(04-04-2011, 06:20 PM)JamesC71 Wrote: I read about things you and others have done that they would not have had it not been for the alpha male program. I hope that by using it I can do that as well. Im tired of being one of the people at work who just does ok.I want to kick it into high gear and become a top performer myself
I'm sure it will benefit you. If you have the determination and will to do better then the alpha male program will bring it out of you.
My training at my job yesterday was just so stressful for me because the guy training me had such a thick accent I couldn't understand a lot of what he was saying. So there was a lot of miscommunication that probably made him think I wasn't a good worker. But overall it doesn't matter, I'm already hired and I'm not a slacker when it comes to work so if he's got a problem he can take it up with me. I just hate when people evaluate me when I'm under a lot of anxiety, I don't do well under pressure and I make more mistakes than I should.
Anyway after my long day at work I had to go to my accounting class and take a test. I pretty much bombed it. I was tired, stressed out, and I just had difficulty focusing. I felt like I was reading another language on the paper. This class has been difficult for me because I have no interest in it at all, it's at night, and it's almost 3 hours. But it's required for my degree so I need to take it.
I can't learn if I don't have an interest in the subject. It's very hard for me. I hear the professor talking or I read the words in the textbook but nothing connects. It's even more stressful when I try to draw connections but I can't. It just causes me to lose motivation after a while. I started off strong in the beginning of the semester, but I just lost it after a while. I just need to pass this class, and I probably will because I can usually pull myself together.
My mood pretty much took a nosedive since yesterday and today I'm just trying to relax and recover from it. Had some trouble sleeping last night too. I hate how the smallest of things send me over the edge sometimes. Or maybe it's just that I'm already dealing with a ton of stress and it was just enough to send me over the edge.
