It's very true on the validation seeking, it seems like a drug for them. They like to reject you for the pleasure to do it. Exactly like a kid saying no for the pleasure to disagree with you. I don't like those attitudes, it's so immature. I got angry with a friend due to that, he was always saying the opposites of what I was saying, at the end I didn't want to see him again.
You should see some good fear from other males around you, especially on stage 5. I saw guys treating me like a king on this stage, it was actually better than what I have currently with SM3 (stage 2). I'm waiting to see your results on stage 5.
@ Alpha360
I had a person in my life who I taught was a friend doing the same thing. Disagreeing just to be negative , i dont want to be around those people. I never quite grasped stage 5 , it's only my second run that would seem why.
Stage Day 24
Sadness just smacked me in the face. I feel sad perhaps because I know the thruth to many , many things ; and I can't do much about it. It's quite sad when you start tripping out on that red matrix pill. But I rather be here knowing what I know , then to ever turn around and hide from the truth. I activated my Facebook again , with the intent to add any women that I may like from pickup , if and when I do go out. I deleted many so called " friends".
Stage 4 Day 33
Feeling better , thanks to meditation and working more hours. Im working between 50 and 60 hours a week; anything less feels like I'm cheating on myself and feels like I'm lazy. I'm guessing it's the programming telling me that I need to work harder and harder in order to achieve my goals. On the women side of things seems like women are more attracted and some attractive women getting bitchy. My 2 cents is because they intuitively know that their P***y power is not enough to win me over and that I won't be manipulated. I now can conguently say what else do you have going for you besides your looks?
Stage 5 Day 7
This stage is no joke , it feels like people keep testing me to see what they can get away with. I had 2 freak outs today. I need to have a talk with one of my bosses to see if he has a f****** problem ; I brought up the issue if I see the same issue I'm going to freak. It seems women are nervous around me and can't think straight. I can't even go out without people staring or looking my way checking me out. I'm not used to this kind of attention as its not my style. Although I want to do SM , money and other issues are priority. I'm going to do EPHRA as well as MLS 5G. Even though I want to hook up with many women other duties I've been avoiding need to be taken care of.
Stage 5 Day 8
There seems to be automatic attraction towards me , I was grocery shopping today and I was getting massive signs of interest.
I got women approaching me now , I don't know how I feel about this. It's quite new to me , It must be universal law when you don't want something it or release wanting it , it comes to you ; and when you want it , it doesnt. In my head it finally clicked that I want money more then women, and now they all of sudden come into my life lol , the universe is a funny place. There's also one women , I'm interested in and her friend whom I've been seeing keeps saying she's has a boyfriend, she has a boyfriend. Im guessing insecurity , and that she intuitevely knows that her friend wants me and that she's Is c&&& blocking. Although the woman does have a boyfriend , why would that stop anyone. It's like saying he or she has a car , so?
Stage 6 Day 2
I left my long time job today after several years. It wasn't working for me anymore , as there was too much passivity from bosses and supervisors; along with too much pretentiousness. I ororginally had gotten talked too , I was on a rampage for calling people out ; and that was the oil in the water so to speak. I felt like the company I worked for was Dic*ing me around , so I had to let em know that Im not to be f***ed with. Either way I no longer work there , but I taught this was worth sharing , considering I was afraid of leaving this job. Although I got a part time job , tomorrow I have an interview for a full time job. Less pay maybe , but I didn't sell out and stayed with my principles ; along with overcoming the fear to leave something old for something new. Fingers crossed , because there's some fear lurking in the back of my consciousness.
Stage 6 Day 3
I got the New release of EPHRA 2.0 today , I'm going to be doing this after stage 6. I feel like after not having run EPHRA since my first run of AM and SM it's long due. I definitely feel some trauma, when you get exposed too to much truth and a new world ; you need to heal.
What stood out to me was this
HyperCompression Technology #1: This backport 6G technology allows the program to achieve word-per-minute rates that average about 650% of standard 5G, meaning each hour of listening is the equivalent of listening to about 6.5 hours of a standard 5G program.
Which seems pretty incredible , and from reading the new AOSI if I remember correctly it's even faster? 1 hour of AOSI equals 16 hours or 14 compared to 5G. I can only imagine what the NEW AM and magnets are going to be able to accomplish very cool.
I'm very excited to run the new EPHRA , finish and do about 6 to 8 hours of EPHRA per day along with a 3g sub.
In other news I got 2 jobs , for the very 1st time in my life. All I have to do now is be consistent and see where it leads. There's a bit of fear of failure but sooner or later you have to overcome it.
As far as women goes there's is a slight interest in women but nothing spectacular like if I don't have that women in my life I won't be fulfilled. None existent neediness as well as a since to accomplish new goals and tasks.
Stage 6 DAY 5
I'm sold on AOSI , have to try it out tonight for sure. It's just what I need after AM. I'm going to do it right now and prepare a meal , ahead of time.
AOSI UPDATE
I am 36 minutes into AOSI and I'm feeling tired. That feeling of being overworked and bloodshot eyes creeping in , time to hit the pantry. Feeling hungry, if I go out no drinking ; except water I can only imagine getting drunk and a hangover on this sub. Alcohol + AOSI maybe a bad mix I don't want to be a part of. Attack my fridge I will.
Interesting these reports. I used it 2 listens last night and I didn't get the hunger or the tiredness. In fact I come home from work at 2:30am and was way too wide awake that I come and updated my journal here. And today i'm not as tired as i'd expect for having had not much sleep.
Yer awesome Man and doing great !!
Stage 6 Day 2
I left my long time job today after several years. It wasn't working for me anymore , as there was too much passivity from bosses and supervisors; along with too much pretentiousness. I ororginally had gotten talked too , I was on a rampage for calling people out ; and that was the oil in the water so to speak. I felt like the company I worked for was Dic*ing me around , so I had to let em know that Im not to be f***ed with. Either way I no longer work there , but I taught this was worth sharing , considering I was afraid of leaving this job. Although I got a part time job , tomorrow I have an interview for a full time job. Less pay maybe , but I didn't sell out and stayed with my principles ; along with overcoming the fear to leave something old for something new. Fingers crossed , because there's some fear lurking in the back of my consciousness.
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(06-04-2016, 05:52 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Interesting these reports. I used it 2 listens last night and I didn't get the hunger or the tiredness. In fact I come home from work at 2:30am and was way too wide awake that I come and updated my journal here. And today i'm not as tired as i'd expect for having had not much sleep.
I guess it depends on the user , or the nutrition of the user. Could be placebo as well like that guy wrote that down , and because he wrote that now I feel compelled to do so. Idk , i know that I felt hungry the way was eating was like I didn't eat for days man. I haven't ate like that in a long time. I'm about to eat right now , could be the sub or just normal eating. I won't do AM tonight resume tomorrow night.
(06-04-2016, 07:19 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]Yer awesome Man and doing great !!
Stage 6 Day 2
I left my long time job today after several years. It wasn't working for me anymore , as there was too much passivity from bosses and supervisors; along with too much pretentiousness. I ororginally had gotten talked too , I was on a rampage for calling people out ; and that was the oil in the water so to speak. I felt like the company I worked for was Dic*ing me around , so I had to let em know that Im not to be f***ed with. Either way I no longer work there , but I taught this was worth sharing , considering I was afraid of leaving this job. Although I got a part time job , tomorrow I have an interview for a full time job. Less pay maybe , but I didn't sell out and stayed with my principles ; along with overcoming the fear to leave something old for something new. Fingers crossed , because there's some fear lurking in the back of my consciousness.
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Thanks for the support , forum brother.