01-21-2011, 12:30 PM
1/21/11
First day back to college. I had some anxiety pretty much all day, so I'm worn out. I noticed that I didn't really care as much what others were thinking about me during class. I spoke out a lot more than I normally would and everyone else seemed a little shy compared to me. Still the physical effect of anxiety is pretty obnoxious. My mouth gets really dry and I get dehydrated a lot faster. The constant anxiety sucks because it's like my body is in overdrive and using up more juice than it needs to.
It's a lot better than it was though. Considering this is a new class, new professor, new people, I did pretty well. In the past I'd usually be so focused on the anxiety and try to relieve some of it by being more present, but today it was manageable.
On a side note, college textbooks. Talk about ridiculous. The textbook I need for my class is $160, I'm going to try to get it used. Those publishing companies are evil, not every person that goes to college can afford that. I'm only taking 4 classes, but if each book costs me $100 that's some serious money spent. Some of my professors are going to have to wait, there is no way I'm running out to buy a new copy of a textbook for such an overpriced fee. Especially when the only thing new in the latest edition is usually the questions and not the actual content of the book. So much greed in this country, why isn't education free?
First day back to college. I had some anxiety pretty much all day, so I'm worn out. I noticed that I didn't really care as much what others were thinking about me during class. I spoke out a lot more than I normally would and everyone else seemed a little shy compared to me. Still the physical effect of anxiety is pretty obnoxious. My mouth gets really dry and I get dehydrated a lot faster. The constant anxiety sucks because it's like my body is in overdrive and using up more juice than it needs to.
It's a lot better than it was though. Considering this is a new class, new professor, new people, I did pretty well. In the past I'd usually be so focused on the anxiety and try to relieve some of it by being more present, but today it was manageable.
On a side note, college textbooks. Talk about ridiculous. The textbook I need for my class is $160, I'm going to try to get it used. Those publishing companies are evil, not every person that goes to college can afford that. I'm only taking 4 classes, but if each book costs me $100 that's some serious money spent. Some of my professors are going to have to wait, there is no way I'm running out to buy a new copy of a textbook for such an overpriced fee. Especially when the only thing new in the latest edition is usually the questions and not the actual content of the book. So much greed in this country, why isn't education free?
