Subliminal Talk

- This theme of becoming practically "desireless " is becoming more blatant internally. I notice that this newfound mental state is also coming with an outcome independent mentality. Not only am I losing my connection to the feeling of desire in general, but I'm becoming detached to whether or not I attain my current desires. I have more of a feeling like "I know I'll get what I want like I always do, just don't know how or when." A strong feeling of self-assuredness.

- Seems like attention from women is picking back up again. A couple of them seem to be displaying signs of wanting to ask me for a relationship.

- Everyday I'm noticing that my self-discipline is improving, It's getting easier to exercise that self control without trying to rationalize why I should just act of a whim like I've done a few times in the past.

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Closing this journal out. Loved my journey with LTU but I feel like I'm literally not growing much anymore with it. Could just be subconscious boredom but either way, my gut keeps telling me that it's time for UMS. LTU is definitely a sub I'm coming back to if I ever need to.