08-27-2019, 09:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 08-27-2019, 09:55 AM by Have at ye.)
A quick little update:
Been feeling very well recently. I have actually ended up doing 3x4, 3x0 (tomorrow is the third day off) as I have noticed that the third loop is still getting a "I'd prefer not to" reaction from some part of me, whilst on the fourth loop the reaction started changing to an enthusiastic "yes, yes, yes
". I'm also using a higher volume (foobar says 0dB volume adjustment, I'm using hybrid on headphones - the volume is actually pretty pleasant, heh).
Anyroad, I'm close to finished with one of the translations I've been procrastinating on (just gotta get some more source quotations from the library and it'll be done - hopefully I'll manage to do it tomorrow), and then I'll get started on the other one, which shouldn't take too long.
Bardic practice is going extremely well apart from the fact that, unfortunately, I am going to have to (most probably) stop working with my vocal coach. She's wasted a year of my time (and health, as well as a lot of professional reputation - she actually, apparently, went as far as to try to gaslight me by proxy
- fortunately it's only "local singing class" reputation, so it's not that big of a bother) already just because she (most probably) feels the need to "prove daddy wrong" (she's been using me as an object of experimentation by trying to forcefully mold me into a higher voice type than I actually am - the worst part is, she's abused my trust by doing so because *she did not inform me of the fact*). She's also been involving herself in my private affairs, which I find abhorrent from a professional standpoint (as it turns out, one of my little aristocrat's BFFs - apart from having responded to my DMSIng back when I was doing DMSI; *very* attractive girl, but - unfortunately - on the insecure side as far as I can tell - is a total tattletale, apparently, and she used to study vocal coaching for pianists under my vocal coach's tutelage, so they know each other and have been gossiping gods know what about me behind my back. The BFF in question turns out to have been the reason *everyone knows everything* in the local showbiz, ughhh). I met for a session with her recently, and unfortunately she keeps on trying to pull a fast one on me *again*. She's also being extremely facetious about the whole thing - she's trying to shift the blame for herself making a mistake, and wasting a lot of my time, effort, energy and health - onto me, and is very unapologetic. This probably means good-bye.
I have to do everything myself, as always, don't I?
I've already contacted another pianist I know so that we can get started working on some repertoire, but he's not a vocal coach by any means. I do have enough confidence in my own skills and knowledge of bardic practice shenanigans to have a go at it alone, though. The "local singing class" are unfortunately a bunch of incompetent morons and/or poopoo-heads who would try to muck up my singing simply out of spite (I'm not kidding nor exaggerating here, unfortunately... I used to work with one guy from around here for about a year, during my studies at the conservatory, who tried to intentionally sabotage my progress because, apparently, he was afraid he'd have to compete with me professionally at a later date as well as due to egotism of the *but I am the greatestest and my voice is the bestest and everyone should be bowing down before me, peasants!* variety, lol. He's shit out of luck in both regards, though, hahaha, even though he keeps trying to make trouble for me locally anyway).
BTW., UMS clearing and healing (and shielding) has been hard at work on the above (as well as most probably on the more deeply unconscious issues related to similar situations, etc.) recently.
Been feeling very well recently. I have actually ended up doing 3x4, 3x0 (tomorrow is the third day off) as I have noticed that the third loop is still getting a "I'd prefer not to" reaction from some part of me, whilst on the fourth loop the reaction started changing to an enthusiastic "yes, yes, yes
". I'm also using a higher volume (foobar says 0dB volume adjustment, I'm using hybrid on headphones - the volume is actually pretty pleasant, heh).Anyroad, I'm close to finished with one of the translations I've been procrastinating on (just gotta get some more source quotations from the library and it'll be done - hopefully I'll manage to do it tomorrow), and then I'll get started on the other one, which shouldn't take too long.
Bardic practice is going extremely well apart from the fact that, unfortunately, I am going to have to (most probably) stop working with my vocal coach. She's wasted a year of my time (and health, as well as a lot of professional reputation - she actually, apparently, went as far as to try to gaslight me by proxy
- fortunately it's only "local singing class" reputation, so it's not that big of a bother) already just because she (most probably) feels the need to "prove daddy wrong" (she's been using me as an object of experimentation by trying to forcefully mold me into a higher voice type than I actually am - the worst part is, she's abused my trust by doing so because *she did not inform me of the fact*). She's also been involving herself in my private affairs, which I find abhorrent from a professional standpoint (as it turns out, one of my little aristocrat's BFFs - apart from having responded to my DMSIng back when I was doing DMSI; *very* attractive girl, but - unfortunately - on the insecure side as far as I can tell - is a total tattletale, apparently, and she used to study vocal coaching for pianists under my vocal coach's tutelage, so they know each other and have been gossiping gods know what about me behind my back. The BFF in question turns out to have been the reason *everyone knows everything* in the local showbiz, ughhh). I met for a session with her recently, and unfortunately she keeps on trying to pull a fast one on me *again*. She's also being extremely facetious about the whole thing - she's trying to shift the blame for herself making a mistake, and wasting a lot of my time, effort, energy and health - onto me, and is very unapologetic. This probably means good-bye.I have to do everything myself, as always, don't I?
I've already contacted another pianist I know so that we can get started working on some repertoire, but he's not a vocal coach by any means. I do have enough confidence in my own skills and knowledge of bardic practice shenanigans to have a go at it alone, though. The "local singing class" are unfortunately a bunch of incompetent morons and/or poopoo-heads who would try to muck up my singing simply out of spite (I'm not kidding nor exaggerating here, unfortunately... I used to work with one guy from around here for about a year, during my studies at the conservatory, who tried to intentionally sabotage my progress because, apparently, he was afraid he'd have to compete with me professionally at a later date as well as due to egotism of the *but I am the greatestest and my voice is the bestest and everyone should be bowing down before me, peasants!* variety, lol. He's shit out of luck in both regards, though, hahaha, even though he keeps trying to make trouble for me locally anyway).
BTW., UMS clearing and healing (and shielding) has been hard at work on the above (as well as most probably on the more deeply unconscious issues related to similar situations, etc.) recently.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
