I have felt depressed and without energy for pretty much the whole week. Weather sucks where I live. We have a shitty spring. I still wear my winter coat sometimes despite being near the end of May. This fact alone certainly plays a role in how I feel...
I haven't heard anything from the chick that I dated last friday. Not necessarily a bad thing. I cannot put the finger on what exactly but there was something that wasn't feeling right with this girl...
I had 2-3 leads that I could have followed with by pinging them but I had no desire to do so... What for? Even if they would have bitten to my advances, I was feeling without energy... that would probably did not been great dates anyway... idk if it is me who is resisting or if this is a genuine rough period.
On one hand, this makes me want to move on ASAP with SM3 ahead of the May 30th starting date because I feel like I am stalling right now because of how I'm feeling and the lack of action from me this create. OTOH, I feel like I am still getting plenty from my AM6 Stage 7 refresher. Such as:
- A lot of dreaming (imho, indicates subconscious activity)
- Plenty of intense and authentic interactions with women
What the last point means is that it did occur at least 5 times that I have stumbled on a woman where when our eyes did lock together in the first 3 seconds of meeting, I felt something like as if it was on. In the past, very often when I did have that feeling, later on, I did sleep with her.
Also, they were very smiling, giggling and acting flirty around me. For sure if 'pulling the trigger' was an habit, I could have leveraged the situation to move things forward...
To be honest, I have started making bold moves that I wasn't doing before and those moves come from nowhere. I'm seeing my behavior changing in front of my own eyes as if I was a spectator. I like that feeling. but what I mean is that there is still space for improvement and change to have the life that I want to have.
I'll spare the details of that but I have some sort of private journal where I write down those encounters. This allows me to play them back and perhaps insert something that I could have said or done to have a different better outcome to them. Some kind of mental rehearsal so that next time I end up in those situation, the right thing to do or say comes out automatically.
I haven't heard anything from the chick that I dated last friday. Not necessarily a bad thing. I cannot put the finger on what exactly but there was something that wasn't feeling right with this girl...
I had 2-3 leads that I could have followed with by pinging them but I had no desire to do so... What for? Even if they would have bitten to my advances, I was feeling without energy... that would probably did not been great dates anyway... idk if it is me who is resisting or if this is a genuine rough period.
On one hand, this makes me want to move on ASAP with SM3 ahead of the May 30th starting date because I feel like I am stalling right now because of how I'm feeling and the lack of action from me this create. OTOH, I feel like I am still getting plenty from my AM6 Stage 7 refresher. Such as:
- A lot of dreaming (imho, indicates subconscious activity)
- Plenty of intense and authentic interactions with women
What the last point means is that it did occur at least 5 times that I have stumbled on a woman where when our eyes did lock together in the first 3 seconds of meeting, I felt something like as if it was on. In the past, very often when I did have that feeling, later on, I did sleep with her.
Also, they were very smiling, giggling and acting flirty around me. For sure if 'pulling the trigger' was an habit, I could have leveraged the situation to move things forward...
To be honest, I have started making bold moves that I wasn't doing before and those moves come from nowhere. I'm seeing my behavior changing in front of my own eyes as if I was a spectator. I like that feeling. but what I mean is that there is still space for improvement and change to have the life that I want to have.
I'll spare the details of that but I have some sort of private journal where I write down those encounters. This allows me to play them back and perhaps insert something that I could have said or done to have a different better outcome to them. Some kind of mental rehearsal so that next time I end up in those situation, the right thing to do or say comes out automatically.
