Had some dreams with situations and people during a certain part of my life last night. I don't remember them anymore but when I went to the bathroom during the night I remember thinking that it's interesting that all the situations and people in the dreams were within a certain time frame. I had definitiveness that they ar OF related and resolving some things. I have more peace now.
I feel like I'm opening up again after being locked in place for so long. Just like Shannon, I'm seeing all the places I was tied down being freed up and I'm finding it easy to be me again.
Strongly considering leaving my job soon. I've not liked it for some time and I've known it wasn't for me but had a degree of fear to leave it. Not so much anymore . I want to have a job that I love to do now.
I'm really starting to believe I can be successful in anything I do. I wonder if it's me adjusting to my new reality. I both want and don't want it to be TID from US/LM. I'm not sure which one I would choose between OF and US/LM right now.
(06-21-2020, 01:49 PM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I'm really starting to believe I can be successful in anything I do. I wonder if it's me adjusting to my new reality. I both want and don't want it to be TID from US/LM. I'm not sure which one I would choose between OF and US/LM right now.
That could very well be from OF, as fear of success is a pretty big one. Sounds good though.
Shannon's quote " Also, would you mind changing your thread title to something that does not grammatically state that OF 5.75G is "the mind killer"?"
(06-21-2020, 05:47 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]Shannon's quote " Also, would you mind changing your thread title to something that does not grammatically state that OF 5.75G is "the mind killer"?"
He did that already. Although it would be even better if the title was, "Removing Fear, the Mind Killer: Overcoming Fear 5.75G"...
Today has been a little up a little down. Tired and what not, but also seeing OF more and more.
It seems like I have more of an ability to choose which direction I want my emotions and thought processes to go. This is good for the sake of freedom, but it is going to require some learning to be that much more aware that I am the captain of my ship.
Growing pains I guess.
(06-22-2020, 04:53 PM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]Today has been a little up a little down. Tired and what not, but also seeing OF more and more.
It seems like I have more of an ability to choose which direction I want my emotions and thought processes to go. This is good for the sake of freedom, but it is going to require some learning to be that much more aware that I am the captain of my ship.
Growing pains I guess.
Amazing !! Loving it Man. I had some crispy bacon this morning with breakfast,damn good, had no fear of eating it! Ha!! Go Chris!!
My ego, that is, the little bundle of "self-protecting" fears is dissolving, I can tell. Also, I think what we call the law of attraction is actually, more often than not, sabotaged by subconscious fear. I can also feel that being assaulted.
Also, the new FRM version is going to be so beneficial for every sub that has it. This is going to increase both execution rates as well as the level of execution of subs. I'm lowkey stating that this is going to change IML subs drastically. Wish 5.75G wasn't already taken so we could mark this noted level of increased power.
(06-23-2020, 04:24 PM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]Also, the new FRM version is going to be so beneficial for every sub that has it. This is going to increase both execution rates as well as the level of execution of subs. I'm lowkey stating that this is going to change IML subs drastically. Wish 5.75G wasn't already taken so we could mark this noted level of increased power.
I had been contemplating making this version of OF the first 5.8 or 5.85G sub. I'll take that as a vote in favor.
I feel extremely liberated, however, it will take more wisdom than I think I've ever needed to live without fear.
(06-24-2020, 11:38 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I feel extremely liberated, however, it will take more wisdom than I think I've ever needed to live without fear.
Can you elaborate on this?
What wisdom does it need?
(06-24-2020, 01:07 PM)London1 Wrote: [ -> ] (06-24-2020, 11:38 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I feel extremely liberated, however, it will take more wisdom than I think I've ever needed to live without fear.
Can you elaborate on this?
What wisdom does it need?
1) seems like another form of fear 'being processed" under da hood,mister London!
2) Dig this,man,if the infinite intelligence within you,your own awareness and desire was enough to get you to a place of "Liberation",dont you think that, that same awareness,wisdom and intelligence can and probably will 'reveal' to you such wisdom that you'need' or desire,in time....the fear remover is groovin' and removin' at the pace you can handle and probably a little more( which in my view is a good thing-"if you're removing a rotted tooth,the quicker you get that som'bitch out a there,the less effect it will have,and the pain WILL indeed subside.a lot sooner! Obviously!!)
3) keep going and trusting the process,even if you dont know about it all,yet.you got this far,alive and functioning.
thats my vibe on it Dude.
(06-24-2020, 01:07 PM)London1 Wrote: [ -> ] (06-24-2020, 11:38 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I feel extremely liberated, however, it will take more wisdom than I think I've ever needed to live without fear.
Can you elaborate on this?
What wisdom does it need?
Once fear is removed from your life, who are you? Once you discard that long used crutch that was used to modify your behavior or was a source of rebellion or hate for you how do you act? Once all those fears that you used to adjust your behavior are gone now you see how far along your growth actually is.
Do you care for others or are you childishly selfish? Did you try to do what's best for yourself because of the fear of the consequences or did you actually want the best for yourself?
Once the mask of fear is removed you start to see yourself for who you really are and that level of self-honesty is rare, and honestly, it is a brutal revelation in some aspects. I'm seeing myself, like, REALLY seeing myself now and parts of me are not where I would like them to be. However, now that I am not kidding myself I can begin to grow where I want to and set personal development goals. I've been in a self-imposed holding pattern for a while now in a lot of areas, but I'm ready to grow again.
Lots more drive and energy as of this morning. Must have cleared something big. As stated above, I'm setting some goals for personal character development and things I want to see in me.
Also, It's quite possible that I'm going to move where I live in the not too distant future. It wasn't on my radar, but I'm feeling small internal whispers on it.