11-27-2018, 03:41 AM
I know 
The labels and self-talk are something I struggle with and I am glad you brought them up so I can notice it more. I usually don't bring them up much when describing myself but I almost felt I needed to in order to put my story out there for a reference point with the journal to show where I started, if that makes sense.
So yesterday I went without taking medication to gauge myself and the fear was noticeable (more seems to be coming up, which I assume is part helping get past it) along with a lot of irritability, but manageable. Mind you, I didn't go anywhere that would really test me. I still feel a lot of fear when I think of going or being in situations that would normally cause fear...but that is okay. I have an ultrasound tomorrow that I normally would have cancelled by now (it was suggested that I cancel by my therapist as she says my body has too much to handle) and it still scares me but I am open to it not being a scary experience. If I have to take anxiety pills, then whatever...I know I am changing in the long-term regardless at a pace that is right for me.
I'm a little worried of "doing it wrong" sometimes...but I'm doing my best and listening and changes are happening. Today is the last day before another 2 day break.
The labels and self-talk are something I struggle with and I am glad you brought them up so I can notice it more. I usually don't bring them up much when describing myself but I almost felt I needed to in order to put my story out there for a reference point with the journal to show where I started, if that makes sense.So yesterday I went without taking medication to gauge myself and the fear was noticeable (more seems to be coming up, which I assume is part helping get past it) along with a lot of irritability, but manageable. Mind you, I didn't go anywhere that would really test me. I still feel a lot of fear when I think of going or being in situations that would normally cause fear...but that is okay. I have an ultrasound tomorrow that I normally would have cancelled by now (it was suggested that I cancel by my therapist as she says my body has too much to handle) and it still scares me but I am open to it not being a scary experience. If I have to take anxiety pills, then whatever...I know I am changing in the long-term regardless at a pace that is right for me.
I'm a little worried of "doing it wrong" sometimes...but I'm doing my best and listening and changes are happening. Today is the last day before another 2 day break.
(11-26-2018, 02:40 PM)Shannon Wrote: Thank you for starting a journal. Your journey is going to be one of the more important ones for me to observe to know how FRM works for people with extreme fears.
One thing... you seem to have accepted the label of the condition as being a part of you. These phobias you had, you will not likely have for very much longer. So whenever you find yourself saying, for instance, "I also have emetophobia", or "I panic in crowds and there was no place to sit if I felt bad", remember that while that may have been true in the past, you are transitioning to a reality now in which that is what was, not what is now and will be.
It will take some time yet to solidify the new experience and rebuild your personal identity around it, but it will go much faster and more easily if you keep that in mind. YOU are free to experience whatever YOU CHOOSE to experience, and the past does not define you because you can make changes to yourself, and those changes can be comfortable, enjoyable, fun and easy for you.
You just need the right desires, tools, the right support system and the right amount of time.
Thank you so much for choosing to try USLM3, this has been just as important for all of us as it has been for you. Even if the rest of my customers don't realize it, your help in learning how well FRM works with extremes of fear is making it possible for me to take much bigger strides forward with FRM,which will benefit all of us.
I am pleased beyond words that this program is so helpful to you, and to see that you are starting to be able to live your life now. Can't wait for more good news! Thanks again!
