Feeling a big surge of confidence lately, especially when it comes to women. Flirting with girls in my class, teasing girls at work. Today I was just thinking about this girl I haven't spoken to in a few months and then she messaged me while I was thinking that. Kind of weird but one of the first things she asked while catching up was if I had a girlfriend. I said no that I was free and had no drama in my life. She immediately started telling me that not all girls are drama. And I said show me one girl who isn't drama and she said "me".
I started teasing her more about it, it's a shame she lives at the other end of the country.
Still doing my alternating method of listening to subs. Made a plays list of ultrasonic and masked tracks and just loop the playlist all night.
When I wake up in the morning I'm considerably more tired than when listening to one format alone. I take that as a sign that it is working better.
I've been having some bad dreams of my ex these past 2 nights and I randomly saw her today for the first time in months. We didn't even speak at all but I got upset and my mood went from feeling good to absolutely horrible.
I'm good as long as she isn't around. No mention of her, no acknowledgement of her existence.
I hate how I revert back to a Foolish child whenever she is around. I gave her too much power in our relationship because I thought pleasing her was everything, and eventually she started to resent me for it. Oh well at least she's out of my life.
On another note, I haven't masturbated or watched porn in a while and my sex drive is pretty high right now. Random erections for the slightest things or almost no reason at all.
I'm very playful and teasing with girls at work these days and I feel like a couple of them are attracted to me. I'm trying to work my magic on all of them at the same time.
Wish me luck :p
Learn eft tapping, go to youtube and search for fasteft. Geodude also has an awesome tapping protocol that has helped me a LOT, you can pm him.
Basicly you think whatever is bothering you (GF), you aslo can look at a picture of her to help you out. and you tap to all the emotions associated to her, and you let go of those emotions.
(10-04-2015, 07:44 PM)ImFreeman Wrote: [ -> ]Learn eft tapping, go to youtube and search for fasteft. Geodude also has an awesome tapping protocol that has helped me a LOT, you can pm him.
Basicly you think whatever is bothering you (GF), you aslo can look at a picture of her to help you out. and you tap to all the emotions associated to her, and you let go of those emotions.
Hey thanks for the advice I'll look into this method of tapping, I've done other methods previously and then worked well enough but I'm not sure about tapping and running subs at the same time.
I dont miss my ex either but i sometimes have fantasies of shooting her in the mouth
Update,: halfway through stage 2
I'm getting irritated and want to either stop running the sub or skip to the next stage, but I know I shouldn't do either of those things. Also I'm still running the subs at night using my alternating method. I feel like it works better, I can't provide any measurable proof. But I feel more tired doing this method.
And it makes sense to me. In order to build muscle we have to do various exercises and "confuse" them in order to have the fastest and best growth without plateauing. So it makes sense to me that the same would apply to the mind. Alternate the stimulation to confuse our brain even more than it already is. I'm not saying that the brain is too confused to understand the subs. I'm just saying that I feel like this method gives our mind a little more work to do than if we were only listening to one format.
Other notes. I have been interacting with people more than I have ever interacted in my life. I'm not afraid of my age or my appearance. I'm relatively content with myself now. There are still a few issues but I can't even detect them right now, they feel insignificant. I feel very numb to my changes. I can't detect them. I'm just being instead of worrying about how I'm changing.
I've just set the sub to play, and forget about it..
I'm sure I'll have a much better update in a week or two...
I don't know if this a side effect of am6, but I'm getting tired of this forum. It feels like everything goes in a cycle.
-New person discovers subs/forum,
-makes a lot of redundant over excited threads and posts a lot of questions that can be answered by searching.
-Person posts a lot about changes experienced,
-attributes everything that happens in their life to the sub.
Then some either keep doing this or they start doubting the sub and leave forum. Or they become like me and get tired of the forum.
I check the forum a lot, but only to check Shannon's journal and the discussion of his journal. All the other journals seem repetitive. Now that I see how far off 6G truly is I might take a break for a few months from the forum and check back in a while to see the progress on 6G development.
Ok so I'm pretty sure I've ruined this run of am6. But I think I like where I'm at right now. I'm not happy with my life but I'm satisfied with the way I'm handling the situations I'm in.
I made it halfway through stage 3 then I had some issues with getting exposure. Deciding not to play it sometimes because I needed my full mental abilities for school the next day and then forgetting to play it on other days. I've gone about 2 weeks without playing it and then accidentally played stage 4 for 2 days.
I'm considering just leaving am6 now and take a break from subs
I've been evaluating my life and what I truly want. I believe that I've always been playing a role and acting a certain way because I thought it was what I had to do to get what I wanted. But now I know that I can't have what I wanted because it wasn't real, it was an ideal that I believed I could have.
I'm having some identity crisis. Doing things I never wanted to do, never thought I would ever do. I feel so cold and unattached from everything. Sometimes I pursue girls a little and as soon as I realize I'm making progress with them I pull away because I don't trust them and I'm secretly afraid to have feelings for someone because it gives them too much power over me and I lose control of myself.
Basically I'm just living my life. Doing what I want, when I want, but I'm just a little lonely. Although I'd probably feel even better if I was having sex once in a while, but the whole feelings thing is getting in the way.
Nsfm weakend my am effects so i stopped it
Ok so I gave up on AM6, yes I know I'm a horrible person and unbalanced and all that but I'm just way too impatient to do a 6 month sub again. At least not at this point in time.
I went back to running BIATBWS, I'm still on the first week and the trickling stream track is melting my brain. I had listened to the ultrasonic only for about 3 days and I felt ok. Then last night I decided to let the masked track play while I did some homework and watched some youtube vids. By the time i finished my homework my brain was throbbing. I could feel the exhaustion and blood pumping through my head. Even now as I type this I'm experiencing the throbbing in my head which is strange because I used to listen to the masked track through headphones and didn't experience this. I only feel this when I listen through a certain speaker. Even my laptop speakers don't bring me down like this.
Since this discovery I try to do all my listening through this speaker with the masked track.
As for results regarding the sub. I was already feeling really confident and cocky from running AM6. But now I just feel like a hungry animal when I see an attractive woman. The first day I ran the sub again I started getting messages from a girl who I thought went cold on me and she started asking me personal questions like if i had a girlfriend and she said she would be mad if i said yes. I feel like with a little more work things could go well with her but I dont want another relationship right now.
Another girl ive been flirting with casually has started becoming a little attached to me. She has a boyfriend but wants me to invite her when I do things and she wants to do things together with me.
And lastly my Ex started messaging me. I ignored her,Then she private called me,I ignored her, then she sent messages on Whatsapp, I ignored those, then she sent facebook messages, I ignored those then she sent messages to me from someone elses phone. I don't know what to say to her but I like this feeling of having options.
Theres also girl at work im interested in and I told her we should hang out sometime and she just gave me her number, but I dont have any progress with her yet. Theres one girl at school who Im interested in but I havent really tried to do anything yet, we sit next to each other and were in groups for a major assignment. Maybe ill try to meet her during the christmas break
Good job on some results from BIATBWS already!
But you should've finished AM6 first since you were already running it.
(11-17-2015, 11:50 PM)Superman Wrote: [ -> ]And lastly my Ex started messaging me. I ignored her,Then she private called me,I ignored her, then she sent messages on Whatsapp, I ignored those, then she sent facebook messages, I ignored those then she sent messages to me from someone else's phone.
Could be something important like an STD or pregnant? LOL
(11-18-2015, 09:08 AM)ArcticFox Wrote: [ -> ]Could be something important like an STD or pregnant? LOL
Lol I don't think it's either of those things. She's probably just crazy and getting jealous that I'm doing fine without her