Subliminal Talk

(05-30-2014, 12:43 PM)Fonzy3 Wrote: [ -> ]During the day with my earphones I can go up to 90% volume masked. At night ultrasonic through speakers at 80%.

If any of you own apple products... and listen to tracks from your iphone through the earphones they sell 90% of ocean waves isn't that loud during the day, compare it to working at a construction site where they use loud machinery like jackhammers throughout the day that can really give you hearing damage.

Thanks

Fonzy

Taken the same volume, the earphones are more dangerous to your ear compared to the jackhammers because they are in your ears.

I hope Shannon will make a statement in regards to that. I don't want to raise the sound volume just to have results (not proven yet) sacrificing my health on the long run (which cannot be recovered).

Pfff ......

I also read somewhere that low volumes of ultrasonic are better for resistant types in regards to the TUW's.

No one's saying you have to listen to subs at a loud volume to get results. Just listen to it according to the instructions. For myself i've been listening to these two specific subs for 3 months now, and when I have my headphones on listening to masked tracks at a high volume I notice the subliminals more. It's all about the effort you put into the goal you are trying to achieve.

You could try to listen to subs louder then usual and see how you react to them and experiment.

I wouldn't listen to subs as loud as possible to get the effects that's just foolish.

Comparing a jackhammer at a construction site to varying levels of volume of ocean waves in your ear is illogical.

I've been using subs for over a year now. I had a medical most recently which included a hearing test for my career path and I passed with flying colors.

I do agree though that precautions should be taken for a users hearing to stay healthy over the decades. Regular visits to the doctor should be sufficient.

Thanks

Fonzy

Oh Wow, I didn't expect to see so many posts just after one day! Thanks everyone for the contribution. (or questions for Shannon)

Anyway, here's my second post.

Day 2, amount of listening approximately 9.5 hours (7 hours during the sleep, and the rest spread out during the day.)

Well, I remember coming back and reading Shannon's suggestion about the volume. Thus, I tried to raise the volume just a bit for my sleep. Sadly, that bothered me too much that I had to go back to the barely audible range. I suppose what Shannon's trying to say was to put the volume as high as possible that is comfortable to listen to. You may correct me if my assumption is wrong.

I only got 7 hours of sleep, because I forgot that I made an appointment for a haircut today; it was my phone's reminder that woke me up. Luckily I was able to wake up in time to make it for the appointment. What I noticed today was that I was more tired to wake up than when I didn't use the sub. (Well, I gotta admit, I have difficulty waking up in the morning, and I need quite a lot of time to get myself ready. Given that I used the sub and was more tired, I give myself credit for waking up in time and making it to the appointment, considering that my alarm wasn't even set up properly. Perhaps, my next sub will be sleep aid sets.) Yet, the fatigue from the sub wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. What I also noticed during the day was that once I took shower, and started to get active, my fatigue was gone. However, I'm now quite tired, and I usually don't get tired at this time, even during the week, when I had 4 hours of sleep on average due to school works. It's only been 2 days so far, so I will need to see more about the fatigue.

The next thing I noticed was about dream. I don't normally have a dream, which I think I mentioned in my previous post, but I had one, although I can't recall very clear picture. (which is very typical of me) However, what I remember though is that a super glamorous girl, quite busty, at least D or DD cup, yet slim, was riding me. I can't recall what her hair color was, maybe brunette, or blonde, but I do remember that she was either latina or white. (I can't quite recall if she had a pale skin or tanned one, but I am leaning towards that the girl had tanned skin. I could be wrong though) I do also remember that this dream was quite short. What was different from the image I had last time was that I had this dream just before waking up. Oh well, I might have longer version if it wasn't for the reminder. Unfortunately, I don't seem to have any memory on the girl's face. I wonder if I am not supposed to see the girl's face yet.

What was also interesting about this dream was that it was different from my ideas about desirable girl/lover. As far as the physical characteristics go, I had an idea that my ideal girl would have B or C, not DD, although I like DD as well. And my images of the girl in my conscious mind had a bit lighter skin color. Perhaps, my subconscious has different idea about my perfect lover than the ideas in my conscious mind. Maybe what the sub was trying to do was to clarify the image about the perfect girl? Who knows what the dream meant. :angel: But I'm pretty sure that the dream was caused by the sub since the dream was quite sexual in nature. Whatever the differences in the subconscious from the conscious mind might be, I would be happy as long as I manifest the perfect lover.

Third thing I noticed was change in my thoughts/attitude and behavior. I'm an introvert, and I like to stay inside my apartment, doing school work, some research, reading things online, watching movies, and etc... (Luckily though, I am quite slim, even when I'm lazy about going outside.)
So what would have been my normal routine would have been that I would come back to my apartment, get lunch, and stay there, doing whatever I would do. Yet, this wasn't the case. I had to get my bike's tire inflated, and there is a good bike shop 20 mins from my place on walk. My mind was fighting, as I could get the bike pump that is about the same price on Amazon. My mind was telling me that I don't need to get the pump today as the forecast was telling that there is going to be a storm tomorrow, so just get the pump from Amazon. Yet, there was another side of my mind, which was telling me that the day was nice outside, - the weather was great - and I didn't have many things to do other than a bit of homework and some readings. It was also telling me that I needed to ask some questions about my bike, and I could grab bubble teas on the way. And you know what, my second half of the mind won, so I came home, got lunch, got changed, and left to get to the bike shop. And of course, I stopped by at the tea place. This would have normally be a case that the first part of my mind would have obliterated the second half.

There was another battle going on in my mind after I came back from the bike shop, and I put some air in the tire. The battle was similar that my mind was fighting about whether to have dinner inside as there was food or go outside. It was an easy win for the second half, using similar logic of nice day and having storm coming for a few days, which will prevent me from going anywhere, since I don't have a car. However, what was more interesting was in the next battle. So the next battle in my mind was the place to eat. I quickly came to two choices. One was Buffalo Wild Wings, and the other one was a local kebab restaurant. One side of my mind was telling me that I should go to BWW as BWW is better suited to mingle with new people, who are around my age. (Although the kebab place has many students coming in, except that the set up makes it more difficult to interact with new students when compared to BWW.) The other argument for BWW was that I had a $5 off coupon from the survey I completed. The other side of the argument was that it was telling me that the BWW is not that healthy compared to the kebab place, in which I can get more vegetables, making my diet more balanced. The mind was telling me that I need to be building my shape and become healthier for my future perfect lover. It also told me that the time is still there, and I could just use the coupon and get to BWW after my class, which I may decide to invite someone, and that it made an argument that it would work out better. Since the second one made more sense, I took that one and go. All of these were somewhat absent when I was lazy, or before using the sub, and I would not make this much of active argument for my choices in my mind. Yet, it did, and it was making me to always push for some better alternatives, made me go out more, and got me to prepare and make myself better for the future lover. Pretty impressive.

The third thing about change in my mind is in the planning. I bought tons of books for reading during the summer, and I also have GRE prep to do. I originally thought that I would do most of these at my home. Now, my mind is thinking about what would be the best place that is quiet for me to do these things. What is quite shocking is that I have experienced that doing these outside of my place makes it more challenging for me to get any of them done; as I mentioned I am super sensitive and that combined with ADD, makes it nearly impossible to get anything done, if I am at a coffee shop (the music, constant people moving in and out), or at a library, though library has a potential to be better. What is funny is that now I am actively seeking that there's got to be a public place where I can get all of them done efficiently, while helping me meet new people. The mind has lately telling me that I can do all of these efficiently. Which is quite remarkable, as my mind has always been quite opposite, when it comes to this matter, due to my terrible failures in the public places before. I will have to see how this will play out though.

And the very last thing I noticed from using the sub other than the dream and change inside of me, is the change in people's behavior. The first one occurred when I was going to get the bike pump. I was walking there and a guy was coming from the opposite direction. This guy looked me like he's never seen a man like me in the past before. He literally turned his head, while his facial expression was like "OMG, where did this awesome (or handsome) guy come from?" I don't know maybe he had fallen for me at the first sight? This was the feeling I got when I was passing by. Perhaps, I am delusional about this, but I've never had a look from a guy like that before. I don't know if this is sub's doing, and if it is the sub, that'd be weird, as I'm heterosexual. Or maybe, my haircut was just damn great. LOL

The second one was when I was coming back from a drugstore, which I stopped by after I finished my dinner. (I actually passed by my house to get the stuff from the store, which again my mind told me to stay outside more and grab the stuff from the store, even though it literally was on the opposite direction from the restaurant and my house was clearly on a way there.) So when I was coming back from the store, I encountered a girl on a ride hailing at me. Then shortly later, a second one came by and hailed at me. Well, I've been hailed by guys on a ride in the past, but not girls. I wonder if the sub also causes people to react differently.

And generally, I notice that people were making longer eye contact with me, or they would look at me longer, by 1~2 seconds longer. This was more true if the person was a woman, whose look would be 7+/10. Perhaps this is again the sub's changing people's behavior around me, or it could be like what Shannon wrote, affecting my awareness.

Day two only, and I'm already starting to see the changes. I didn't expect to see the changes (although they may not be that big) happening this fast. I'm excited to see what more I will see from this sub.
At the same time I hope that the changes would not cost my academics or my academic plan. (Due to fatigue, or my mind telling me to do different things. But I have to say my worries are lessened as I see that what my mind is ultimately doing is telling me to make myself better for the perfect lover, which in my opinion also includes my excellent academic standing as well as other things.)

Again thank you guys for posting on my journal, and those of you who read this long post, I thank and congratulate you.

@sw72hw

i like to ask you to bold important parts if you are writing a long post.this way others can read it instead of just closing the page.

good luck

(05-30-2014, 11:53 PM)MJ1 Wrote: [ -> ]@sw72hw

i like to ask you to bold important parts if you are writing a long post.this way others can read it instead of just closing the page.

good luck

Sure, I did bold some things. I had time to revisit to modify the post, but I can't say that I will be able to bold things every time I get to write a long post as I need to revisit and re-read, which requires time, which sometimes I lack due to my academics.

Well, I suppose I can bold when I write first time, but given my style of writing, recollection of differences I notice in the day from using the sub, it may be a bit challenging to separate between significant from non significant ones, when I first write. Still I may attempt to do it.

I'll do what I can to make things easier to read. Anyway, I appreciate your suggestion.

Wow, that's great progress man. Your journal is tempting me to buy the program Btw, could you elaborate what "hailed at" means?

(05-31-2014, 08:23 AM)sw72hw Wrote: [ -> ]

(05-30-2014, 11:53 PM)MJ1 Wrote: [ -> ]@sw72hw

i like to ask you to bold important parts if you are writing a long post.this way others can read it instead of just closing the page.

good luck

Sure, I did bold some things. I had time to revisit to modify the post, but I can't say that I will be able to bold things every time I get to write a long post as I need to revisit and re-read, which requires time, which sometimes I lack due to my academics.

Well, I suppose I can bold when I write first time, but given my style of writing, recollection of differences I notice in the day from using the sub, it may be a bit challenging to separate between significant from non significant ones, when I first write. Still I may attempt to do it.

I'll do what I can to make things easier to read. Anyway, I appreciate your suggestion.

i usually don't say that.but i think your posts are one of the longest in this forum.it's okay that's your style.

your post reminds me when i was running FYPJ (Find Your Perfect Job) most of my dreams were work related.

Good Luck

@risingwarrior

That's a good question. Since English is my second language, I was trying to find the best word to describe things. I didn't like "hail" as the word of choice, but I could't think at the time. Let me try to make a better description, thought I'm not sure if I will be. Anyway, I would say, the girls were acting similar to guys whistling at hot women when they pass by. Though they were not exactly "whistling" at me, but was more like calling me loudly. I wonder what the term for this action is. Anyway, that's the best description I can give at the moment. Hopefully it makes better sense to you.

@MJ1
Yeah, I suppose my post may be the longest one to be found in the forum, and I appreciate your suggestion to bold some important things. It will also be helpful for me when I come back to read.

Anyway, this was what my day 3 of the journey was like.

Day 3, amount of listening: approximately 13.5 hours (8 hours sleeping & listening to the sub)

Today was quite different from yesterday. First, I don't remember having any dream from my sleep. Second, I was super lazy today, and this was perhaps due to the weather -it was stormy. I stayed indoors most of the time, watching stuff, which are all related to my major though. And I didn't get the school work done as I planned.... Luckily, I still have quite a bit of time.

The fatigue was there, and in fact, and I was drowsy all day. I fell a sleep during the day although I didn't want to. I ended having about 1.5 hours to 2 hours of nap. I had a dream at that time, and again it was sexual: I was out doing a grocery shopping with a girl this time, and I ended up having sex her in doggy position at a counter. (Well, there were only two of us in the store for some reason.) This time, the girl was blonde, wearing a jean jacket, and a white one piece underneath. Sadly, I didn't see the girl's face. I don't also recall her body figure, nor her skin tone. And the funny thing was that I forgot to have my sub on during the nap. Which makes me wonder if this was still caused by the sub.

I also had another dream during the nap, and it was about my mentor. It's probably not related to the sub, but I'm going to share it here, and see what you guys think about it. In the dream, my mentor and his daughter -approximately 4 years old- visited my apartment. I remember asking him how his wife was doing or where she was, and he said "didn't I tell you that we got separated?" or something like "didn't I tell you that she left me?" I don't know why or where on earth this dream came from but this was another dream I had. I highly doubt that the sub had anything to do with this, but who knows, maybe the sub is telling me that the type of relationship he has may not be a good one. Or it may be a forecast of the future. Who knows. :angel:

Anyway, that's it for day 3, and I will come back and report.

Day 4, amount of listening: approximately 12.5 hours (9.5 hours sleep and listening during the sleep)

Again, nothing too special today, except there are two notable things.

The first is with fatigue/drowsiness. I felt tired when I woke up, but as I had 9.5 hours of sleep, the fatigue was gone after I took my shower. And it pretty much stayed that way.

The second was with my dream. It wasn't sexual at all. The dream I had, and it again appeared near the end of the sleep. In the dream, I was at a matchmaker's office, and the matchmaker was going through the profiles of girls to find me the best match. It didn't take her long to find the best match for me. She then called the girl to the office, and the funny thing was that she pretty much appeared instantaneously. The girl was different from other girls I had in the dream. Unlike other girls, who had long straight hair, this girl had short and slightly curly hair. She was a brunette, and a slightly tanned skin. She seemed white, and she was a cute one, not a glamorous one in my day 1 dream. I remember that she had a nice smile. The funny thing though is that I saw her face, but I don't seem to recall what her face was like at this moment. LOL. Well, I do remember that she was a cutie, not a hottie. We went out and walked, had a little talk, which I unfortunately don't recall what it was about. She wore a white elegant blouse, and a beige pants. She wore a flat, and since she was a small one, she was a bit shorter than me. (I'm a pretty small guy, just for your information.) At the end of the walk, she gave me a hug, and a peck on my right cheek, and told me "it was great seeing you. I'll see you around." She smiled and left, and that was the end of the dream. God, I remember that she had a great smile. But the catch is that I don't exactly recall what her face was like LOL

It's interesting that the dream I had today was a nonsexual one but rather a relational or a romantic one. I wonder if the sub is working properly..... Or perhaps, my perfect sexual lover is also romantic? :angel: Who knows? Well, I'll see how things will be different once the storm is gone.... Oh yeah, the storm is going to continue till tomorrow, and that I stayed indoor, finishing two readings for my class. Still have one more and one writing to go. Hopefully the weather gets nice, so that I will have a chance to go out and figure a better place to do study than my apartment.

Day 5, amount of listening to sub: approximately 12 hours (10 hours of sleep + sub listening)

I'm still having problem with too much sleep and fatigue felt at the moment of waking up. It's getting better, but still, it's problematic.

There's nothing interesting to report here, as I pretty much stayed indoors again, doing some housework such as laundry, and emptying garbage. (I didn't even have a dream, or I don't remember having one.) I also finished school work for next class, and the good thing is that I still manage my school work as my number 1 priority. It's a good thing. Unfortunately, I haven't yet been able to start on GRE. I should find a way to cut some sleep so that I will be able to free up some time.

Oh just one thing to note: as the day got better, I decided to go to a restaurant nearby for dinner. I was the only one, and an old female server was more chatty than usual.

I'll have class tomorrow, and maybe I will see some more difference.

Day 6, amount of listening to the sub: approximately 10 hours. (10 hours during the sleep)

Last night, I decided to up the volume a bit. Unfortunately, this made it difficult to sleep, which made that I only had 7 hours of sleep, and then about 30 hours of nap before going to the class. (I couldn't sleep for the 2 hours, while I was listening to the sub, and I listened to about 1 hour for the sub.)

Again, I didn't have any dream, or I don't seem to remember having one. Yet, I experienced a few fun things today.

The first was seeing the way how a few girls acted towards me. In the class, there is a girl that sits me next next to me - there is a guy who is sitting in between us. When I was making a small talk with this guy the girl interrupted, asked me a question. I was talking to a professor about some stuff, and this girl again took her chance and made a comment, which I responded and made a few comments about. She smiled quite a bit as well. At the end, the girl stayed behind to ask the professor for a few things regarding with a take home exam, and I was also there to ask him a question or two. Just before I was about to leave the class, I noticed that the girl had quite a bit of handouts that I made a comment "are you taking another summer class?" She replied that she doesn't take one, but that she just carries around lots of stuff with her. And she added more that she carries around books with her so that she doesn't damage them. She also mentioned that it was quite dumb to do it. (She actually mentioned the word dumb twice.) I also noticed that the girl also said that the question she asked the professor was dumb. I told her that I noticed she said dumb quite a bit. She smiled and made a small laugh out of it, even though I wasn't really trying to be that funny, but though playful. The way she acted was that she was a bit nervous, in front of me, perhaps trying to show some value there. Well, maybe I should have also told her that saying what she's doing dumb all the time, isn't a good practice. Yet, I didn't do it, and maybe it will take a practice for me to do it in the future since I am quite an introvert.

The next girl was a bartender at a Buffalo Wild Wings. At the end of the class, I came home, left my stuff and went to the restaurant, taking a sit at the bar. I made my order of beer, and some other food, as I was hungry. After a while the appetizer came out and the girl came to ask me how it was. I told her that it was great that this is the best way to end my long day. She made a small laugh, gave me a smile, and then went to make other drink order. The thing was that though, I wasn't trying to be funny at this time either. When I was done with my food, and I was about to leave, the girl brought my take out order (I asked the girl to put in the kitchen to keep it warm,) which the girl wanted me to remind her before I leave. I told her that it was good that she remembered and she replied that she was impressed as well. I gave her my $5 off from the survey I did and gave my card for her to swipe. She came back and said that I get another survey (you can get one for every 7 days) and pointed to her name at the receipt saying that I should give her a good rating, as she gets a point. The thing is that you don't need to enter in the server/bartender's name to do the survey. Maybe she didn't know, or maybe she wanted me to remember her name.

Well, the girls I interacted today were more receptive and responsive to me than usual, but it wasn't super extraordinary that I have gotten similar type of response in the past.

The second was with all the sex that happened around me today. In the morning, I heard my neighbor above having a crazy rough sex (also very loud) to a point that a dust was falling from my ceiling. The second one was during my way back home from the school: I saw a couple having car sex. For those of you who are interested in the detail, I was walking by and heard a woman's moan from orgasm, and I saw that the guy was giving her an oral. I stood there frozen as I've never seen a car sex with window down in public. Then I realized that perhaps I should give them a little privacy and save myself from being found in the moment by the couple. The last thing I saw was the guy entering her. And the last sex I encountered, which is happening now, is that the neighbor living next to me, is having a crazy loud sex.... which is making me super horny now.... LOL.... WTF?!??!? Why so much sex around me today? (While I have none....) All of these make me impatient in waiting for my perfect sexual lover. Yeah, once I have her, I'm going to give back all that my neighbors have given me, making them jealous and at the same time horny as well. LOL

The last thing I noticed today was with my change in attitude and action. Normally I don't talk much with people in the class, unless they initiate, or unless it is the professor. However, I initiated the talk today. (With the girl, and with a guy sitting next to me.) Second, I don't sit at a bar table, even if I go alone. I've never done that before. However, I decided to do it, as I found that bar table is usually better to socialize with people, if I go alone. Unfortunately, that really wasn't the case today. (There were close to no one sitting at the bar, although there were many people at the restaurant.)

Yet, I still notice that I have more to improve on. Firstly, as I mentioned above, I could have mentioned to the girl that talking everything she does as something dumb, isn't productive. I didn't do it. Second, I thought about initiating a talk with the bar girl asking about too much sex happening to me around, and maybe tease about people in this state and etc. However, I didn't do that. Maybe it's better I didn't, but I didn't take the chance to talk more. Perhaps, this is my introvert nature being still there.

Anyway, there were a few things to be observed and reported today. And I'm beginning to wonder now, if I meet this perfect lover, I wonder how I will be able to tell she's the perfect one.

I gotta admit, things got messed up a bit during my take home exam. The exam proved to be quite challenging, and required a lot more time. During the time of take home exam, I got distracted, and I only wrote the exam at nights. This resulted in my day and night change, and it messed me up. I also didn't use the sub during the three days as I found that I needed to absolutely devote my mind for the exam, and I knew that I couldn't take the sub and the devotion to the exam at the same time. Well for me the exam was more important, so I didn't use the sub for three days. Was it a bad decision? I don't know.

And I also forgot to use the sub for two days in a row, so total of five days, I didn't use the sub.... Well, what's done is what's done, and now things are starting to get back in line, and I started using the sub three days ago. Sadly, for two days, I didn't have enough exposure (6 hours only), but it's still better than nothing.

When I didn't use the sub, there wasn't really anything going on, but there are a few stuff that I still observed.

The first thing is the experience of little of almost no fatigue from listening to the sub. I no longer feel drowsy after listening to 8+ hours of sub. I guess I've gotten used to listening to the sub.

The second thing I noticed is that I'm less irritated by the ultrasonic sub. That it doesn't bother as much.

The third thing is with the volume of the sub. I found two interesting thing about the volume of the sub, with the ultrasonic one. I found that even at high volume, I find that there is a cap on the volume level with ultrasonic. Or rather, it does not go up as much with the masked one does. After certain point, I found that if I double the volume level on the speaker and test with masked sub, I hear it pretty loudly, but with ultrasonic, I don't hear the increase as much. Certainly, it's there, I can sense it, but only about half.
Another thing I found with ultrasonic sub is with a blindfold/earplug. As I mentioned earlier, I am pretty sensitive that many things prevent me from going to sleep. Eye mask is one of them. I found that so far the one from Brookstone is the only one that I find comfortable enough to go with. One time I had to sleep during a day due to my writing exam extensively during the night that I decided to use the eye mask. The design is that it wraps around the ear as well, so that it blocks some sound too. I tested, and found that it doesn't block much of the masked sub, but for some reason, I couldn't hear the ultrasonic sub as much, or about 95%+ of the volume is blocked. I wonder if the eye mask absorbs the ultrasonic that it's making it useless, or it just makes me insensible, while still allowing the sub to work.... But I suppose it would be safe to not to use it, unless I have to.

The fourth is something I notice with the super hot girl I saw in my class, which I mentioned in either 1st or 2nd post. One thing I noticed is that this girl dresses quite well, and every class, she put on sexier clothes. So in the beginning, she wore barely revealing clothes, but as the class progressed she started wearing clothes that shows more of her cleavage. The last class, which was yesterday, she didn't wear a clothes that showed any of the cleavage, but wore something that revealed much of her sexy back, and also wore a leggings which revealed her sexy legs. I wonder if this is due to the sub. Also, I noticed that this girl usually speaks out her opinion in the class, after I have given mine. Which I also find it quite interesting. One thing I do know is that this girl is or was in a relation, which she seemed happy about. If she turns out to be my perfect one.... well I don't know what will be the case then.

The last thing I notice is with my mind. Last few days, I found that my mind has been imagining the super hot girl in the class. It's not necessarily about sex, but it has been imagining. I am not forcing my mind to do it, but it's doing it. I wonder if this is a conscious manifestation, which I remember reading in the forum as dangerous, or if this is a manifestation coming from my subconscious mind, which is affecting my conscious mind. Whatever it is, I will want to know as if I will need to consciously do something to stop think about the girl or imagine her. Since I don't know, I have thought about other girls or imagined whenever I got image of her, so that I am not in a trap of actively manifesting a specific girl. Whether this is due to my subconscious or my involuntary active manifestation in conscious level, I feel that I now need a better way to control my mind.

Okay, I noticed another thing with the unmasked sub. When I play it at high volume, (using the calibration method to change the volume) I started to hear a few static sound. At a lower volume, I didn't hear this, but I heard this when I put it at quite high volume. Therefore, I decided to try streaming one during my sleep. At a lower volume, to a point that I can barely hear the sub, it didn't bother my sleeping, so I may use the streaming from now on.

For the last two days, I had two dreams. The first dream was funny, it had some sexual, and some non sexual aspect as well. In the dream, I was in a family of drug dealers and I was the third son. (I'm an only child in real life BTW.) I met a girl in the, and we fell for each other pretty quick. (She was white brunette.)

The same night in the dream, I got things messed up, as someone put up a spy camera in my room, and had a spyware that was set up in the computer that almost resulted in my entire family getting busted by the cop. My eldest brother found this out, and was about to kill me for putting the business and family in jeopardy. The funny thing was that my second brother had enough of it, and he decided to kill the first brother. He did, and used the eldest brother as a bait for the police to catch. We then took off to some other location.

After we moved, the family wanted me to study in a college, getting an advanced degree, not really being involved in the drug business. They got me a two bed apartment, and the girl wanted to move in. My family and her family both got together and agreed that it was a good idea. The girl looked nervous as she was moving in, so I went to her and said "don't worry, I'm not going to rape you or hurt you. I'm not a weird pervert" And she replied rather shyly, "I wouldn't mind being raped by you." The dream ended there.

The second dream was a little different. The same girl was involved, and all of us were taking a group tour with several different friends. (A few friends from my high school time in Canada were there too.) The girl and I sat separately for some reason. After a bunch of tour programs, I was about to find this girl, but I couldn't. But instead, an Asian girl, and her mom sat across me and started talking. The mom was talking to me as though we were fiancees, telling me how much she's in love with me and etc..... I told her that the next program starts very soon that we'll need to talk later, but the woman said that she has much power and influence that she can postpone the program. Then we were talking about skiing, and different sorts of mountains (it was pretty random), and the woman was telling how we should all go and enjoy the vacation. Then the topic moved to talk about my parents, and I told them that entire family getting together may be a bit challenging, as my parents don't know how to ski. (BTW, this is no longer drug family, and it was about my actual family.) Then this woman turned and talk to me that she was surprised to see that I have so much sex drive and interest in sex, as my parents are totally opposite.(They actually do, to a point that they seem to despise the act itself.) Yeah, but how the hell would she have known?

During the entire talk, this Asian girl was staring at me with a bit of blush in her face. The girl was super shy, and rather wanted her mom to stop talking too much, and especially about the sex part. And also, at the very end of this dream, the girl from restaurant in the previous dream came and found me and found that I was talking to the mom and this Asian girl. So does this mean it would have been a love triangle? And does this project the future? I don't know if I can handle that, as I have no experience in dating nor sex.

Another thing I noticed from the dream is that these girls were attractive, but not "that" attractive. Usually this wasn't the case. Perhaps, my subconscious is telling me to lower my standards, or my perfect lover's attractive, but not super attractive?

Other than the dream, I also noticed an interesting behavior on woman. Yesterday, I went to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the World Cup match, as I don't have ESPN at my place. I sat at the bar, and then this woman joined her group, and she just happened to sit right next to me. (Well, it really wasn't her choice, as that was the only spot for her to be with her group.) I noticed that for a few times, she would whisper to the woman sitting next to her, and they would both giggle.

I also noticed this behavior in my class too. The super hot girl in my class would whisper to the girl sitting next to her, and they would both giggle. This happened several times, and this usually happened after I say something in the class.

In fact, I noticed this behavior in the past quite often when I was a teenager. The girls would walk by and would start to giggle. In the past, I would have taken it similar to be insulted, thinking that do I look funny to you? But now my mind has changed. I now start to think that girls do this around me because they find me attractive, and they can't help but to giggle to ease the tension. Perhaps, this could be a terrible mistake in the thought, but I find that it boosts my confidence. (Is a boost in confidence from a mistaken thought a good thing or a bad thing?) Since I began noticing this behavior after using the sub, and since I started think this way, I would say this may be a change caused by the sub.

I had the laughter thing too.

I once opened a girl at the gym. She was really cute, and I asked her what was in her water bottle. She didn't know, said she was filling it up for her friend, and that I should ask her friend. I kept chatting with her for a while then left, never intending to wait for the "friend".

Anyhow, as I was sitting on a bench doing my arm curls, her and her even-hotter friend came over. The hot friend grabbed a weight, stuck her but in my direction (like 3 feet away from my face) and started lifting.

I stared at her ass for a second, looked in the mirror, cocked my eye-brow at myself, and kept lifting my weights.

The hot girl went back to the other, they whispered a bit, giggled, and left.

The hot girl was there a few other times too and she seemed to follow me around sometimes.