journal de la dissonance

[dissonance]

Right now, I really need to get a job really badly, and I think the sub is making me very turbulent/resistant inside. I overslept even though I knew that oversleeping would fuck with my well-being and lifestyle/sleeping schedule a bit, which is really detrimental at this point, because I need to be clear and stuff when I apply to jobs, etc.

self-esteem sucks right now as well as confidence. resistance is strong today, i think it has begun.