same thing.
5 minutes later a very young girl around 15 arrived, for her age she was very beautiful and had the curve of a mature woman. When she was at the check out I looked at her with my seductive eyes and I noticed she became affected, her eyes were glowing. She began to steal some glance at me. Then after 2 minutes he put her head under her arm like she was desperate ( obviously she was horny). She went to the toilet for 1 minute and came back just next to me. She took a chair, put one leg on it, and began to grind her pussy on the chair (it was a slow movement but very noticeable). WOWOW lol BIG HIT . No one noticed it, her friends noticed she were strange but didn't noticed her performance on the stage. She was in front of me, with a chair of my table, her hand holding the chair between the holes (there were round holes in the chair, it was part of the design), the position said it all, she wanted to fuck, more obvious than that is not possible. Of course she didn't realized she was doing that, it was all in her subconscious. A girl grinding her pussy next to me that's a first.
I forgot to mention that while she was doing that 3 girls around 17 was looking at me also but there were very discreet about it and at that point I was ignoring them.
If that girl wasn't so young I would have asked her number, she had a very cute face.
(06-11-2016, 09:11 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: [ -> ]Stage 4 day 9:
Went in town today, just after coming out of my car I noticed the blond woman to my right at the sidewalk is staring at me, she stopped walking to stare at me. I was thinking maybe she was looking at someone behind me
A beautiful girl 18 distributing ads talk to me after I look at her deeply. I made convo with her for 5 minutes, she was attracted I would have said but a bit too young for me even she was very beautiful I'm tired of immature girls. I could have ask her number but I didn't want to waste my time with her. So I went to my ice cream bar after that. I noticed 2 boys around 15 keeps staring at me when I was eating. One is particularly insistent, he was just there in front of me and staring. I looked at me for 3 seconds then I ignored him as it wasn't an angry staring so I didn't care. For 5 minutes this 2 kept glancing at me every time they had the occasion. So at this point I knew they were gay. I went to take something to wipe off my mouth, so I was next to them due to that. And while taking it the insistent one looked at me and said "wow what an handsome man", I ignored him like I didn't heard him. But at this point I knew my attraction was over the top. Because he wasn't the only one doing that, at least 5 boys did that and there was a cougar doing the same thing, she was staring at me and did that a lot of time, her kids next to her was doing the same thing.
5 minutes later a very young girl around 15 arrived, for her age she was very beautiful and had the curve of a mature woman. When she was at the check out I looked at her with my seductive eyes and I noticed she became affected, her eyes were glowing. She began to steal some glance at me. Then after 2 minutes he put her head under her arm like she was desperate ( obviously she was horny). She went to the toilet for 1 minute and came back just next to me. She took a chair, put one leg on it, and began to grind her pussy on the chair (it was a slow movement but very noticeable). WOWOW lol BIG HIT . No one noticed it, her friends noticed she were strange but didn't noticed her performance on the stage. She was in front of me, with a chair of my table, her hand holding the chair between the holes (there were round holes in the chair, it was part of the design), the position said it all, she wanted to ****, more obvious than that is not possible. Of course she didn't realized she was doing that, it was all in her subconscious. A girl grinding her pussy next to me that's a first.
I forgot to mention that while she was doing that 3 girls around 17 was looking at me also but there were very discreet about it and at that point I was ignoring them.
If that girl wasn't so young I would have asked her number, she had a very cute face.
This is really epic. It seems you are going to have soon lot of fun. I mean one can not get more blatant signs as a girl grinding her bonaani:-) but please do not tell me you were going to ask her number if she were not under age:-) you should go with her where she came from: the toilet:-) if she was not 15.
From the chatroom:
(21:50:06) Alpha360: well I like I flirt with them but I won't go further than that
(21:50:22) LeonidasXVI: You guys are slut breeders. :p
(21:50:45) Alpha360: one day maybe
(21:50:46) Sky_Wolf: not for me- no eye contact no acknowledgement
(21:51:34) Alpha360: If there wasn't any law and this society wasn't so restrained about such a stupid matter, I would have f** that girl around 15
(21:52:11) LeonidasXVI: I am on the same page as you, Alpha.
(21:53:08) LeonidasXVI: My neighbour is 15, she is super hot. And I can't do anything about it. Pfft.
(21:55:48) Alpha360: I watched a documentary about some savages in amazon, or some Africans I don't remember where. And sexually it's full freedom. There are 13 years old kids fucking with 60 year old, they say it's for learning sexually, both parties get what they look for and there is absolutely no shame about it.
(21:56:20) Alpha360: Curiously those savages are more civilised than us with our western stupidity
Don't want to seem like a odd ball, at least according to this society, but I have to agree. I did research a while back ago about what the age of consent actually should be. I did this because I remember reading about a guy who got put on the sexual predators list, unjustly imo. What happen was he was on Tinder and hooked up with a girl. They met then had sex. The problem was she was like 15 (or around there) and had lied about her age on Tinder. Cops showed up at his door and arrested him. At the court proceedings, the girl admitted that she lied about her age and even her mother backed her up. Despite all this, the judge still found the guy guilty and said the guy had to register on the state's sexual predators list. On top of this I've also seen and heard people abuse these laws. For example, which I have seen plenty of times, Teenage Boy and girl are dating/having sex. The parents don't like the boyfriend, so as soon as he turns 17 or 18 and the girl is still 16 (something like that depending on the state) they call the cops on him for being with a underage girl and his life is ruined. Its just so dumb and petty imo.
Anyway, I found out in my research that the age of consent laws didn't change until like a hundred years ago, before then for thousands of years you were considered a adult as soon as you hit puberty (could vary wildly from 10 to 13). They even had people at age 14 attending Harvard back when it first began. Things like Junior high school and High school didn't become mandatory until like the early 1900s. Before, when you were 10 or 11 you just either went to a trade school, joined the workforce, or went to college. I have to agree with this because quite honestly, like most people my age, I found Junior high school and High school to be a waste of time. I didn't really end up using anything I learn from their in my day to day life really.
(06-11-2016, 11:14 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]Don't want to seem like a odd ball, at least according to this society, but I have to agree. I did research a while back ago about what the age of consent actually should be. I did this because I remember reading about a guy who got put on the sexual predators list, unjustly imo. What happen was he was on Tinder and hooked up with a girl. They met then had sex. The problem was she was like 15 (or around there) and had lied about her age on Tinder. Cops showed up at his door and arrested him. At the court proceedings, the girl admitted that she lied about her age and even her mother backed her up. Despite all this, the judge still found the guy guilty and said the guy had to register on the state's sexual predators list. On top of this I've also seen and heard people abuse these laws. For example, which I have seen plenty of times, Teenage Boy and girl are dating/having sex. The parents don't like the boyfriend, so as soon as he turns 17 or 18 and the girl is still 16 (something like that depending on the state) they call the cops on him for being with a underage girl and his life is ruined. Its just so dumb and petty imo.
Anyway, I found out in my research that the age of consent laws didn't change until like a hundred years ago, before then for thousands of years you were considered a adult as soon as you hit puberty (could vary wildly from 10 to 13). They even had people at age 14 attending Harvard back when it first began. Things like Junior high school and High school didn't become mandatory until like the early 1900s. Before, when you were 10 or 11 you just either went to a trade school, joined the workforce, or went to college. I have to agree with this because quite honestly, like most people my age, I found Junior high school and High school to be a waste of time. I didn't really end up using anything I learn from their in my day to day life really.
Even at my mother's generation, girls got married at 15 or 16. They were considered adults by then.
The age of consent in my country is 16. It's 13-16 throughout most of Europe. So I don't get the big deal about 18. It's just an arbitrary number.
Stage 4 day 13:
I noticed it again yesterday, a guy see from far way, I was watching the sea, the guy looks at me more than once. 30 seconds later he goes to see the girl he was with, then start touching her (she didn't seem like his girlfriend)
It's likes like I trigger fear in males around me, like they are afraid I'm going to steal their women. At this point it happened too much to say that it's a coincidence.
Unfortunately as of now I didn't had the occasion to go around a lot of young lady. I couldn't go out Saturday night because I wounded myself.
I was at my ice cream shop yesterday and a beautiful cougar came in, instantly she was enamored, she had the attitude of a young lady being flirty when she looked at me. She was with a man around her age but not a confident one. It's like he was walking on eggs around her.
A lot of women look at me in their car from far away, I noticed much more than usual, much more than in the previous stage. I noticed a lot of surprised looked from people when they see me. Some are just staring, some look at me like they don't understand.
It's seems like my family doesn't acknowledge the difference as much as strangers interacting with me, maybe the image is too far off for them to realize it.
After reading Dzeemo last post It gave me the motivation to run SM3 again just after this run back to back. I think it might be much more powerful than AOSI V2. Because AOSI give only one aura. And SM3 have 7. Seems like counterproductive and I'm more and more thinking that SM3 is awesome. I chose SM3 because it has this strong masculine raw aura and I want to stick with it.
Stage 4 day 17:
I don't know if it's my perception but the forum seems full of BS right now. It's like there is no usefulness in most post I see. Lots of arguments, thread derailing, pick up stuff, people constantly asking irrelevant thing in the Shannon discussion thread, etc.
Might be SM3 programming.
Besides all this I went on a date with a girl recently, but I don't really want to talk about it as it doesn't even seem really related to SM3. Though SM3 definitely had a effect on the way I dealt with this girl. I don't want to talk about it because I'm realizing more and more that I shouldn't talk about those personal subject like this.
One thing I realized after this date is how much what a girl say can be off the reality. I knew her personality before I met her, better than herself I think. But I still subconsciously adapted to what she said, at least a minimum, though SM3 seems to have reduce that part.
The next 3 days after the date I realized that a girl even if she says she is a feminist which usually like to play tough/masculine will expect that the men do all the work of seduction, attraction, sex, acting, showing interest, take risk. And that she will take absolutely no risk, but here absolutely none. To the extent that the man has to completely leave her no chance of escape during the sex act. Which means that she prefer to have no choice so she can put all the consequence and responsibility on the man. What someone would call a rape. She is looking for a rape literally, without knowing it of course, its her subconscious. But basically after investigating her mind and her behavior I realized she wanted me to put her in that position because she showed no sign of interest when I gave her full sign of interest like kissing her. She wanted me to fu** her but without telling me anything even with body language or behavior, I realized that after we talk through text messages the next day.
It's crazy how contradictory women are in their mind. This is a woman who is really feminine, has a very feminine core personality but think she is a feminist (feminist that play masculine role).
Just after writing about that I realized she is not the only one who had rapist fantasies. 2 out 3 girls I met did the same thing. It's not really rape because she want it but it seems like a rape because she play fools and don't want to reveal her feeling, her attraction. And it was even more crazy with this last girl because she almost didn't reveal anything with body language and I know I'm very good at body language now.
So ultimately that means to satisfy some girl needs you have to play the rapist role. The more feminine she is the more likely she will want that you take that role. How contradictory is that? if I ask those girls about rape they will frown like crazy and give crazy hate speech about rapist when actually they want you to play that role. And most of the time you will play it without being aware that you are doing it
I often heard that many women have some sort of rape fantasies. That doesn't mean they wanna be raped (I think no one want this) but they like the role. Once I heard a psychologist saying that women like that role because they have some sort of control about a situation they wouldn't have any control in real life. But this is probably only one piece of cake.
Girls love a good wrestle in bed. You are 'play raping' her while she pretends to resist. It's a lot of fun and they secretly want that.
Stage 4 Day 25:
I went to a club yesterday. The weather was good again and I wasn't as tired so why not.
It seems females are noticing me again which reminded me of stage 1 and 2. But they seems much more afraid or subtle when they look at me. I didn't see any obvious sign of erratic behavior, tension or something like that but a lot of glance while I'm not supposed to see them.
There was only one girl who reacted more obviously to me. And it was a Chinese woman around 35. I noticed that she was trying to dance with me, when I got back on the dance floor later she jump back near me as fast as she could. And she bumped me with her back while dancing, she try to move as close as she can, touching me with her back, obviously she didn't need to do that.
It's hard to described how I feel on SM3 stage 4. I begin to understand why Dzeemo felt so bad while running it. I had some resistance it seems the last week and just a few days ago my aggressiveness went back. It seems when I resist the sub I behave in the opposite manner, I'm very caring. And when the sub works good I'm very aggressive.
What I noticed the most during the last 2 stage is that I care about me but not as much for others anymore. BS behavior is more obvious and I'm more aggressive about it.
I noticed a lot of men looking at me yesterday. There were some admiration it seems or jealousy. When I was at the bar a woman offered me a beer, saying that a friend offered it to her but she didn't want it. After that the men around were looking at me even more. She caressed me with the back of her elbow before doing that for at least 8 seconds and she didn't seem to be drunk at all. After giving me the beer she went away. I barely acknowledge her, I didn't even look at her straightly, I just said thank you.
I had some fun dancing but the people around wasn't to my taste. It's crazy how women act stupidly in clubs, playing lesbian role. It's like they have to be cold and not look at anyone, they have to be strong, cold, emotionless creature otherwise their friend will blame them (s***t). Attractive thin women in groups are the worst, it feel a bit like men in groups they play a role like they really are enjoying themselves. I begin to realize how a women must feel when she show weakness, she shows that she is attracted, when she goes in the danger territory. Considering all those factor when a woman act it means she is really attracted to you, really badly. I'm always surprised by how much a woman will deny that she is attracted to you.
I didn't stay long that night around 3 hours then I went home. The feeling you get while using SM3 is a though one I would say. I begin to understand why so much people decided to not run it again afterward.
Stage 4 day 29:
Stage 4 is getting full gear it seems. It sucks that it's winter I would have had so much more to report.
So I went to a date with a female friend that I kissed last time we met. At some point we were at a bar. It was almost empty at first. I sat in a corner at the entrance with a full view of everyone coming in. I didn't pay attention to it too much at first but I noticed a lot of girls when coming in stopping right in front of me with their back facing me. They just stop near me like there were looking for something or someone that doesn't exist. No one usually stop there as it's the passage to get in and it's not socially appropriate. I also noticed much more girl that usual here, usually there are only guys and rarely there are so much girls there. There was one at first who stopped there and used her phone like she was calling someone, she was a pretty blond but I didn't pay too much attention to it I thought maybe she was really calling someone.
It became obvious when a girl relatively cute with her boyfriend came out with a group of people. When she was passing near me she looked at me but I didn't pay attention to it too much I was talking with my friend.
They sat 2 tables away in a corner in front of me, the girl wasn't facing me so he she had to turn her head at a 90° angle to look at me. And she did turn her head at least 10 times if not more. Each time taking around 3 seconds to look at me, and there was only me to look at this position, my friend had her back facing her. After around the 7th time doing that in an obvious manner her boyfriend instinctively wanted to know why she turned her head so often. So he looked at me for 2 seconds. And even after that she kept looking at me from time to time but more discreetly this time but still more obvious than most girl. I never saw a girl looking at me so often without being discreet about it when with her boyfriend. I don't know if he was her boyfriend but she was sticking near him like glue so I guess he wasn't a normal guy to her.
In the meantime there were some girls stopping near me, the ratio was quiet high considering these wasn't too much girls, maybe around 12 and 4 that were beautiful.
There was one who stopped near me, then bend over near me, I didn't found any reason for it. I think she act like there were something on the ground that caught her attention. Then she sat behind my friend with her back facing me. But she sat in the only chair that I had a full view on it and usually people doesn't sit in that chair. She then look at her phone while giving me a full view of her neck, she was using her phone in a very sensual manner, touching her hair a bit. Very subtle, I didn't catch her looking at me at all, but I'm sure she saw me while coming out. She was with a guy also, he came after around 10 minutes, it seems sitting there near me wasn't part of their program. I couldn't pay attention to it too much there was too much fish around and I was with my friend talking. She wasn't very pretty anyway.
I also noticed some guys coming in and looking at me too much and for too long to be considered normal.
My friend was also much more pleasing, she touched her hair more than last time. She also talked about her ass and that people like to bite it
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After that I went away.
We kissed and cuddled while watching a movie in my car. The only thing missing is a place to sleep and have sex but I'm taking my time there. I think the more I get to know her and make her wait a bit the better the sex will be and it will also last longer through time.
Atfer I left her home she sent me a message to warn her that I made it home, unusual. I don't know if it's her or my influence but she also asked when she can leave, if it's okay with me, like a kid asking for permission, she did that last time also.