Stage 3, day 27:
Tinder lunch hook-up girl did text me ask me if I was available to meet her yesterday evening.
2 hook ups in the same day is really abundance. I did less enjoy the second hook up for several reasons:
1. I already had enough
2. Late at night, I started being tired
3. Despite her finding that I'm the best in the sack (that must be the one thing that made me find the experience memorable the first time we met), I cannot say the same about her. For having done it a bit earlier before with the nurse, it was easy to compare and I did enjoy more doing it with the nurse.
4. I'm discovering her feminist/empowered/modern woman side. This has of course benefits such as she has insisted to pay half of the room renting price with me but I do prefer more submissive woman.
5. She was doing too much to please me. In a weird way, I should love it but this is sending mixed signals. The sex itself should be good by itself for not having to put more on the table. She did bring a champagne bottle and oil massage for doing me a full body massage. She did clean me in the shower. Now I fully understand how girls that are put on a pillar are feeling. don't do that guys. It is a major turn off. It telegraph that you are feeling insecure and not enough to please the other. That you feel that you need to put more on the table than just yourself. It also says how big you want the other. There is no challenge and it feels a bit uncomfortable to receive all this devotion...
For having 2 hook ups in a single day, I can easily see how when you live in sexual abundance, it can get old pretty fast. It is clearly not a satisfying end goal. I definitely looking to only have an endless inflow of options and favoring quality vs quantity with the SM3 program... I'm still looking for the perfect balance...
but yeah, the program is working!
I got several hours of sex yesterday. Something around 3-4 cumulative hours. That is a lot. and this morning I feel a little bit tired... I'll try to be low profile today to be able to rest a little bit...
Tinder lunch hook-up girl did text me ask me if I was available to meet her yesterday evening.
2 hook ups in the same day is really abundance. I did less enjoy the second hook up for several reasons:
1. I already had enough
2. Late at night, I started being tired
3. Despite her finding that I'm the best in the sack (that must be the one thing that made me find the experience memorable the first time we met), I cannot say the same about her. For having done it a bit earlier before with the nurse, it was easy to compare and I did enjoy more doing it with the nurse.
4. I'm discovering her feminist/empowered/modern woman side. This has of course benefits such as she has insisted to pay half of the room renting price with me but I do prefer more submissive woman.
5. She was doing too much to please me. In a weird way, I should love it but this is sending mixed signals. The sex itself should be good by itself for not having to put more on the table. She did bring a champagne bottle and oil massage for doing me a full body massage. She did clean me in the shower. Now I fully understand how girls that are put on a pillar are feeling. don't do that guys. It is a major turn off. It telegraph that you are feeling insecure and not enough to please the other. That you feel that you need to put more on the table than just yourself. It also says how big you want the other. There is no challenge and it feels a bit uncomfortable to receive all this devotion...
For having 2 hook ups in a single day, I can easily see how when you live in sexual abundance, it can get old pretty fast. It is clearly not a satisfying end goal. I definitely looking to only have an endless inflow of options and favoring quality vs quantity with the SM3 program... I'm still looking for the perfect balance...
but yeah, the program is working!
I got several hours of sex yesterday. Something around 3-4 cumulative hours. That is a lot. and this morning I feel a little bit tired... I'll try to be low profile today to be able to rest a little bit...
