08-27-2017, 08:59 AM
Well, Tuesday's brainstorms lived up to expectations. Had another idea on Friday morning that I'm saving until Monday. I swear that I'm not doing doing MLS! 
But, speaking of other subs, I'm about to contradict what I'd said last weekend, partly because it's a week later than when I'd said it. I think that I may finally take a break from DMSI after... 15 months since version 1? Not because I care about the shiniest new toys in the acronym toybox or because 3.1 isn't doing its job (it has been for me) or because I'm running away from anything, but because I've spent the last three months increasingly focused on my liver health while running a sexiness sub. Some steps that I've taken during those months were instinctively helpful before I even had any idea that they were helpful and were also well beyond my daily dandelion and nettle tea days. If DMSI has been indirectly pushing me more and more into detoxing my body for months (or UD's TID is strong enough to reach back months into the past), my subconscious has clearly thought that detox was what I should be doing, long before UD was even an option.
And the idea of switching to UD doesn't excite me at all; it calms me. I see it as a task that needs doing, and that's it. Not to personify subs, but it's almost like DMSI is saying, "We both know that you're detoxing lately to get where I need to take you, and, together, we've made huge strides in that area, but we're doing it slowly and indirectly when you could be doing it quickly and directly. I'm good, but it's really not what I'm built to do. So, now that we've finally gotten you to a more motivated, do-what-needs-doing place, let's let UD do detox right, get that step out of the way, and then get your ass back here, so that we can finish what we've started with some real fuel in the tank. Or stay and take the scenic route. Whichever." So, I think that I'll put a pin in DMSI, take a week off to mitigate turbulence, and hopefully buy/start UD in the next week or so. No idea if I'll keep a public journal for UD or how long my run of it will be. My plan after that is to return to DMSI and to this journal.
But, speaking of other subs, I'm about to contradict what I'd said last weekend, partly because it's a week later than when I'd said it. I think that I may finally take a break from DMSI after... 15 months since version 1? Not because I care about the shiniest new toys in the acronym toybox or because 3.1 isn't doing its job (it has been for me) or because I'm running away from anything, but because I've spent the last three months increasingly focused on my liver health while running a sexiness sub. Some steps that I've taken during those months were instinctively helpful before I even had any idea that they were helpful and were also well beyond my daily dandelion and nettle tea days. If DMSI has been indirectly pushing me more and more into detoxing my body for months (or UD's TID is strong enough to reach back months into the past), my subconscious has clearly thought that detox was what I should be doing, long before UD was even an option.
And the idea of switching to UD doesn't excite me at all; it calms me. I see it as a task that needs doing, and that's it. Not to personify subs, but it's almost like DMSI is saying, "We both know that you're detoxing lately to get where I need to take you, and, together, we've made huge strides in that area, but we're doing it slowly and indirectly when you could be doing it quickly and directly. I'm good, but it's really not what I'm built to do. So, now that we've finally gotten you to a more motivated, do-what-needs-doing place, let's let UD do detox right, get that step out of the way, and then get your ass back here, so that we can finish what we've started with some real fuel in the tank. Or stay and take the scenic route. Whichever." So, I think that I'll put a pin in DMSI, take a week off to mitigate turbulence, and hopefully buy/start UD in the next week or so. No idea if I'll keep a public journal for UD or how long my run of it will be. My plan after that is to return to DMSI and to this journal.
