here's something i've been writing up.29/07/2013
i've just come back from lodging a cheque in my account. they sort of know me at my local
branch and one of the ladies, she's probab ly about 50, said she was thinking about me
because she hadn't seen me for ages. i talked to her last week. another lady, a pretty30-
something, told me all about a parachute jump she did and that she raised £1,500 for
charity. i asked her how much she kept for herself and she got all giggly and said "nott a
penny! i'm a good girl!" she also felt compelled to show me photos of her in freefall
andsaid she'd email me copies. i'm astounded because i haven't had these sorts of reactions
from girls in over a decade
29/07/2013
i've made some changes in my decisions and actions. as am6 is due out in august or so, i've
stopped am5 and have switched to the free confidenjce sub for now. i only have stage 1 sub
of am5 anyway and i also got a cheque for 2 grand so am going to buy the full am6 when it
comes out. i've been noticing increased ease of focusing my thoughts on things i like,
rather than on the drama created by other people. i've been working on myself for about 4
years, so i reckon these recent sub additions are just filling in some gaps that i missed.
i've heard that many people have quite a bit of emotional difficulty during this
'neutralising' stage, but i've not experienced it. all my previous work on myself is
starting to show up now as it's not being smothered by negativity.
28/07/2013
i woke up exhausted today and spent half the day in bed. never mind, that just
means it's worrking - as the saying goes. i noticed a couple of things - a desire to talk
to random people about random stuff, something that has never crossed my mind before. i
didn't do it, but i thought about it and it felt good - it'll be even better once i
actually do it though. another thing was that i noticed some female friends of mine,
usually just being friends, were being subtly but noticeably flirtatious towards me,
flicking their hair and pointing their hips in my direction and stuff. i also noticed less
anxiety when out and about - more tolerance with peoples stupidity - more focused in my own
reality and less concerned with others. speaking of which, i had a weird dream last
night. i was back at school and someone was teaching me about focus - to let go of the wet
paper i don't want, all i had to do was to focus on the paper i do want and allow it to
dry. that was obviouysly symbolic for switching focus from all the bs that i don't
want, and onto the good stuff i do want (with water being symbolic of emotions) - this is
law of attraction 101.
26/07/13
started with level one of alpha male 5. listening at night from pc with headphones. i plan
to switch this next week to cd player mwhen i get a new hifi. my plan is to listen while i
sleep every night then a bit during the day. it's almost 4am and i've listened to 1.5 hours
already while watching the thomas crown affair. i also started reading dyd and i plan to
read john alexander's alpha male aswell.
the effects i've noticed so far are quite a bit of tingling.
I think its best than to wait a bit for aura of sexiness ?