11-22-2015, 10:22 AM
I had a couple experiences in the past few days where I normally would have felt terribly depressed right now. What happened was I fapped two days in a row, and both were in a very (previously) would-have-been-self-esteem destroying activity, which was phone sex. It was my first time doing it with a girl I met through a chat site. And then yesterday, we sort of "broke up", and she decided to stop going to the chat site because it was confusing for her. Anyways, normally, today I would have felt crazy depressed and stuff, and self-esteem totally down the drain. However, I really don't feel that bad. I just feel a little bit down, and still able to somewhat enjoy the day, and feel "good" & positive about myself. Not sure if it's OF 1.1, or AM6's execution/engrainment.
