Day 3 of 3rd cycle, time's moving fast.
- I've had an overall better mood the past week.
- Feels like intention setting with the USLM4 component is working flawlessly.
- Despite having some fairly stressful days at work lately, I'm handling it all without shutting down, in fact I've been moving at my own pace without too much caring about what anyone has to say about it and focusing on quality vs. quantity.
- Feels like my ego is truly starting to balance itself, in the sense that I don't mind steeping out of my comfort zone to connect with people.
- I've felt a tingling in my root chakra area several times a day for the past few days, even on my break days.
I'm getting the urge to do a 6-day run with only one day of rest. So basically an ASBR of 6:1. I read from Shannon before that this could be my subconscious asking for help achieving a goal. I'm willing to experiment with it. Don't think this would qualify me for a refund but I never planned on asking for one anyway, given all my positive experiences using these subs so far. If I do go through with it, I hope this doesn't tank my energy levels. During this cycle, I haven't felt quite as tired as the first two.
3rd break Day 2:
Saw Avengers: Endgame yesterday. Thoroughly enjoyed the movie and the company of my friends.
*Spoiler Alert*: I was profoundly effected by a statement that Thor's Mother made when he went back in time and she was still alive. Thor had been depressed for years after losing in Infinity Wars. Long story short, he felt like a failure. His Mother told him "Everyone fails at who they're supposed to be, what matters is that you do the best you can with who you are"...or something along those lines. I felt like she was speaking directly to me. For so long, I fought between the person I wanted to be, felt I needed to be, and who I actually was. It feels like I'm becoming someone new altogether and that's why I still don't completely know who I've become, and yet I still feel more secure and empowered than ever before.
In other news, I'm not sure why I was even born, but what I know is that after 28 years, I've actually chosen a life purpose for myself. This is huge because for so long, I went after what I thought was acceptable by society. When I saw the fact that societally programmed goals were not the answer I sought, I became unmotivated and kept hearing that you should "follow your passion and bliss". Only problem is I had no idea what that was until now. I finally have a sense of direction, and could also potentially turn it into a business. Haven't even gotten through a complete run of LTU yet but I'm developing faster than ever, incredible.
That's really good to hear you're becoming somebody you can be proud of and you're accepting yourself for who you are. LTU5 seems to really do a number on people! I can't wait until I can use it. Keep up the amazing progress man!
(05-08-2019, 07:56 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]That's really good to hear you're becoming somebody you can be proud of and you're accepting yourself for who you are. LTU5 seems to really do a number on people! I can't wait until I can use it. Keep up the amazing progress man!
I appreciate it man, this is quite a journey thus far.
Cycle 4, day 2:
Somehow I quickly adjusted to the energy demands of the sub. Still wake up slightly tired, but not drained like I did during the first cycle. Now I'm good to go in bout 10-15 minutes after waking.
Cycle 4, Day 3
Amazing. Woke up this morning a bit tired but the remarkable difference I noticed is that now instead of staying in bed and fighting myself to jump up and get things done for the day, I actually had to fight myself to stay in bed and be lazy. I believe the naturalizer kept me from realizing it but all this week I’ve been fighting myself to sit down and keep still as opposed to fighting myself to be productive. This has been on both a personal and professional level. Keep having thoughts like “I don’t want to just sit and waste my life away” and “I wanna go out into the world and live”. Posting now because with the feeling I have being auto-generated from within, I’m sure I won’t be slowing down enough to be back on the internet until tomorrow. Crazy how almost a month ago you almost had to pull my teeth before I actually got up on the weekend.
Cycle 5 , Day 2:
Between yesterday and this morning I now know that my subconscious is directing energy to strengthening my self-control. My internal struggle for self control even effects me physically, to the point where sometimes I'll mentally burn myself out or go from tired to hyper, but LTU 5 is definitely helping me improve on this. Probably won't be long now until my self-discipline has sharpened. I'm also finding myself more relaxed in social situation, and while driving. sublime anxiety as a whole is dropping away.
It’s decided. I’ll be doing an ASBR of 6 days on and 1 off throughout next week Monday through Saturday since I keep being urged to go beyond 4:2.
Cycle 6, Day 1:
This week begins my 6:1 experiment. I find myself being a bit closer to those around me and appreciating them more.
Cycle 6 , Day2:
Man oh man that wisdom/maturity improvement and anger management combo in LTU5 definitely worked it's magic today. Yesterday and today a good friend of mine came off, as what I perceived to be disrespectful concerning an issue I already stated was being handled. Now while I was partly to blame, I refused to be disrespected, given my natural temper though, I really had to figure out how to channel my anger and still be able to keep my friendship in tact.
Instead of getting stuck in a negative rut full of anger, I accepted my responsibility for the part I played in irritating him. I apologized to him for what I'd done, but also stood my ground about the fact that I'd already let him know that progress was being made, and also not to take a less than respectful tone with me, despite his anger. Stated I would appreciate being addressed in a cordial manner going forward. He apologized for how it all came out, we cleared the air from there. (USLM may have also helped me figure out how to find the best possible solution for how to resolve the issue before it got too big as well).
This is progress for me because even a couple months ago, I probably would've just taken offense and escalated things into an argument. Instead, I channeled my anger to find a solution, and keep a friend at the same time, which ultimately, this isn't an issue that really should've become very big to begin with. Can't wait to see what kind of person I end up becoming with the help of LTU5
Cycle 6, Day 3:
I feel intoxicated with gratitude right now. I can feel the positive energy within me rising . I feel very joyous and carefree also
Cycle 6, Day 4:
Tomorrow starts the new asbr. I may possibly have to help someone move this weekend so hopefully this doesn’t drain my energy too greatly. A couple hours ago I picked my daughter up from school and while driving I kept having fearful thoughts play out in my head about being very careful so I don’t get into am accident. My stress levels while driving have dropped more since starting Ltu so I have no idea where this paranoia was coming from. I wanted the thoughts to stop because they were making me nervous and increasing my fear of actually being hit. USLM must have struck because I instantly got the idea to take the same negative scenarios I was playing in my head, and instead of having them end in tragedy, I could continue to play out the scenario to see that it worked out and be thankful for the safety of my daughter and myself. A few seconds later I had another crash scenario occur in my head, but I imagined myself swerving out of the way just in time to avoid the accident. This happened a couple more times and as I felt gratitude, I was hit with a flash of intuition that from now on, I can just imagine only positive things happening and setting positive intent, even when I imagine things going wrong like I used to do.
Btw, once I got off the highway, someone was driving recklessly and as I switched lanes with my turn signal on, they almost rear-ended me. I was able to speed up in time to keep them from hitting the car. So the scenario I was imagining actually happened as far as me avoiding an accident. Incredible, fulfilled a positive prophecy and intention today, while also gaining a valuable paradigm shifting ability that I’ll be able to use going forward.
That sounds great Davis! It's good to have your i ternal reality reflect positi e things because then your external does too.
(05-24-2019, 12:02 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]That sounds great Davis! It's good to have your i ternal reality reflect positi e things because then your external does too.
Tell me about, feels like I’m finally on the right track.