Subliminal Talk

Recent days I've been really annoyed by everything. Not sure if it was partly because of the subliminal.. but it would be a first because I haven't felt this much annoyed since I began this subliminal.
I also became depressed for a while and really believed my life was meaningless.

My brains couldn't stop thinking at night and I couldn't sleep.

It's funny. 3 Days ago I was feeling great about myself & life. Then suddenly it turns 180 degrees.

(Another thing was, when I had experienced being so HIGH on people it was really hard to go back to societies rules and demands.)

I made a 9 min. video about the recent events and how it turned out. Including a great tool!

http://youtu.be/SOuxJu7-2Hk

Please hit me back with comments of how you experienced the video!

- JL

Along the road of life I often forget concepts, ideas and principles. One of the things I forgot was "what does my existence mean and what is really important?" and this poem is RIGHT ON to make me remember again:

"Why do you paint?
For exactly the same reason I breathe.
That’s not an answer.
There isn’t any answer.
How long hasn’t there been any answer?
As long as I can remember.
And how long have you written?
As long as I can remember.
I mean poetry.
So do I."

- e.e. cummings

I stumbled on e.e. cummings again recently when listening to Radical Honesty by Brad Blanton.

Genius. That's the word for the book but I recommend reading/listen to it yourself.

Hey Lionmonkey...
I have been following some of your posts and watched 2 of your videos. In your first post you mentioned:
I want to give a short summary of my story on the subliminal train. It looks like this;

1. Absolute Self Confidence 3G/4G ~ 1 month
2. Aura of Sexiness 3G/4Ga ~ 1 month
3. Alpha Male 2011 ~ 6 months
4. Sex Magnet 2011 ~ 6 months
5. Alpha Male Refresher (Stage 6) ~ 1 month
6. Woman Magnet 2.0 ~ 6 month
7. Alpha Male 5.0 ~ NOW


Are you trying to say that You Already FINISHED these 7 Subliminals and doing something more now???
OR
Are you representing each Subliminal as a stage so 7 subliminal = 7 stages??
It was a little confusing for me to understand because your Thread is TITLED "LionMonkey is Alpha Male 5.0", which makes me think that you have already finished these 7 subliminals.

But then looking at your progress, I believe that happens to any normal guy who wouldnt have done the subliminals too. I mean its not extraordinary to me. Its not like you are scoring with a 10/10 European model and the next day you are with a hot 10/10 latina. I mean I would expect something like that from an Alpha Male.
I dont know whats your history or where you started of with so I dont have a point of comparison here.

I am new to this and my point for doing these subs is to get land my dream medical residency and be a billionaire if not a multimillionaire. But i wanted your input on it. How it has been for you so far?

I have started ASC since the last 3 days but nothing yet.

Hey dojci

Lucky you just caught me before I'm heading to the gym.

I've done all the subliminal I wrote.

The thing is that I used to be very inconsistent with the women area. Also I've been a mess about it and letting comfort take over me often (and doubts).
It was not until the beginning of this year that I let most of my old bad habits go and do things to make myself the best person I can be.
And even then I still do not want it BADLY enough but I've definitely become more attractive and assertive.

It's something one has to remind oneself every day. To spend time and attention on it.

The subliminal effects are different for every person and it is highly depended too on real life experiences for maximum growth.

I can sum up everything I know right now with the last poem I wrote:

Quote:Why do you paint?
For exactly the same reason I breathe.
That’s not an answer.
There isn’t any answer.
How long hasn’t there been any answer?
As long as I can remember.
And how long have you written?
As long as I can remember.
I mean poetry.
So do I.

- e.e. cummings

and "Lose your mind and come to your senses."
- Fritz Perls

Hope that cleared things up

- JL

Did some daygame today,
Back to daygame

Please let me know how you experienced the video!

Hope you enjoyed it.

- JL

One of the biggest mistake I've made and I think most people make after starting to meet women proactively is:

Being afraid of wanting what you really want.

When I started out, everything was new, everything was exciting or very destroying.
I got destroyed several times and I lost track of what it was I really wanted.

Sure I was putting myself out there. Sure I did my approaches. Sure I tried concepts and ideas out.

But I didn't have the end-goal ind mind. I was more concerned with having a good interaction or self-amuse rather than doing what it takes to have sex with the girl.

It has led to many fun interactions and situations but not so much intimacy as I wanted, at all.

(Obviously there have been girls, cute and beautiful girls, that would proactively meet me. Though to me it is not something I can be proud of, since I wasn't the chooser. Even then, many of these situations I wasn't able to lead the interaction/situation to sex)

I would rationalize with something like: Yeah, I had a fun night. The girls liked me and these other girls wanted me.. and damn that was fun.. bla..bla...bla....

Nothing wrong with it.. but it's not serious.

So why have I been not serious with girls at all?

As I wrote in the beginning: "Being afraid of what you really want". It goes back to being destroyed so many times that I had to put a cover on so I could rationalize that it wasn't because of me.

I would not go the whole way because besides the fact that I want to fuck the girl, I also wanted to not put myself in situations where the possibility of me getting rejected in a way where you know.. you just feel this knife stab in your heart, was an option.

Yesterday night when I was out with some buddies I felt that for the first time in quite a while:

Feeling very horny I suddenly saw this stunning blonde, great body & angel face standing in the narrow hallway outside the female toilet.

Immediately I walk close to her and put my hand forward "Hi...". Intense, intimate eye-contact. No words.

She bites her lip.

And then.. I begin to speak and the magic is disturbed.

I go in to kiss but she denies and the magic is gone.

Half hour to one hour later, I saw her sitting with her hot friend.

Since I know what I want, I didn't give it a twice thought and went over to them.

The blonde immediately didn't welcome my presence, her friend felt it but was open.

I was not feeling good in that moment and I stood there and didn't really say much at all. It was uncomfortable. My thoughts had changed, from being intimate to just chill and talk really. So that's what I said, "I just wanna talk".

Sat beside the blonde and extended my hand, I'm "James".

She grabbed her friend and wanted to leave but her friend didn't wanted to. She tried again like, I really wanna get away.

So they both stood up and walked to the sofa-bench just 5 meters to my left and sat down there instead.

Ouch.

I sat there for 5 minutes by myself, letting it sink in and then I was thinking, jesus James.. it's nothing personal.. it's ridicules.. it's fun..

My wound was healed. I felt fine.

I re-approached them 10 minutes later and they were both smiling.

My thoughts hadn't changed though so I still said, "I just wanna talk" and they were like, "But we don't wanna talk".

I immediately thought of a funny comeback.. something like, "Well.. usually I want to get to know a girl first before kissing".

But I laughed it off since the words actually weren't congruent with what I felt and it would come off as reaction-seeking.

So I stood there for 30 seconds more and looked around and my attention got caught on this gorgeous girl I think I met 5 times during the night...

To pushing the limits!!!!!

- JL

Have you ever gone out and had the worst start of your night ever and you feel like wanting to just disappear?

I had one of those nights yesterday but.. somehow a blonde, words can't describe beauty, angel saved me.

It all started when two girls, which I had approached 4-5 times the night before, came down the stairs in the bar.
They noticed me and were avoiding me and whispered something negative about me and.. it got into my head.

An anger started to mold in my body. No looseness but intensity in my mood.

I talked to few girls and talked about my anger. I let it out and began to yell and scream like a beast whenever I felt the anger had to be let out.

It was an intense & powerful energy.

Few rejections of kissing and welcoming my presence in the process.

Afterwards my thoughts were running still with the negative inception from the two girls and with.. like no one really wanted to listen to me.

I really wanted to disappear. I was feeling sooo low and really wanted to go home.

BUT NO!

My former experiences have taught me lessons and I just wouldn't let my emotions dictate my actions.

There I was. Standing by myself, knowing my friends were somewhere but not wanting to find them for comfort. Feeling fvcking low.

Suddenly this beautiful blonde creature, hair with few curls and done, in black, blue & green summer color short dress walks past me. I stand there for 3-5 seconds and I went after her in the midst of the crowd, like Moses parting the sea.

I tap her on her shoulder and she turns. Laser eye-contact extending my hand forward and introduce. Throughout the interaction we were in a bubble.

me: Hi.. I'm James. You are really cute.. I had to meet you.
her: (Looking a bit puzzled, thought a moment and then lightened up) Ohh.. Thanks you! I'm xyz.

me: Let's go for a romantic walk in the bar. <-- Golden line for moving the girl.
her: (giggling) I don't think it's a very good idea.. my boyfriend is over there

Our hands still holding, I squeezed and then she squeezed.

me: (close to her ears) Then we have to be very discreet.
her: (giggles) I don't think it's a very good idea.. my bf is there.. [something along like, I hope you'll find a sweet girl. While she flirtatiously, seductively put her hand on my chest and looks at me. Gives me a kiss on the mouth. Looks at me smilingly and walks away.]

Her response was surprising to me. I had not expected it. Especially not when I was feeling so low. Her bf objection was coming off as really weak and if I was more awake, there was a big chance that I could get some private time with her.

(I really wanted to find her and take her from her boyfriend, no matter who he was. That's how much she seduced me in the few moments we had)

And that was the start of a fvcking awesome night. I started to enjoy the music and the vibe more and I was letting loooooose. My mind didn't disturb me anymore and I was really living in the moment.

(Actually I was back in the self-amusement mood/vibe but with a higher degree of sexual intent than I ever was aware of.)

I was able to freely give, be creative in the moment mixed with sexuality which led to girls wanting to (or not able to resist) follow my lead.

I took an innocent blonde girl from her group 15 seconds after meeting her. She felt a bit uncomfortable but she was following.

I took a group of 4 girls, 2 stunning girls and moved them to meet my friends.

(One of the hot girls asked where she had seen me before. I get that a lot since I look like a reality-tv star here. I always reply with: "do you watch porn?" I think I got it from Johnny Soporno. It's gold.)

It ended up with hooking up with a sweet girl and in the end we got into some dirty things on the dance-floor.

Am I bragging? A bit because I'm proud of myself.

Though I hope there's something you can apply, when you go out yourself, from this Field Report.

- JL

awesome! great turnaround.

Nice post LionMonkey. I really like your persistence!

Yoyoyo.
What's up.
Made a video this night.
Tired as fuck but I kinda owe it to you after many days offline.

Here it is.
Enjoy.
Habit creation, meeting women & less attractive girls

PLEASE HIT ME UP WITH COMMENTS OF HOW YOU EXPERIENCED THE VIDEO!


- JL
Out.

STAGE 6 - DAY 6 - The being and art

Just came up with something GENIUS after I finished meditating Thursday night.
It's something I hope you don't make / keep make yourself because it only slows you down and gives you all kinds of BS to feel "noticed" or "the victim"

Ok here it goes:

I can't count how many times I have felt into the trap of self-analysis and sub-consciously used it as an excuse for having "done the work". Then start to be comfortable again and let my mind have the power over me...

Most of it were BS and did nothing to improve the women area. It was more a mindly thirst for recognition.

Our minds play so many games with us. It cannot be trusted!

It's about being. Being present, aware of our focus and let our body take us wherever we see opportunities (or don't see). Emotions are just emotions. What matters are our willingness to take action anyway.

(I have encountered the most out of the norm, wild and crazy moments and situations by being and being joyful at the same time)

In that way, we are being and from a place of being, there's no mind.. no good or bad.. no right or wrong.

Naturally as human beings, we will learn and adapt from the first-hand experiences.

We thereby learn to master the art...

BOOM.
Good shit.

Alright.
Keep rocking beast.

- JL

I'm enjoying reading about your progress.

Your last video actually helped me too. I didn't make it to the end but it was a very good reminder about creating habits. In fact your video indirectly brought me to another video about instilling habits. Thanks, LionMonkey.

Glad you liked it and it could be to some guidance.

Why didn't you make it to the end? What do you honestly think about the video?

I would appreciate feedback!

I heard what I needed to hear, and soon afterwards I got bored.

My suggestion is to make your videos shorter. Your energy levels are not a good combination with the length of your videos. So you can plan out your videos better and elaborate on certain points where you need to.

If you have higher energy and have some funny things here and there then the long videos are fine.

Honestly in my case I just heard all I needed to hear and it's near impossible to keep people like me attentive to a video I do not benefit from anymore.