Almost kept clarifying, but that "awesome" comment made my adrenals wince. I said "needs and values" and, somehow, "taste in appearance" was read. I touched on synchronicity, randomness, opportunity, planning, preparedness, analysis, and process of elimination, yet fate was inferred. Learning how to speak Sarge-English fluently requires more resources and incentive than I currently have. Sorry. 
So, something new. DMSI feels different after UD. Given RT's post to mat422's thread yesterday, I'd like to point out that, while I wasn't a fan of a protracted UD run (for myself, in particular) or how it felt (doesn't cleaning a dirty home usually feel grimy and gross?), I may still return for short-term runs later on. If I clear enough, I might even consider a longer-term run. But, initially, it was like vacuuming a carpet so filthy that the dust bag/compartment immediately filled, got clogged, and needed to be emptied before the vacuum could continue to clean. Doesn't mean that the carpet shouldn't be cleaned or that vacuuming should feel like a fun experience, only that stopping the vacuum periodically to empty it seems to be the sensible thing to do. And, if I'm wrong, on my own head be it. Literally.
I still can't articulate the difference, but, whether it's DMSI after UD or just UD winding down in general, it's like there's this reflective glint that people give off that shines on top of their body language when they feel good for a moment, like how a kid will light up with genuine excitement when he or she has figured something out or "just had a great idea!" Only, with adults, it's like they try to hold back that light out of embarrassment (or they show suspicious over-excitement at incongruent times), so I can only catch glimpses of the real thing poking through, but glimpses that weren't as obvious to me as they are now. And something about it makes me feel like it might be worth fanning that ember into a flame when I see it, particularly with those that are nearest and dearest to me. Sounds corny, I know. But I also wonder if it might also be what E1, E2, and UD bring out of us too, something that others see as brighter and that we aren't fully able to see ourselves shine, except maybe when it's reflected back at us. Not an aura as much as removing the inhibitions blocking our baseline inner glow. Like cleaning a headlight. Which may also be why I can see it clearer in others than before: lenses are two-way, after all.
With DMSI powering the high beams back up (and a hopefully cleaner-if-not-clean lens to shine through), I'm curious as to whether I'll notice any differences when I'm around anyone for longer than 30 seconds. That won't be happening until at least the weekend, though.
So, something new. DMSI feels different after UD. Given RT's post to mat422's thread yesterday, I'd like to point out that, while I wasn't a fan of a protracted UD run (for myself, in particular) or how it felt (doesn't cleaning a dirty home usually feel grimy and gross?), I may still return for short-term runs later on. If I clear enough, I might even consider a longer-term run. But, initially, it was like vacuuming a carpet so filthy that the dust bag/compartment immediately filled, got clogged, and needed to be emptied before the vacuum could continue to clean. Doesn't mean that the carpet shouldn't be cleaned or that vacuuming should feel like a fun experience, only that stopping the vacuum periodically to empty it seems to be the sensible thing to do. And, if I'm wrong, on my own head be it. Literally.
I still can't articulate the difference, but, whether it's DMSI after UD or just UD winding down in general, it's like there's this reflective glint that people give off that shines on top of their body language when they feel good for a moment, like how a kid will light up with genuine excitement when he or she has figured something out or "just had a great idea!" Only, with adults, it's like they try to hold back that light out of embarrassment (or they show suspicious over-excitement at incongruent times), so I can only catch glimpses of the real thing poking through, but glimpses that weren't as obvious to me as they are now. And something about it makes me feel like it might be worth fanning that ember into a flame when I see it, particularly with those that are nearest and dearest to me. Sounds corny, I know. But I also wonder if it might also be what E1, E2, and UD bring out of us too, something that others see as brighter and that we aren't fully able to see ourselves shine, except maybe when it's reflected back at us. Not an aura as much as removing the inhibitions blocking our baseline inner glow. Like cleaning a headlight. Which may also be why I can see it clearer in others than before: lenses are two-way, after all.
With DMSI powering the high beams back up (and a hopefully cleaner-if-not-clean lens to shine through), I'm curious as to whether I'll notice any differences when I'm around anyone for longer than 30 seconds. That won't be happening until at least the weekend, though.
