06-15-2019, 08:11 AM
Day 18:
Yesterday evening... Just before going to bed. I got messaged on FB by my first on-the-side lover that I got when I started to use DMSI back in July 2017. I got a fling with that girl up until Nov 2017. After that I pretty much lost track of her. She broke up with me because continue seeing me wouldn't lead to what she wanted (a LTR) and was making her unavailable emotionally for other men that could lead to something else than a dead-end.
I did wrote her about 6 months ago when it was her birthday. She did reciprocate the attention for my birthday. She did ask if I did miss her to which I honestly reply no but I wouldn't mind seeing her again.
This made her upset and she told me that she was just joking...
I started become explicit sexually with her by saying... Oh last time that you were that susceptible like that with me is when you were very horny and so on....
And she didn't reply back. I feel that I have been very Mode 1. I have no interest for pursuing a non-sexual relation with that girl and I don't care about her reaction to my XXX rated language. She is either turned on by it or she stops talking to me.
She didn't reply to my last message. She either decided to not make me waste my time with something that I'm not interested in or she is still processing the dirty thoughts that I did suggest her and will eventually come back...
I spotted a sexy woman in the members of the FB group for the beach that I go at frequently... I could tell that this woman is very sexual... I did contact her and told her that I would like stop by and say hello next time that we are both at the beach... She did reply and we started to exchange few messages. I think that this lead is hot....
Yesterday evening... Just before going to bed. I got messaged on FB by my first on-the-side lover that I got when I started to use DMSI back in July 2017. I got a fling with that girl up until Nov 2017. After that I pretty much lost track of her. She broke up with me because continue seeing me wouldn't lead to what she wanted (a LTR) and was making her unavailable emotionally for other men that could lead to something else than a dead-end.
I did wrote her about 6 months ago when it was her birthday. She did reciprocate the attention for my birthday. She did ask if I did miss her to which I honestly reply no but I wouldn't mind seeing her again.
This made her upset and she told me that she was just joking...
I started become explicit sexually with her by saying... Oh last time that you were that susceptible like that with me is when you were very horny and so on....
And she didn't reply back. I feel that I have been very Mode 1. I have no interest for pursuing a non-sexual relation with that girl and I don't care about her reaction to my XXX rated language. She is either turned on by it or she stops talking to me.
She didn't reply to my last message. She either decided to not make me waste my time with something that I'm not interested in or she is still processing the dirty thoughts that I did suggest her and will eventually come back...
I spotted a sexy woman in the members of the FB group for the beach that I go at frequently... I could tell that this woman is very sexual... I did contact her and told her that I would like stop by and say hello next time that we are both at the beach... She did reply and we started to exchange few messages. I think that this lead is hot....
