(07-21-2021, 05:16 PM)LionMonkey Wrote: [ -> ] (07-18-2021, 06:38 PM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ] (07-18-2021, 05:39 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I have noted many times that resistance results in exhaustion. Overcoming what is resisting, or what is being resisted, released that resistance and the exhaustion goes away. No more battle.
Yea, but to see that it's still applicable in the new tech is interesting.
My subconscious was still having a ton of fear going on so I took a shower and then decided to try hybrid. It's handeling whatever is going on a lot better.
This whole scenario is pointing to an issue that I've know about but really hasn't hit home until today. The communication between my conscious and subconscious mind is in very poor shape. I basically don't know how to release stuff when it comes up and i don't trust myself all that much. To me at least that indicates a communication error. I'm not sure if I'm overthinking it but I can't consciously assist myself in releasing anything and it is difficult if not impossible for me currently to consciously do this. I cannot recall the last time I truly let go of any of my own issues. I'm forgiving with others, but not to myself. I would like to fix this.
Any methods you guys find useful would be greatly appreciated and a good start. Thank you in advance. 
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Thinking about the things and then breathe it in deeply into your belly. Hold it for 3-5 seconds.
Then exhale it out and relax for a moment.
This little technique helps me relax.
The key is to be aware of when your mind is spinning so you can activate the exercise and let go!
Hope it helps!
-LM
Thanks, I'll give that a shot and see what happens.
Tiredness due to work is making it difficult to spot progress but I know I'm still different. What's changed has chaged.
Caught myself at work today in some of my old fear-induced mindsets and decided to choose to execute OFV3 instructions instead. It was a little sloppy emotionally but it's a work in progress. I cannot expect perfection from the getgo. However, change is happening. Fear of not doing something perfectly is reducing and I am learning to mitigate the risks of failure through a tier system based on my current level of skill in whatever it is I'm doing, possible outcomes if a failure happens as well as my willingness to learn new things which has always been present but has increased in the past few days. A little complicated but it also prevents some stupidity from unnecessary ventures into high percentage failure possibilities. Knowing your limits is important and saying when you don't think that you are the person for the job is important as well.
I'm enjoying myself more.
A little all over the place today. 1st day on of a 3 day cylce 2 hybrid per night. Slept like a baby for 9 hours. Some mild depression. Reading letting go by Richard Hawkins (thanks GreekGod for the recommendation). Going to try practicing some of this today since I feel a little down. Work was hard this week so I didn't have anything planned so I get to read and rest all day.
Power went out and possibly cut my second loop short which was not a good thing. Felt like OF was digging something up and I felt off for the rest of the day. Today is the start of my days off but I'm going to run 2 loops tonight instead.
Im beginning to see my heart being unearthed and a desire for change rather than comfort. The closed loop that Shannon described in Ben's journal uncomfortably describes my life until now rather accurately.
Since the last post, things were going well until yesterday. That panic feeling rising up again. Going to run some extra loops today to take care of it.
OF really puts you through the wringer.
Starting to feel like my current lifestyle isn't all that satisfying and I am somewhat looking to change how I live.
Much more open to change since starting OF3, even big change.
On good days I feel like this is the new me and this change is natural. Gotta love that naturalizer. Even though I know what's most likely causing it, I don't feel any need to fight this change and it feels good.
Looking back, I haven't been running OF all that long, a little over a month I think, but the internal change that's already happened is quite large for that timeframe.
Wondering what to run in December when this OF run is over. I might do E5 since I feel like that might do me some benefit but UMS is such a hard one to pass up at this point. I've got time to make this decision so I guess no worries.
(08-01-2021, 05:22 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]Since the last post, things were going well until yesterday. That panic feeling rising up again. Going to run some extra loops today to take care of it.
OF really puts you through the wringer.
Starting to feel like my current lifestyle isn't all that satisfying and I am somewhat looking to change how I live.
Much more open to change since starting OF3, even big change.
On good days I feel like this is the new me and this change is natural. Gotta love that naturalizer. Even though I know what's most likely causing it, I don't feel any need to fight this change and it feels good.
Looking back, I haven't been running OF all that long, a little over a month I think, but the internal change that's already happened is quite large for that timeframe.
Wondering what to run in December when this OF run is over. I might do E5 since I feel like that might do me some benefit but UMS is such a hard one to pass up at this point. I've got time to make this decision so I guess no worries.
I’m in the same boat. Do I choose E5 or UMS 2.0? Hmmm
(08-01-2021, 08:11 AM)THolt Wrote: [ -> ] (08-01-2021, 05:22 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]Since the last post, things were going well until yesterday. That panic feeling rising up again. Going to run some extra loops today to take care of it.
OF really puts you through the wringer.
Starting to feel like my current lifestyle isn't all that satisfying and I am somewhat looking to change how I live.
Much more open to change since starting OF3, even big change.
On good days I feel like this is the new me and this change is natural. Gotta love that naturalizer. Even though I know what's most likely causing it, I don't feel any need to fight this change and it feels good.
Looking back, I haven't been running OF all that long, a little over a month I think, but the internal change that's already happened is quite large for that timeframe.
Wondering what to run in December when this OF run is over. I might do E5 since I feel like that might do me some benefit but UMS is such a hard one to pass up at this point. I've got time to make this decision so I guess no worries.
I’m in the same boat. Do I choose E5 or UMS 2.0? Hmmm
It's a tough choice for sure. That's with just those 2 subs, who knows what will come out in the time frame in between. DMSI, if it's out by then, will be tempting for sure and it may be the final free update so it's bound to be pretty good. Although my personal desire is to see the celebrity aura become standalone. I always enjoy its effects.
As I am executing a carpet-bombing session, currently on loop 3, I see how much I resisted subliminals prior to OF3. I feel comfortable allowing OF3 deeper than any sub has gone before and it feels relaxing. The tunnel boring continues.
One thing I notice is that sometimes when OF is doing its thing I feel a feeling in my heart area that feels similar to a stuffy nose/congested feeling. It's no a physical sensation and I have never experienced this before.
(08-01-2021, 08:24 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]As I am executing a carpet-bombing session, currently on loop 3, I see how much I resisted subliminals prior to OF3. I feel comfortable allowing OF3 deeper than any sub has gone before and it feels relaxing. The tunnel boring continues.
One thing I notice is that sometimes when OF is doing its thing I feel a feeling in my heart area that feels similar to a stuffy nose/congested feeling. It's no a physical sensation and I have never experienced this before.
Hey Chris it sound like heart chakra work is being done. But it should be warm & loving.
(08-01-2021, 10:57 AM)Z-Man Wrote: [ -> ] (08-01-2021, 08:24 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]As I am executing a carpet-bombing session, currently on loop 3, I see how much I resisted subliminals prior to OF3. I feel comfortable allowing OF3 deeper than any sub has gone before and it feels relaxing. The tunnel boring continues.
One thing I notice is that sometimes when OF is doing its thing I feel a feeling in my heart area that feels similar to a stuffy nose/congested feeling. It's no a physical sensation and I have never experienced this before.
Hey Chris it sound like heart chakra work is being done. But it should be warm & loving.
I agree with you. I know my heart needs some work. I guess my thoughts are more along the lines of "how long will it take to resolve this?". It's been going on for almost as long as I've been running OF and if that feeling does not subside by mid-December I may just keep running OF until it's resolved.
I'm starting to think that everyone should run OF before they run any other sub. It's that important.
(08-01-2021, 11:34 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-01-2021, 10:57 AM)Z-Man Wrote: [ -> ] (08-01-2021, 08:24 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]As I am executing a carpet-bombing session, currently on loop 3, I see how much I resisted subliminals prior to OF3. I feel comfortable allowing OF3 deeper than any sub has gone before and it feels relaxing. The tunnel boring continues.
One thing I notice is that sometimes when OF is doing its thing I feel a feeling in my heart area that feels similar to a stuffy nose/congested feeling. It's no a physical sensation and I have never experienced this before.
Hey Chris it sound like heart chakra work is being done. But it should be warm & loving.
I agree with you. I know my heart needs some work. I guess my thoughts are more along the lines of "how long will it take to resolve this?". It's been going on for almost as long as I've been running OF and if that feeling does not subside by mid-December I may just keep running OF until it's resolved.
Keep going, its digging deep into the core. Shannon says its the root. So the journey can feel long tunnel, if all thought fears are removed...hopefully we will see the light at the end of the tunnel.