Subliminal Talk

----Spent the day in a museum for a Chinese new years event. Got mildly jealous of all the interracial couples. I got over it by thinking there is all sorts of races mingling together. Some people stick to each other and others go out of it. Taking portraits out of context and adding captions was great fun and I got over it.

(02-06-2016, 11:36 AM)CatMan Wrote: [ -> ]HAHA!!! It always really makes me smile, to see somebody literally parrot back something directly from the sub. It's proof of it working on them, it's always so exciting to me to read!!!

"Overcoming Guilt, Shame and Fear 5G is a special and potentially life changing subliminal program designed and intended to be a very powerful assistant to gently and permanently overcoming, outgrowing, dissolving, neutralizing and replacing any and all guilt, shame and fear you may have with their reverse emotions, plus love and wisdom. (We are not aiming for romantic, erotic or platonic love, or any form of love that is false or would weaken you, but the general state of love that is the reverse of guilt, shame and fear.)"

If I can radiate that fuzzy warm feeling like an aura then I would be a total magnet Lol.The Naturalizer is making it really hard for me to notice changes and it makes me feel like over half the battles manifest in my dreams.

The sub is pushing me to face my fear of zombies. Or the idea of it. It sounds weird but it is hitting a level of actually feeling physical fear. Tonight is not going to be a fun sleep.
-OGSF 5G proves me wrong once again. Smooth
Dream
--Became the stuff of my fears and became less fearful of them.

Day 9
one of my sticking points are socializing with people. I am getting better at it though.
1.had a cool conversation with a dude in the gym. Just talking about lifting.

2. In one of my classes, I was required to join a group. One foriegn guy singled me out to be in his group since i was the only dude he talked to. At the end of the class, these two girls are talking about hating group projects. I invited myself into the conversation and got to relate with them. One of them went to the professor and asked if they can merge with us and become one group claiming we " sounded like decent guys". I dont think this would have happened in the past.

3. Went to a meet and greet for a club. Talked with one girl and managed to get roped into meeting 2 more people. It was kinda stuttery but i was able to get my ideas across.After that I left and rationalized I talked to enough people today. Fear spoke to me then but i have another chance to work on it tomorrow.

--i didnt notice it was i was socializing but now i realized i was noticibly phasing out from being nervous. So much so that the people try to get me back into reality. When i do return to then the stuttering comes back too.

Mentality
--- I was hitting my joker sets. On my second joker set I killed it with some difficulty. Next set I missed it but my thoughs werent negative. I was thinking holy s*** I did this weight for three reps oh man my strength is returning in force.

---I incorperated boring but big accessory lifts and it calls for 5 sets of 10 of a given excerise. I managed to do a solid 3x10 but i couldn't go pass that so i broke the last 20 reps to a 4x5. Again i didnt take it in a negative way but as a work in progress.

---my lifts have gotten alot better and im getting stronger. Not impatient for results anymore which is awesome cause wendler 531 is a bit slow.

This mentality is an awesome way of thinking and i should cultivate it.

Went to a social for yesterdays business club. I was alright i guess. I was mostly approached but i still met good people. This one girl sat next to me and she looked 75% alike to my ex. Another girl was commonly rated as very attractive approached and asked have we met before? I dont know how to go about it so it was general small talk. I could kick myself about it or learn how to talk to people. How do i talk to women or do i treat them the same as dudes?

The more my parents doubt me the more i want to prove them wrong. But the most common answer is How?

(02-09-2016, 04:27 PM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]The more my parents doubt me the more i want to prove them wrong. But the most common answer is How?

In my experience, the more Ive been true to myself and what I want in life the more Ive had to distance myself from my family. They can only see me through their own limited beliefs and ideas of what it means to live. Im outgrowing them. This is something that ive been dealing with too man

My advice is to follow your heart regardless of any doubters or naysayers, including your family.

(02-09-2016, 04:55 PM)bliss Wrote: [ -> ]

(02-09-2016, 04:27 PM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]The more my parents doubt me the more i want to prove them wrong. But the most common answer is How?

In my experience, the more Ive been true to myself and what I want in life the more Ive had to distance myself from my family. They can only see me through their own limited beliefs and ideas of what it means to live. Im outgrowing them. This is something that ive been dealing with too man

My advice is to follow your heart regardless of any doubters or naysayers, including your family.

Yeah definitely. They don't understand what I am going through but they do want me to do well. They drop "suggestions" on career path but they know I won't follow their path.

Day 11
1. Right now I am working in Federal Work Study for my college but It feels incredibly stagnate. I am essentially doing nothing productive so I am thinking of exiting this workplace but the feeling of being stagnant and then trying to work hard to leave is incredibly hard.

Dreams
I dreamed about going to a hood-ish place and I had to confront this specific person. As I arrived there I heard this person was belligerent, rude, etc. When I arrived, I towered over them and he shrunk into a smaller person. Conquering fears? I don't know.

I feel like a fire is in me. Its a drive to do things but i feel like i need ways to cultivate and allow it to grow. It almost feels like hidden potential. My mind is suggesting that I should cut out fapping. I guess I shall try that out.

Edit: just started using lithium oratate because of Voytek's recommendations. Supposedly it helps integrate the subs.

Dream
---I was accompanied with a female friend of mine in this school. I thought she was acting weird( Like "there's a glitch in this game and shes ragdolling around"). I asked her why she wasn't conforming and she said something( I dont remember what she said) and It opened my eyes and I perceived the world in a completely different way. I started seeing all the weirdness around me. Change in perspective?

In Real Life
Still feel awkward around girls. Like is there a method that I don't know about? Do I just stuff her in a bag and walk off? (LOL just kidding guys :angel I mostly just glancing at attractive women. This one girl was pretty but there was this hulk of an asian dude with a 2-3 foot upper lat spread was hitting on her.

I try not to be a wall flower in social situations but I feel like it's hard to go up and talk to people. There was this one panel with a startup and I had this question for this CEO and It has been boiling inside me for a good 1-2 minutes before I had the courage to ask.

I am starting to think my form of resistance is to subconsciously not to think about it at all. Which may explain why I feel like I'm breezing through the sub when in reality I (think) am being tossed all over the place.

Still feel jealous of all the guys I know that had massive success with women. It comes out but its subtle. It's like the mindless chatter the brain makes though out the day.

Found out my trickling stream volume wasn't high enough to have much effect and when I raised the volume i immediately got a sensation in my heart chakra.

I applied to different companies a few days ago and one responded back. Fear took over like an automatic response telling me to not respond. Next day, I responded and declared my interested to work in the company for the summer. Now she is inviting me over for a chat (Interview Probably).

One of the fustrations I have with myself is my resistance is fairly subtle. I rather be able to confront it out right and feel like utter crap because at least I know it is working and wearing it down.

Started tapping again.
Started on the topic of socializing. got some lame answers such as "dont want to get hurt, Its tiring, it hurts, etc". Tears running down from the massive yawns that come after.
Protip: tapping with the sub playing may help with the effectiveness.